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Title: Come out into the light
Post by: Ariel Renée on October 31, 2014, 08:30:06 AM
Post by: Ariel Renée on October 31, 2014, 08:30:06 AM
Hi everyone!
My name...well....technically i haven't decided on a name yet. This whole thing is very new to me. I found this forum in my search for answers, and i hope that with the help of all you wonderful people out there i find what i am looking for. I am a 32 year old who is bringing out an old skeleton from the closet. It first started when i was 9, before i had even started puberty. I had a fascination with my moms clothes. I would wear them when she was not home. It made me feel so pretty. I loved the feeling that it gave me. I stopped due to peer pressure (A kid from the neighborhood caught me and it defined my middle school years). I would still love to wear my mothers panties....It was my dirty little secret. After a while i stopped it, but the desire to be female never completely left me. I tried to kill myself in high school. I wasn't into the same things guys were into. I wasnt into anything...I just hated life...Then i started to go to church and eventually i became a pastor (I was blessed to live in 4 different countries doing missionary work during my 20s) But this desire never left. I didnt feel any desire to chase women, and i couldn't look at porn with other men in it, because i couldn't identify with being male. Fast forward to this last month. I started slowly to cross dress again, and after being with the same girl for 2 years i realized that i wasn't into having sex unless i imagined i was a woman. I had always thought of this desire as just that. But i decided to open the flood gates and explore these feelings. I have studied ->-bleeped-<-, and every time i see how someone has transitioned it excites me.. Their skin, the hair, the clothes...Its like this other person in my is screaming because they see themselves in the mirror. Im taking things slow...removing hair and making myself more fem to see if this is really what i want. I have a long way to go, but i feel that in the end i am meant to be a beautiful, confident woman. I just am looking for people who can relate. Thanks you for reading :-)
My name...well....technically i haven't decided on a name yet. This whole thing is very new to me. I found this forum in my search for answers, and i hope that with the help of all you wonderful people out there i find what i am looking for. I am a 32 year old who is bringing out an old skeleton from the closet. It first started when i was 9, before i had even started puberty. I had a fascination with my moms clothes. I would wear them when she was not home. It made me feel so pretty. I loved the feeling that it gave me. I stopped due to peer pressure (A kid from the neighborhood caught me and it defined my middle school years). I would still love to wear my mothers panties....It was my dirty little secret. After a while i stopped it, but the desire to be female never completely left me. I tried to kill myself in high school. I wasn't into the same things guys were into. I wasnt into anything...I just hated life...Then i started to go to church and eventually i became a pastor (I was blessed to live in 4 different countries doing missionary work during my 20s) But this desire never left. I didnt feel any desire to chase women, and i couldn't look at porn with other men in it, because i couldn't identify with being male. Fast forward to this last month. I started slowly to cross dress again, and after being with the same girl for 2 years i realized that i wasn't into having sex unless i imagined i was a woman. I had always thought of this desire as just that. But i decided to open the flood gates and explore these feelings. I have studied ->-bleeped-<-, and every time i see how someone has transitioned it excites me.. Their skin, the hair, the clothes...Its like this other person in my is screaming because they see themselves in the mirror. Im taking things slow...removing hair and making myself more fem to see if this is really what i want. I have a long way to go, but i feel that in the end i am meant to be a beautiful, confident woman. I just am looking for people who can relate. Thanks you for reading :-)
Title: Re: Come out into the light
Post by: V M on October 31, 2014, 08:33:39 AM
Post by: V M on October 31, 2014, 08:33:39 AM
Hi djdiva :icon_wave:
Welcome to Susan's :) Glad to have you here, join on in the fun
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V M
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Title: Re: Come out into the light
Post by: gennee on October 31, 2014, 01:04:13 PM
Post by: gennee on October 31, 2014, 01:04:13 PM
Hi Djdiva and welcome to Susan's. Many of us have similar experiences so you're not alone.
:)
:)
Title: Re: Come out into the light
Post by: Ms Grace on October 31, 2014, 01:05:46 PM
Post by: Ms Grace on October 31, 2014, 01:05:46 PM
Hi! Welcome to Susan's!
Title: Re: Come out into the light
Post by: MelissaAnn on October 31, 2014, 01:29:07 PM
Post by: MelissaAnn on October 31, 2014, 01:29:07 PM
Welcome Djdiva, You are not alone...! There are many wonderful people here that have been and are going through what you are feeling. You might want to see a gender therapist so you can sift through all you feelings. There is a lot of soul serching to done in your transition. There are many here that are willing to help in any way they can. I wish nothing but the best for you on your journey sweetie. I Hope to see you around the forums, Safe travels.
Hugs,
Melissa Ann
Hugs,
Melissa Ann
Title: Re: Come out into the light
Post by: Devlyn on October 31, 2014, 08:35:56 PM
Post by: Devlyn on October 31, 2014, 08:35:56 PM
Hi Djdiva, welcome to Susan's Place! I'm up near Boston. There's definitely plenty of people here who know what you're feeling. Get busy posting and I'll see you around the site!
Hugs, Devlyn
Hugs, Devlyn