Community Conversation => Transgender talk => Topic started by: androgynouspainter26 on October 18, 2014, 08:54:25 PM Return to Full Version
Title: Things I didn't realize before I started my transition...
Post by: androgynouspainter26 on October 18, 2014, 08:54:25 PM
Post by: androgynouspainter26 on October 18, 2014, 08:54:25 PM
Lately I've been thinking a lot about where I was two years ago (as my two year anniversary for HRT is rapidly approaching!!) and how little I actually knew about what I was getting into! It's sorta surreal looking back-some things I'm delighted over, others...well, if I knew what I know now, I'm not sure I would have transitioned in the first place. I was so naive, but I've realized so much:
The good:
-How much of the issues I had growing up were caused by repressed gender dysphoria, and that I might be able to recover from them
-How oppressed women are in society, and that I understand how the world might change for the better
-I had no idea how malleable and foolish gender roles are
-I didn't know I would meet a few amazing friends along the way
-I had no idea how marvelous eyeliner was (I had such a weird fear of it for the longest time). I thought I hate dresses too...silly me.
The bad:
-I thought I would be able to pass-that one is really what has me doubting myself. I hadn't bargained for my private life being on show 100% of the time, every day. It was a big factor going into this.
-I thought I would have access to surgery, and therapy
-I thought hormones would give me bigger than a AA cup
-I didn't know I would be single for the rest of my life (another huge downer)
-I didn't realize how much discrimination I face, and that I would face it for the rest of my life
-I thought I would have the option to forgot this episode of my life
And the wonderful:
-Even if I ever have the option, I will never want to forget this episode of my life.
What about you all? What did you not know? And from where you are now, do you regret transitioning?
The good:
-How much of the issues I had growing up were caused by repressed gender dysphoria, and that I might be able to recover from them
-How oppressed women are in society, and that I understand how the world might change for the better
-I had no idea how malleable and foolish gender roles are
-I didn't know I would meet a few amazing friends along the way
-I had no idea how marvelous eyeliner was (I had such a weird fear of it for the longest time). I thought I hate dresses too...silly me.
The bad:
-I thought I would be able to pass-that one is really what has me doubting myself. I hadn't bargained for my private life being on show 100% of the time, every day. It was a big factor going into this.
-I thought I would have access to surgery, and therapy
-I thought hormones would give me bigger than a AA cup
-I didn't know I would be single for the rest of my life (another huge downer)
-I didn't realize how much discrimination I face, and that I would face it for the rest of my life
-I thought I would have the option to forgot this episode of my life
And the wonderful:
-Even if I ever have the option, I will never want to forget this episode of my life.
What about you all? What did you not know? And from where you are now, do you regret transitioning?