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someone please help me. ive already tried to kill myself in the last month. I don't know what to do or where to go. My mom told me she loves me n wants me to b happy. But I'm not happy. In my heart, I know that I'm a girl. A pretty one. My dad is a pastor n tried to have the "demon of sexual confusion" prayed out of me. FML!!! Please...someone help me. Please.

First off if you are at that point, call your local crisis center or get yourself to the hospital or call 911.

You really need to have a safe place first to deal with the issues.

Please get some professional help.

Get a therapist soon. Make sure you also have your local suicide prevention hotline number with you at all times. Your first priority right now should be your health and welfare, worry about the rest in it's own time.  You should look for a gender therapist eventually but right now any therapist who can keep you grounded and healthy is an absolute must.

Is there anyway you could live without your parents in your life?

Please find a therapist- a REAL therapist who knows how to deal with gender dysphoria, not some quack who thinks it's the devil or something that can be prayed away.  Your brain is wired this way and that will never change.  If it gets REALLY bad, to the point that self-harm is sounding remotely like an option, call 911.   Waking up in the ER sucks pretty hard.  I learned the hard way.

My parents weren't exactly thrilled with me transitioning at first, but my wife stepped in and put it to my mother this way-  Would you rather have a dead son or a live daughter?   

Hugs,
Jill

Hi gabigirl87, welcome to the site! We love you and want you to be happy too! When you're overwhelmed and suicide seems like an answer, you need to call a hotline, the numbers are easily found here on the site. I'll echo the comments about getting away on your own. No one should live your life for you. Grab a comfy chair and get settled in!

Hugs, Devlyn

Do you have any friends or relatives you could stay with? Your father is not going to be good about this. Find a safe place to be you if you can.

well, one way to get immediate help is to call 911 for an ambulance to the emergency room and tell them you need help.

♥︎*Hugs*♥︎ aww hunni, my love and thoughts are with you.  Please don't do anything hasty.  We are all here to help you get through this.  With all due respect to your folks, don't let old-world philosophies stop you from being who you truly are :)

And as the others have said - make sure you have an appropriate suicide hotline number with you at all times.  See this thread:
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,112545.0.html (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,112545.0.html)).
If all else fails, call 911 / 999 / whatever the emergency number is for your country.

You are not alone.  Your are not worthless, broken, a freak, possessed by demons or any other phobic nonsense you may have been fed from others.  You are just different.  It may not seem like it, but this is a gift - you can see the world in a way they never will.  That's something to be treasured, no matter what others say :)

♥︎*Hugs*♥︎

Sweetie, what ever you do don't try to deal with this alone. There is local professional help, I'm sure of that. They can give you advice how to move forward safely.

Things will change, it just might take some time. Sweetie, take whatever steps you must to make sure you are in a safe enviroment and don't try to deal with things alone.

Hold on to your truth and don't do any damage to yourself. Your truth is something no-one can take away from you, just focus on finding help and staying safe. Wish I could do more.

I've been there, sister! Probably most of us on sites like this have, I imagine. I'm guessing you're still in your teens, so look at it this way: You've got lots of time to get out and on your own where the opinions of the uber-religious can go fornicate themselves with an iron stick!

The dysphoria does get pretty nasty at times, but like the others have already said, keep those hotline numbers on you always. Stay in touch! I've been lurking on this site for months, and the posts I've read helped me get my own transition started!

It does get better, even if it doesn't look that way now.

Please seek help. I have never heard of "demons of sexual confusion". But I have heard of Gender Dysphoria. There is no reason to end your life when you have so much potential to live your life happily. Sometimes that is getting out on your own. But you are here on this sight so you are not alone.

You need a therapist. If it is that bad that you are thinking of harming yourself go to the Emergency Room, call a hotline or call 911 and just seek help.

... I don't mean to be melodramatic, but am I the only one slightly concerned that she hasn't responded..? I hope nothing bad has happened.. :(

♥︎*Hugs*♥︎

Yes somewhat worrisome. I do hope she is safe.

Quote from: ♥︎ SarahD ♥︎ on October 17, 2014, 02:05:33 PM
... I don't mean to be melodramatic, but am I the only one slightly concerned that she hasn't responded..? I hope nothing bad has happened.. :(

♥︎*Hugs*♥︎

Nope. Your not the only one concerned. I hope we didn't lose another sister.

When is enough gonna' be enough? We are normal people. We are not freaks of nature. Well I am but that is a different story and am kind of proud of it, but we are normal people. We have the same rights as everyone else with the constitution in regards to the pursuit of happiness. Not to mention the right to life and liberty. Liberty to do what we want with our lives. My pursuit of happiness is being happy with who I am. No one has the right to infringe on that god given right that I and we all have.

gabigirl, if you are out there let us know at least than you are OK. If nothing more than to ease our minds.