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Well if there was ever a time to tell my cramped story it'd be to strangers across the World Wide Web who will probably care more than actual physical people in my life lol. My name starts with a J it'll be Jamie after I change it I'll like to believe that the quality of my life will instantly mean I'll become who I want to be with my new name but.. things are rarely that easy as we all know. I was born a baby girl on an island in the Caribbean to the most wonderful mother anyone could ever ask for and a father more despicable than Al Pacino in the devils advocate. I immigrated to the tri state area at eight at which point I met my father for the first time and learned what well let's just say it he beat the crap of me for the next ten years while simultaneously cheating on the most kind human being either of us have ever met(we don't agree on much but on that we are united). Long story short I've got issues haha joined the Marine Corps soon as I graduated high school I've recently gotten out and am actively in college in pursuit of a business major and I dabble in other things. Now the part that's hard to even write about  I'm Hispanic ha I look white because of my skin but my upbringing and blood is everything but.. It's hard enough being a "lesbian" ha it all sort of happened when I was around fifteen. Was like I discovered that such a thing as becoming who you felt on the inside had a name and a process and it was a reality. All that information did was depress me further  like a dream that can become real for other people but never for me. I had always felt like a boy growing up never liked girls ha until I hit thirteen those feelings were confusing  puberty even more. I remember feeling so scared I'd get curves and breasts and well I told myself I could always get them reduced if they were too big(not exactly normal thoughts a 12 yr old has id realize later) I don't know everything hurts when I think about all the guys that do become who they want to be and look so great and I'm trapped in my box. Reason I can't transition is my mother is all I have and I'm all she has the woman is literally a saint guys she'll restore your faith in humanity I promise you haha but she would die if I did and I have no one else to care for me no one else ever has.. She took the gay thing hard lol as any Hispanic mother would she would say things like "I gave birth to a girl not a boy" lol I don't know I guess to become me I'd have to lose her and I can't bring myself to do that idk but I find myself becoming an angrier insanely violent person (have I mentioned my time in the corps may have screwed me up a bit?) and I'm scared of where I'm going to end up idk what I'm here for guys guess success stories both make me happy and sad

A big warm welcome to the family Jaime!! We are so glad you found us and rest assured you are not alone at all. We have a really great family here and we all help each other out with whatever is happening. YOU are now part of it and will make friends with some of the greatest people alive. So relax and dig right in as there is really great information here by real people actually under going transition. You will learn what works or doesn't with great tips and suggestions in between.  :)

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Thank you so much for the welcome and posting the links to the rules of the forum etc I meant to read it but there is so much here i got lost in the all information but I most certainly have read them now so thanks :]  and I'm sorry for the novel entry.. I don't get out much

Quote from: JHeron on September 05, 2014, 10:22:06 PM
I most certainly have read them now

WOW! Someone read the rules? <Jessica passing out>  :icon_yikes:

Uh, what happened? Someone read the rules! <Passes out again>  :o

It is very easy to get lost in here and spend hours without noticing. Glad to have you with us!!!  :)

Welcome to Susan's, Jamie! Hopefully we can help you feel less scared and provide the support and answers you need to sort things out! :)

Quote from: Jessica Merriman on September 05, 2014, 10:26:16 PM
WOW! Someone read the rules? <Jessica passing out>  :icon_yikes:

Uh, what happened? Someone read the rules! <Passes out again>  :o

It is very easy to get lost in here and spend hours without noticing. Glad to have you with us!!!  :)

This literally made me laugh out loud xD but I did read them cause I don't want to get banned or anything on my first post lol I will try my best to lock up the vulgar marine in me because that one will most likely be my only hiccup. I like your Teddy Roosevelt quote btw

Quote from: JHeron on September 05, 2014, 10:43:31 PM
I like your Teddy Roosevelt quote btw

I live my life everyday using that quote! It really is true and should be our official motto concerning transition.  :)

You will be amazed at how many people the Corps has given us here! Check out the topic "Roll call".  ;)

Quote from: JHeron on September 05, 2014, 09:57:13 PM
Was like I discovered that such a thing as becoming who you felt on the inside had a name and a process and it was a reality.

Hello!

I loved this sentence, it gave me a chuckle. 

Thanks for even reading it lol I'm afraid I'm much more a reader than  writer but  :D what can you do