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ok you don't have to read this or comment or anything i just want to vent. Sorry in advance. trigger trigger trigger

Being trans sucks. I feel like i constantly have to overachieve to prove myself to others and they still look at me funny and stare and they don't understand anything. People who knew me before don't treat me the same. People who find out I'm trans don't treat me the same. They don't have to say it I can tell when people start avoiding me for no reason. It just sucks. There was a while where I stopped thinking about suicide but now I just think it's inevitable. I am going to do it I just don't know when yet. Not everyone in my life is bad and I obviously don't want to hurt them I just don't know how much I can actually take of this. ->-bleeped-<-.

 Please hold on Mythy.
I know it seems like the end of the world.
I've been there several times in my life.
But I wouldn't be here right now if I had done what you are thinking of doing.
Please please, write down this phone number and carry it with you all the time,
it's the suicide hotline, they're awesome people who won't ask your name or judge you, just listen to you and try and help..
1-800-273-TALK (8255)

Please watch this.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DAIk1fSpGFE&index=2&list=FLsownXMkxavehlubuYXHzKQ

Stay strong ,I know how it feels...

:hugs: mythy
Vent away whenever you need to!

Mythy, do what i did and put 1-800-273-8255 in your phone, either set it as a speed dial or put it as something like "1 Suicide Hotline" so it's at the top of your contact list.  I did this after my lil'sis called me out of the blue to check on me since I hadn't talked to her in a few days (she knows that I attempted suicide in the past.)  It reminded me that even though I was fine, I might not be at some point.  It made me think about the several times I had my legs draped over the edge and was ready to lean forward into the abyss. Robin Williams was laughing and joking days before he slid over the edge.

My good friend Jack once told me:

"It doesn't matter if it's life, a bunch of rat-packing bastards at a bar, or your own headspace trying to **** you up. You keep swinging! You keep kicking! By bloody hell you never give quarter! Make 'em p*** away a decade of their life just to pry one ****ing millimeter from you..."

Life will be a pain in the ***, and people will sadly do ****y things, but never give up with out a fight! Be a stubborn thorn in their sides and thrive despite what they do or what life throws at you!

Quote from: mythy on October 01, 2014, 11:22:01 PM
ok you don't have to read this or comment or anything i just want to vent. Sorry in advance. trigger trigger trigger

Being trans sucks. I feel like i constantly have to overachieve to prove myself to others and they still look at me funny and stare and they don't understand anything. People who knew me before don't treat me the same. People who find out I'm trans don't treat me the same. They don't have to say it I can tell when people start avoiding me for no reason. It just sucks. There was a while where I stopped thinking about suicide but now I just think it's inevitable. I am going to do it I just don't know when yet. Not everyone in my life is bad and I obviously don't want to hurt them I just don't know how much I can actually take of this. <not allowed>.

You need to stop pleasing others over you.

Those who are good people with caring hearts will always be there.

These will also be the ones who will the rest of there lives cry for there loss if you say good night.

You make the happiness. It comes from with in. So it comes to doing what you want for your own health.

Stop trying to live for others acceptance.

Love yourself and accept your needs.

As said reach out before you get to a point of no return. It does not make you weak, it will make you in the end a stronger person.

I was there and got extra help and a safe place.

Today I am a woman. 

We are always here.

are there any suicide lines where you can actually talk to another trans person?

Maybe the Trevor Project? Hang in there, we need you around! Hugs, Devlyn

http://www.thetrevorproject.org/