Susan's Place Transgender Resources

Hey there.

I guess you could say I'm new to all of this. I'm still trying to figure myself out, ya know? Growing up I was extremely sheltered, and I didn't even know what gay was until I was probably 13 or 14. I went years believing I was a lesbian after I found out. That was until when I was 19 I came across a FTM video on youtube. It was kind of then when I was like, "OH. IT ALL MAKES SENSE NOW." However...I never really did much about it. I had a few conversations with some of my close friends about it, but I could never really accept it. I was in denial city, 100%. I hope that doesn't offend anyone! Around March of this year I had a break down and I got really depressed and my anxiety shot through the roof. I had so much body dysphoria and so much self hatred that I'm really not even sure how I made it through. Then I met a girl and I was able to distract myself with her enough to say "well, she loves this version of me and I love her so I can handle this." I made it through that without too many issues. I just didn't look in mirrors and took happiness from the fact that she didn't care that I didn't wear make up or shaved my legs. However, now that she's no longer a part of my life I no longer have anything to distract myself and the depression and dysphoria are coming back full force. I figure it's time I stop denying whatever this is and go see a gender therapist.

So I guess a little about me! I'm a 22 year old college student studying to be in the medical field. I live at home with my parents, my two cats and my dog. I love reading, surfing the web and cuddles.

I love talking to new people so feel free to chat with me  :) You can call me Josh.

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Thanks for your help!

Hello and welcome! This place is amazing; you'll learn so much and meet tons of awesome people who will help you feel like you can totally go through with this. I can relate to you being in denial up until this point.  It was about 3 months ago when I went back to identifying as genderqueer after a long period of "oh that was just a phase," and it eventually led me...here, to a point where I now identify as an androgynous FTM. I even had an FTM friend in high school, and didn't realize that I was also one until a few weeks ago.

Hello Josh and welcome to Susan's. Self acceptance will lead to self discovery. I'm happy that you found the site.

:)

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Welcome to our little family. Over 14700 members. That would be one heck of a family reunion.

Feel free to post your successes/failures, Hopes/dreams.  Ask questions and seek answers. Give and receive advice.

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Janet  )O(

Thanks everyone for making me feel so welcomed! I was pretty nervous even making my intro post, but now that I've read through some of the forums and seen how friendly of a community this is, I'm not so nervous :)

Hi Josh, welcome to Susan's Place! I'm from the Boston area. Glad you found the site, see you around!

Hugs, Devlyn