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Hi my name is Kaylee,

For the last 26 years I have been imprisoned inside the body of a man. It's been a long hard road to get to the point where I am today after hitting rock bottom a few years ago. But I am finally in a place where I can start to free myself from this prison.

Very slowly step by step I'm beginning to set myself free and have even told my wife of 8 years that I am here inside her husband. I am very fortunate to have married such a wonderful person, as all she wants is for me to be happy, if that means in the future she will be living with a woman she has no problem with that.

The next hurdle I will have to overcome is finding a therapist, to help break down the barriers I have contructed, to finally free myself from the shallow existence that I have built.

It was extremely hard to come to terms with my emotions, I have tried for the last 20 years to suppress these feelings but I can no longer continue down that path.

When I was younger I promised myself that I would never allow myself to become a victim, which led me down the path of martial arts having trained in tae kwon do, karate, muay thai and boxing it gave me a tremendous amount of self discipline which aided me through the majority of my life helping to keep my sanity. Without this I likely wouldn't be here today.

On this next step of my journey through life, I find that I am excited about the next chapter. The chapter where I will be able to live free as Kaylee without having to hide anything from anyone.

Put simply I have decided that when I start outing myself to friends and family, it will be a test of how deep our bonds go. If they can accept what I'm going to be telling them fantastic if not I will understand. I already have the support of the most important person in my life.

It's time to let Kaylee out.

Quote from: Kayleewantsout on September 02, 2014, 01:24:44 AM
Hi my name is Kaylee,

For the last 26 years I have been imprisoned inside the body of a man. It's been a long hard road to get to the point where I am today after hitting rock bottom a few years ago. But I am finally in a place where I can start to free myself from this prison.

Very slowly step by step I'm beginning to set myself free and have even told my wife of 8 years that I am here inside her husband. I am very fortunate to have married such a wonderful person, as all she wants is for me to be happy, if that means in the future she will be living with a woman she has no problem with that.

The next hurdle I will have to overcome is finding a therapist, to help break down the barriers I have contructed, to finally free myself from the shallow existence that I have built.

It was extremely hard to come to terms with my emotions, I have tried for the last 20 years to suppress these feelings but I can no longer continue down that path.

When I was younger I promised myself that I would never allow myself to become a victim, which led me down the path of martial arts having trained in tae kwon do, karate, muay thai and boxing it gave me a tremendous amount of self discipline which aided me through the majority of my life helping to keep my sanity. Without this I likely wouldn't be here today.

On this next step of my journey through life, I find that I am excited about the next chapter. The chapter where I will be able to live free as Kaylee without having to hide anything from anyone.

Put simply I have decided that when I start outing myself to friends and family, it will be a test of how deep our bonds go. If they can accept what I'm going to be telling them fantastic if not I will understand. I already have the support of the most important person in my life.

It's time to let Kaylee out.

Welcome to Susan's! I wish you luck on your journey, and I hope to see you around the forums, you seem like a happy gal!

iiMTF

Hi there Kaylee! Welcome here. I'm in my late thirties and just recently signed up as well. I managed to repress being trans for so long, it's unbelievable. For me it was my body finally telling me that something's wrong by getting sick. That's when I started probing into what the cause for all my problems was and here I am.

I'm very happy that your wife reacted so wonderfully! I have told my husband, but I can't tell how supportive he will be. He loves me, and he will do everything to see me happy, but I don't have the slightest idea of how he feels about this. He's afflicted with this male condition of not being great in communicating his feelings ;) (sorry, that's a stereotype, of course). Just imagine what will happen when there's two of us in this family :-[

All best to you on your way :)

Hi Kaylee  :icon_wave:

Welcome to Susan's  :)  Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

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Welcome to Susan's, Kaylee. Sounds like you've got the transition ball rolling in all the right directions. Congrats!

Hi Kaylie. Welcome to Susan's. You sound excited about what is to come. We are here to share the highs and the lows with you. Keep posting and we will be there with you. Jx