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What reasons do you have for transitioning from FTM or MTF. I never found out for myself yet, i doubt I'd ever be able to successfully pass and heck, maybe I'm not a woman but want to "be" one but i probably shouldn't go there. Do you have any specific words for me too. I mean, being and feeling like a woman must be awesome.

I am transitioning because I literally cannot live as a man anymore. More specifically my gender issues became front and center of my life and I was overwhelmed.

But I found that once I started taking steps to transition it had a domino effect of good results, mostly for my health and well being. So that in itself is a big motivator.

If I didn't I would be a robot today. emotionless, aimless, depressed and soulless

I decided to transition because living as a MAAB was finally too much for me. I had suppressed feelings of being a woman for far too long. Feelings I had known about since childhood. I had tried to deny myself of this by wrongly mentally reasoning I was a guy that liked to wear female clothes. Wearing the clothes kind of helped, but it didn't get away from the fact that I had masculinised so much and made me think that I'd never undo the changes to my body that made it so masculine. Looking in the mirror I only ever saw a man in a dress and that made me feel very dysphoric, angry and sad at myself. Thoughts of regret at never transitioning were constantly in my mind. I tried to block these out by distracting myself through alcohol and adult material. Neither of these options were a sensible solution, if anything I felt they were self destructive.

I never had much facial hair, but as I aged I noticed newer areas of my face started to grow more of it. That really depressed me. I still had my head of hair but I was starting to lose it at the corners of my forehead; unlike the rest of my male family members, who were practically bald in a few cases. So to have begun transitioning once I was bald also worried me. Oh and of course, I hated the thing behind my legs and it was a constant reminder of the cruel hand that life had dealt me.

Then of course there was society's expectations that I behave in the role given to me that I felt least comfortable in. There were low points in my life where I had felt suicidal and that dying would ease the suffering in my mind, but I wanted to give living a chance too.


When I first took my course of HRT it felt so right. I had no regrets as to what I was doing. Seeing the gradual feminising changes to my body have been some of the happiest moments in recent times of my life. If I had to give it all up now, I'd rather pull the plug on myself.

Just felt like the right thing to do. Been acting like how others wanted me to act for too long and time gave the answers and the label of being a transgender.

My health and the fact I need to stop lying to myself and finally deal with my issues. I tried convincing myself shortly before that I was ok with not doing something about it, but I new even as the words came out of my mouth that I wasn't. The friend I was talking to wasn't buying it either. She rather strongly said I need to see a therapist about it. Sadly, I was ready to do that until after she died. I suppose my having to take a harder look at myself after she died of suicide made me finally face my problems and do something about them. My kidney's and blood pressure saw improved after coming out to the doctor and started getting the referrals and tests taken care of.
Mariah

Not much choice, just being myself. I've always been female for as long as I can remember anyway. 

I suppressed my feelings and was full of self hate. It got to a point where I had to stop the pain. After my second attempt of suicide I was completely calm and the pain was gone and I remember saying in a very low voice I just want to be myself.  At that moment I knew the next day I would try again at suicide or I had to get help. I chose to get help and it has been the best thing I have done for myself.

The alternative was slowly self destructing myself to the  point were I would end taking a definitive solution to finish once and for all. You know what I mean.

Quote from: redhot1 on November 26, 2014, 08:10:50 PM
What reasons do you have for transitioning from FTM or MTF.

1. I never fit in socially as a male. As a female, I find my interactions with other women (and with men, surprisingly) are very normal.

2. Always wanted a female body. Didn't want to die not knowing what that felt like.

I want to be myself. Continuing to live as someone other than myself became to horrible to tolerate.