Susan's Place Transgender Resources

Hey, so I wanted to share my story. It isn't as bad like some people's, actual it really isn't bad at all. About me my biological name is Cienna/my middle name is Diamond, biologically speaking I am a female, I'm 17 years old, and am in 11grade. Nobody knew if I was gonna be a girl or a boy, until I popped out of the oven as a girl. My mom would dress me up in girly clothes and dresses. That is until I started dressing myself, I started wearing boy clothes. My mom and I would get into arguements about how I dressed and act. She would say things like; you don't have boy parts, boys do that not girls, you're going to have to change, etc. I never listen to her about that, and she soon gave in. She started buying me more boy clothes, and allowing me to act like a boy. My family is really religious (Christians). I went to a Christian school from ages 3 to 11. During that time everyone knew me as a boy; teachers called me young man, older guys called me little, older girls called me baby boy, and kids my age just knew me as one. When I was 3 to 5 we had a dress code girls skirt/dress, boys pants both with the required school shirt. That rule changed when I turned 6, they allowed girls to wear pants/skirts/dresses you bet anything I wore pants. I remember they gave out awards out at the end of every year. They split the gender up yet the gave out the same award for both genders. Every year I won fearless for the guys (I did some crazy things for my age). When I was 5 to 7 years old I felt bad that my couldn't have the girl they wanted, so for those years I aloud her to put me in a dress for Easter, and for the school graduation ceremony. My parents soon put me in public school. I joined near the end of 5th grade, and I was there all of 6th grade. During those years I was bullied for how I looked, I still dressed and acted they same way I wanted to. Although I had to accept the fact that I was a girl (elementary school). Then my 7th and 8th grade years I ended up becoming friends with my bullies and other people (junior high). Then came 9th grade I ended up meeting this girl and falling for her right away (I told my close friends how I was lesbian and about her). 10th grade I still liked her so I told her (by this time everyone at school knew). 11th grade I still like her and she won't speak to me and I have to idea why (my family found at the beginning of the year) (highschool). That's a whole different story. Anyways, I came out lesbian yet it didn't feel right to be calles one. Although every time through out my life when I looked at the mirror I hated what I saw, I didn't like how my body was or looked. I had always seen myself as a man. I now know that I am a transman and totally accept it. The only people who know is my close friends, I plan to tell my parents in a couple of days. I have yet to think of my male name, and have people use male pronouns. I know this is a huge step to make, and I'm ready for it I'm not afraid. I want to be happy inside and out.

I can relate to your story a lot sense I grew up the same way, but the opposite as I am now the woman I always knew I was. Good luck with telling your parents the important news, because despite what they think it's your life and not their's. They should love you for you.


With much love,

Ademie

Ademi: That's cool, I feel like I already knew too I just had yet to fully accept it as I grew up. Thank you a ton!

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Hi ciennamonbun, welcome to Susan's Place! I'm from Boston, and for some reason I'm suddenly hungry!  :laugh: See you around the site!

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Devlyn: Thank you! Nice I'm from Arizona, and go find something to eat. :p I'll be looking forward to seeing you around.

Hi Ciennamonbun and welcome to Susan's. Good luck in telling your parents. I'm very happy  :) that you are moving forward in becoming the  man that you really are.

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Welcome to Susan's Place!

I hope all goes well with coming out and that your parents are understanding and accepting. May this forum provide you with support and love in your time of need. Never be afraid to ask for help!

Good luck on your journey  :)

Hi there and welcome to Susan's!  :)  It was really nice reading your story. There was a  lot I could relate with. Hope this site helps you.