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Title: my gender aka hi im new
Post by: karmagypsy on August 06, 2014, 04:36:50 PM
Post by: karmagypsy on August 06, 2014, 04:36:50 PM
So as far as I can think back Ive never been to in to gender Ive allways known I did not fit in with the rest of crowd. I grew up as a tomboy I allwas dressed in guy clothes and i was allwas doing some thing with my hair may it be cutting it all off so im bald or growing it out past my ass and dieing it every color under the sun ( some would say my drastic hair changes are due to my mental issues)
Ive allwas been a bit androgynous in some aspect. I get a lot of is that a boy or is that a girl growing up. Now this used to bug me a hell of a lot because I was a girl I was born with girl parts so I had to be a girl right???? ( before i go on here let me point out I was raised with a very open family very accepting) Well I was just really uncomfortable in my skin. I thought my issue was perhaps Im lez I for most of my life i knew I liked women well I lied I fell in like with people for who they where not what parts they had but I thought i was gay I figured it made sense. After a while i realized that was not my problem so I went to the one place I knew might have answers THE INTERNET!!!!!! there where times where I kept trying to fix my slef thinking well if i just try and be girly ill get out of this slump but I tried and tried with no break to the hell I felt. But after doing a lot of research and soul searching I discovered I am transgender well more gender less I am now very comfortable with the fact I am am a pansexual male who enjoys looking fem from time to time in a females body there are days where i still struggle because I don't look the way i wish i could but i I have learned I look pretty damn good all dolled up and im sexy as hell as a male so far its working wonders for me tho I can't tell many people and a lot of people don't understand why I am this way and I really wish I had more people to talk about who was more accepting. My dom tries but I don't think he really gets it sadly and even tho I have my family they are under enough stress with my mental issues and I well not put then thro that. So im kinda floating out here all by my self it gets very lonley here in my world
Ive allwas been a bit androgynous in some aspect. I get a lot of is that a boy or is that a girl growing up. Now this used to bug me a hell of a lot because I was a girl I was born with girl parts so I had to be a girl right???? ( before i go on here let me point out I was raised with a very open family very accepting) Well I was just really uncomfortable in my skin. I thought my issue was perhaps Im lez I for most of my life i knew I liked women well I lied I fell in like with people for who they where not what parts they had but I thought i was gay I figured it made sense. After a while i realized that was not my problem so I went to the one place I knew might have answers THE INTERNET!!!!!! there where times where I kept trying to fix my slef thinking well if i just try and be girly ill get out of this slump but I tried and tried with no break to the hell I felt. But after doing a lot of research and soul searching I discovered I am transgender well more gender less I am now very comfortable with the fact I am am a pansexual male who enjoys looking fem from time to time in a females body there are days where i still struggle because I don't look the way i wish i could but i I have learned I look pretty damn good all dolled up and im sexy as hell as a male so far its working wonders for me tho I can't tell many people and a lot of people don't understand why I am this way and I really wish I had more people to talk about who was more accepting. My dom tries but I don't think he really gets it sadly and even tho I have my family they are under enough stress with my mental issues and I well not put then thro that. So im kinda floating out here all by my self it gets very lonley here in my world
Title: Re: my gender aka hi im new
Post by: mrs izzy on August 06, 2014, 04:55:42 PM
Post by: mrs izzy on August 06, 2014, 04:55:42 PM
Karmagypsy Welcome to Susan's
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Welcome to the family, there are ftm her that will be glad to help you out in that side of the spectrum. There are also others in different aspects of there genders that might fit more?
I would suggest if you do not already have one is find a Gender therapist that can help you more understand where your feelings of gender fall in the spectrum.
Transition is very, very hard and should only be done when it is necessary.
So relax and breathe, we are always here and welcome any question you might have.
Safe passage on your path
Mrs. Izzy
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Welcome to the family, there are ftm her that will be glad to help you out in that side of the spectrum. There are also others in different aspects of there genders that might fit more?
I would suggest if you do not already have one is find a Gender therapist that can help you more understand where your feelings of gender fall in the spectrum.
Transition is very, very hard and should only be done when it is necessary.
So relax and breathe, we are always here and welcome any question you might have.
Safe passage on your path
Mrs. Izzy
Title: Re: my gender aka hi im new
Post by: EllieM on August 06, 2014, 05:15:47 PM
Post by: EllieM on August 06, 2014, 05:15:47 PM
hi karmagypsy...
no need to feel lonely anymore, you are among friends here, people on a similar journey who know the pitfalls, the anxiety, but also the joy to be found. So. Hold forth, let it out right here in the forum. We are here to help where we can, share our experiences with you and provide you with the support we all need on this journey.
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Title: Re: my gender aka hi im new
Post by: karmagypsy on August 06, 2014, 05:48:19 PM
Post by: karmagypsy on August 06, 2014, 05:48:19 PM
thank you all very much and fyi i never talked about transitioning I don't have the money nor do i feel it is necessary I don't need the hormones to make me a guy and perhaps one day i well but as of right now im ok with out them
Title: Re: my gender aka hi im new
Post by: gennee on August 07, 2014, 04:01:11 PM
Post by: gennee on August 07, 2014, 04:01:11 PM
Welcome to Susan's, Karmagypsy. I haven't had surgery or taken hormones either. I feel every bit as female though. Happy that you found the site because there's a lot of great people here.
:)
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Title: Re: my gender aka hi im new
Post by: Ms Grace on August 07, 2014, 04:46:07 PM
Post by: Ms Grace on August 07, 2014, 04:46:07 PM
Hey! Welcome to Susan's! Hopefully you will be able to make plenty of friends here, nothing worse than feeling like you're going through something like understanding your gender identity all by yourself.