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Title: new mtf finally finding her way
Post by: Alexis79 on September 10, 2014, 12:30:39 PM
Post by: Alexis79 on September 10, 2014, 12:30:39 PM
Hi everyone.
I am using the anonymous username for fear of exposure in my very small, very male dominant industry. I admire those who are even courageous enough to use their true selves and names here, but I am still not ready yet. One thing I have learned in reading many of your stories - jobs matter.
So a little about myself...
I grew up in a VERY conservative/Republican part of the western u.s., and haven't really moved too far (well, 12 hours away isn't far in the mountain states) from it all. I am about to start a new job in the big SLC, not too far from where I grew up, but far enough away.
I am a Sci fi an games fan, love playing sports (though getting bored with watching all the masculinity and strutting around), and otherwise have lived what I THOUGHT was NOT the norm for questioning one's gender.
I have recently had a major shift in my internal perspective, and all the wishes and desires I have had most of my life are now too important to push down anymore. It is why I am here - to be myself...a girl next door who no longer desires to live in a boy's world.
I hope to find help from your strength before me to get me through some of the biggest issues, and hope you will forgive my desire for privacy - I do like my job and industry, and hope to...find a way to not lose it fully and completely. This new job may offer that salvation, since work clothes are baggy coveralls over (traditionally) tshirt and jeans.
I do hope to get past my fears in all of life, and that this will be my second place i start to truly open up (best friend knows - she is very transfriendly, and building up courage to tell the wife).
Wish me luck, please be patient with me, and help me reach my much needed comfort zone. I want to be more open like the wonderful people I see here.
Thank you.
I am using the anonymous username for fear of exposure in my very small, very male dominant industry. I admire those who are even courageous enough to use their true selves and names here, but I am still not ready yet. One thing I have learned in reading many of your stories - jobs matter.
So a little about myself...
I grew up in a VERY conservative/Republican part of the western u.s., and haven't really moved too far (well, 12 hours away isn't far in the mountain states) from it all. I am about to start a new job in the big SLC, not too far from where I grew up, but far enough away.
I am a Sci fi an games fan, love playing sports (though getting bored with watching all the masculinity and strutting around), and otherwise have lived what I THOUGHT was NOT the norm for questioning one's gender.
I have recently had a major shift in my internal perspective, and all the wishes and desires I have had most of my life are now too important to push down anymore. It is why I am here - to be myself...a girl next door who no longer desires to live in a boy's world.
I hope to find help from your strength before me to get me through some of the biggest issues, and hope you will forgive my desire for privacy - I do like my job and industry, and hope to...find a way to not lose it fully and completely. This new job may offer that salvation, since work clothes are baggy coveralls over (traditionally) tshirt and jeans.
I do hope to get past my fears in all of life, and that this will be my second place i start to truly open up (best friend knows - she is very transfriendly, and building up courage to tell the wife).
Wish me luck, please be patient with me, and help me reach my much needed comfort zone. I want to be more open like the wonderful people I see here.
Thank you.
Title: Re: new mtf finally finding her way
Post by: EllieM on September 10, 2014, 02:09:38 PM
Post by: EllieM on September 10, 2014, 02:09:38 PM
Hi... uh... gee should I assign you a pseudonym? Naw... you pick one. Hint: Ellie is not my legal name ;)
Welcome to Susan's sis! You have come to the right place if support and understanding is what you are looking for. Anonymity is my middle name... erm... actually it's Sarah, but let's just say for the time being that it's anonymity ;)
Many of us here have taken the virtual veil, privacy is respected here. I know you will grow here. A member of the Mod Squad will be by shortly (if not while I type this) to advise you of some reading you should do concerning the code of conduct.
My first piece of advice: if you have not yet engaged the services of a gender issue knowledgeable therapist, doing so will be of particular benefit.
safe journey
-ellie
Welcome to Susan's sis! You have come to the right place if support and understanding is what you are looking for. Anonymity is my middle name... erm... actually it's Sarah, but let's just say for the time being that it's anonymity ;)
Many of us here have taken the virtual veil, privacy is respected here. I know you will grow here. A member of the Mod Squad will be by shortly (if not while I type this) to advise you of some reading you should do concerning the code of conduct.
My first piece of advice: if you have not yet engaged the services of a gender issue knowledgeable therapist, doing so will be of particular benefit.
safe journey
-ellie
Title: Re: new mtf finally finding her way
Post by: V M on September 10, 2014, 04:50:20 PM
Post by: V M on September 10, 2014, 04:50:20 PM
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