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Although I feel like I am trapped in the wrong body I have never been disgusted with my penis. I never loved or hated it. For the past 15ish years my gender issued have gotten more and more strong and life has gotten more stressful and I feel more angry. I was just using the restroom where I was standing up and I thought to myself wow this this is such a pain in the butt. I have to take it out try and tuck it back in the boxers when done. Things just seems better with a vagina. I have had these thoughts more recently. Anyone else have these same thoughts or am I just crazy?

I wouldn't say I was tired of my male parts exactly, but on the other hand I must admit a growing anticipation at the prospect of getting rid of them.

Standing up to pee is one of the few advantages of the thing!

On another topic I have never liked boxers, I have always preferred something a little tighter, these days I use tight undies and tuck my 'junk' away between my legs. Sometimes it's a little uncomfortable but I like the tradeoff of not worrying about it being spotted!

My feelings about my male parts range from completely indifferent to totally hating them. They are indeed a nuisance, and the worst part is they're occupying the space where my vagina's supposed to be ><

Perhaps you should wear tighter fitting underwear so that it's not such a pain to tuck? For me tucking used to be really painful until I started wearing underwear that's tight fitting, but gentle on my boy parts. Specifically boyshorts (coincidentally) that are the right size for my waist keep things held back pretty comfortably.

When I have tight trousers on I often end up with several layers, I have to admit the tighter things are packed away the more comfy it is, often i'll end up with undies, boyshorts, tights and then my trousers!

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I haven't really gotten into hating mine yet, the standing to pee is still a convenience even if its a little harder to do because mine's in like retreat mode at this point without getting too graphic. When I'm allowed to wear women's clothes again at the end of October I'll go back to sitting, I could never feel right standing in women's clothes but I don't have an issue in men's its weird I guess. And I don't remember last time I wore boxers I've been wearing panties since December last year.

It only bothers me when I'm sleeping and I wake up to a standing salute.

By itself its presence doesn't bother me. But as part of a whole it does, especially if I'm wearing a skirt or dress. I hate that I have to tuck it and that it sometimes would poke out.

Standing up to pee is an advantage but I usually sit unless I use the urinal or go in the woods. In fact there is a device called "shewee" which allows one to stand up and pee even if one has a vagina.

Quote from: Abby Claire on September 18, 2014, 01:05:56 PM
It only bothers me when I'm sleeping and I wake up to a standing salute.

No more of that thanks to my T-blocker injection, thank god!

Yeah after 8 months its like the poor things being killed off. Its functions are basically just for urination now. The effort to make it "stand at attention" is just to much to bother, especially being separated and now I moved away from the guy I was seeing.

Quote from: Alice Rogers on September 18, 2014, 01:19:56 PM
No more of that thanks to my T-blocker injection, thank god!

Jealous. :(

Quote from: KittyKat on September 18, 2014, 01:25:32 PM
Yeah after 8 months its like the poor things being killed off. Its functions are basically just for urination now. The effort to make it "stand at attention" is just to much to bother, especially being separated and now I moved away from the guy I was seeing.

I still coax it up regularly despite my distaste, I want to maintain tissue elasticity and size so my shiny new vagina will be of a reasonable depth.

Yeah I do sometimes but its really rare these days. Not like when T made decisions.

Leading up to the point when I went full time I hardly ever had any issues other than I wanted it gone! Now that I have been full time for the past two months I'm constantly fighting crippling dysphoria as nearly every step I take something feels wrong down there or chafes or pop's out of place, every time I go to the bathroom I'm reminded that it's there....ect Just have to wait things out until I pass the 1 year full time mark and get two letters from therapists stating I'm sane to be able to get my GRS and somehow come up with the money to do that part too.

I can't even remember that last time I stood up to pee. It's been 4-5 months ago and I don't miss that privilege at all.

I never hated my male parts. I rather liked them and what they allowed me to enjoy.

But I hated not having female parts, if that makes any sense.

Suzi, I think that makes a lot of sense.  For me, it's a feeling that I don't have what I'm supposed to have.  Even when I was in denial about being trans for all those years, I still always wished I had a vagina.

some days are better than others for me as well... but honestly i sit down and pull my pagina (thats what i call it) out of the side of my under ware preventing the full shebang (so to speak)... it makes me feel more feminine and when its really bothersome i tuck . but just know that this is a part of the transition ... they say things get worse before they get better ...so just remind yourself that you don't have to live with her attached forever :-) i hope it gets better  :-*

Quote from: kg85621 on September 18, 2014, 12:35:41 PM
... I thought to myself wow this this is such a pain in the butt. I have to take it out try and tuck it back in the boxers when done. Things just seems better with a vagina.

I know it's nice to think of things as greener in the other paddock but all women actually need to be a lot more careful with their hygiene, wiping after every pee and wiping in the right direction after a number 2 lest they end up with an infection in their urinary tract, or worse. Keeping the whole downstairs area very clean is something most cis girls are taught to do from a very early age. The risk of infection is always there, even for women who do the right thing. Whilst a penis is prone to these things it is not as high a risk.

Just a thought! :)