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Title: Stuck on a thought.
Post by: Meli on August 20, 2014, 05:25:19 PM
Post by: Meli on August 20, 2014, 05:25:19 PM
I'm not sure of this is the right forum for this, so feel free to move it, but.. here we go.
I'm a 19 year old female (Born female) however I tend to label myself as lesbian/stud, I suppose. I came out as a lesbian around the 6th grade, so I knew from a young age who I was. However I always had a tomboy side. I never felt comfortable in feminine clothing, still never do. So maybe upwards of 2 years ago, I finally started dressing exclusively in guys clothing. I found myself more comfortable with short hair. I believe I have BDD (Body Dysmorphic Disorder) a few years back I went through a rough spot in my life with eating. I've never been comfortable with my body, so I tried to take matters in my own hands.. I stopped eating, I binged and purged.. but I was never satisfied... I'm still never satisfied..
Anyways, that out of the way. I've always been intrigued by the male physique. Everything about it. And over the past years i've slowly started looking more and more into testosterone... now don't get me wrong here, I am perfectly happy being a female. And identifying as such. I wouldn't really want top surgery or bottom surgery or anything like that, but I really like the male characteristics. The more I think about it the more I want to do it.. Purely for the physical changes. But I am so uncertain.. I dont know how to organize these thoughts, I don't know if i'm confusing this feeling for something else or what.. I just ask for some advice, if anyone here has ever been through the same thing as myself.
I mean no disrespect to those transitioning currently or otherwise, if they may find this topic offensive somehow. The thought has just been stuck on me for a long time now.
Thank you all so much.
I'm a 19 year old female (Born female) however I tend to label myself as lesbian/stud, I suppose. I came out as a lesbian around the 6th grade, so I knew from a young age who I was. However I always had a tomboy side. I never felt comfortable in feminine clothing, still never do. So maybe upwards of 2 years ago, I finally started dressing exclusively in guys clothing. I found myself more comfortable with short hair. I believe I have BDD (Body Dysmorphic Disorder) a few years back I went through a rough spot in my life with eating. I've never been comfortable with my body, so I tried to take matters in my own hands.. I stopped eating, I binged and purged.. but I was never satisfied... I'm still never satisfied..
Anyways, that out of the way. I've always been intrigued by the male physique. Everything about it. And over the past years i've slowly started looking more and more into testosterone... now don't get me wrong here, I am perfectly happy being a female. And identifying as such. I wouldn't really want top surgery or bottom surgery or anything like that, but I really like the male characteristics. The more I think about it the more I want to do it.. Purely for the physical changes. But I am so uncertain.. I dont know how to organize these thoughts, I don't know if i'm confusing this feeling for something else or what.. I just ask for some advice, if anyone here has ever been through the same thing as myself.
I mean no disrespect to those transitioning currently or otherwise, if they may find this topic offensive somehow. The thought has just been stuck on me for a long time now.
Thank you all so much.
Title: Re: Stuck on a thought.
Post by: Matthew on August 20, 2014, 05:29:38 PM
Post by: Matthew on August 20, 2014, 05:29:38 PM
Welcome to Susan's!
All my advice for you is to do what you feel is comfortable. Also, talking to a therapist will REALLY help.
Don't overthink things,it's perfectly fine to just wear men's clothes and identify as female just as it is ok to feel male and transition :)
Take your time and work things out, maybe with a professional. Just do what feels right for YOU.
All my advice for you is to do what you feel is comfortable. Also, talking to a therapist will REALLY help.
Don't overthink things,it's perfectly fine to just wear men's clothes and identify as female just as it is ok to feel male and transition :)
Take your time and work things out, maybe with a professional. Just do what feels right for YOU.
Title: Re: Stuck on a thought.
Post by: mrs izzy on August 20, 2014, 05:30:23 PM
Post by: mrs izzy on August 20, 2014, 05:30:23 PM
Welcome to Susan's family Meli
There is not ones size fits all with feelings or GD. Take the time and do not over think things. Maybe getting a therapist would help come to a better understanding of your feelings.
T holds many side effects that can be permanent so caution should always be #1
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Title: Re: Stuck on a thought.
Post by: Ms Grace on August 20, 2014, 05:55:21 PM
Post by: Ms Grace on August 20, 2014, 05:55:21 PM
Hi Meli
I guess, looking at it from the other way there are plenty of people born male who like to present feminine who likewise have no desire to transition. Gender identity is a massive spectrum, if you feel happy being who you are without a need to transition to male then that is perfectly fine.
I guess, looking at it from the other way there are plenty of people born male who like to present feminine who likewise have no desire to transition. Gender identity is a massive spectrum, if you feel happy being who you are without a need to transition to male then that is perfectly fine.