Susan's Place Transgender Resources

Wondering how y'all are doing, what you guys have been up to and what-have-you. Some of you might have read my earlier post about suicidal tendencies while I was trying to figure some stuff out, I'll fill you in: it will be 3 months and 1 week this Friday (I started T two days before my birthday  :) ). I realized and have come to the conclusion that what I was feeling was obviously a factor of self-medication, major dysphoria and depressive side-effects of T. I've been talking and spending more time with my trans friends and going to support groups much more often which has really helped with things overall. In any case, starting HRT could quite possibly have been the best thing that has ever happened to me, in that I feel much more confident and secure with myself (for example, my voice dysphoria used to be so bad that I wouldn't speak.) I feel like I am becoming whole. If it weren't for the knowledge of the existence of my endo and her help through this (starting me on hormones), I don't believe I'd be here. Prior to being on hormones things in life didn't seem to "fit", I didn't know what I was doing, where I was going, what I had to live for. In respects as to who I am as a person and identity-wise, things have fallen into place. Sure I may be lost in other aspects of life, such as being set on a career (even though I have somewhat of on idea...slowly getting to a point of sureness ;) ), but I figure that's what anyone my age would go through (I'm 19). I still do have depressive symptoms which were already pre-existing, my endo did tell me they could potentially worsen, but I have supports and I reach out. Also, before starting T I weighed out the pros and cons (I entered my endo's office with sheets of paper that had questions regarding things not just concerning physical changes, but mental, emotional and health repercussions and what I could do about them) and the pros outweighed the cons. Personally, I wasn't predisposed to anything dramatic other than possible mental health side-effects and of course things that would happen if I were not to take care of my physical self properly, like having an unhealthy diet.
If you don't recall my previous post, I'm sorry but I deleted it which I truly regret as it could have helped many people possibly. :(
Other than that, I'm sort of trying to just take every day as it comes and take it for what it's worth. I've got this new mentality to sort of live like I could die any second, which is neat because it makes me feel arid and content. Not having a care in the world and stopping to smell the roses is a great experience.
I sent in my name change application for the third grueling time and hopefully it will come back valid! I also ordered a packer and it should be arriving in a few days, which I'm pretty stoked about ^_^ If anyone has any questions about it I can PM you with the link to the site I ordered it off of. If anyone has any questions in general, I'd be pleased to answer them.

I find Susan's to be a very cathartic place for me, unlike anywhere else. :)

Sorry, I just realized "no sales posts". My bad.

That's good that you're doing okay and making progress, and that you're self-aware and keeping mindful of the potential difficulties of the path you're on.

Susan's is really nice for feeling more normal and getting stuff out.

I'm late in replying to this but I'm glad you are doing some better. It can be a tough journey.