Susan's Place Transgender Resources

Hello everyone.  I used to visit here as a guest for a few years and then finally registered as a member about a year ago.  Well, I guess I wasn't very active in the forums and got purged.  So I'm back again, hopefully a little longer this time around. 

A little bit about me...I'm Canadian.  From a very young age I knew I was different from all the other boys.  I prefered to be around girls and wanted to be one of them.  I envied their long hair, their frilly dresses and their toys (dolls, china sets, etc).  I would sometimes pray when I went to sleep that I would wake up as a girl.  Eventually I realized that this wasn't going to happen and tried to fit into the role of a male.  Does this sound familiar?  For a time I was able to bury those feelings.  Marriage & kids came along.  Then a few years ago those feelings came back...with a vengeance.  And then I found the internet and realized I wasn't alone out there.  I bought clothes and started dressing again.  I even came out to my wife who had a difficult time with it.  It hasn't been easy but we're still together.  As for where I belong in the TG spectrum...I'm probably transexual but haven't been to a gender therapist yet.  And I'm not sure if I ever will go to one.  Like many of us who have families, there would be too much to lose if I were to come out full time and consider transitioning (wife is the only one who knows).  So we take things one day at a time.  I get time to be Monika whenever the kids are not at home.  It's nowhere near enough time for me, but it's a compromise that we've been able to live with.

Well that's where I am now.  For now it's working.  Who knows what the future will bring.  I'm looking forward to meeting many of you in the chat room.  And this time around I'll be a little more active with the posts in the forum :)

Hugs & kisses,

Monika

Hi Monika,

  Welcome back.
   You're lucky your wife is understanding.  That must be a real help.

   There really are a lot of interesting topics here.  If they don't hold your attention this time, then we are really in trouble.   ;)

Wish you well,

Rebis

Hello Monika and welcome to Susan's!  Pleased to meet you.

Thank you for your introduction.  Please take a few moments to get familiar with all the forums of the site, review the site rules, and take advantage of our many resources such as the wiki, chat, and the links listed at the main page.  We look forward to your future posts and participation.  Enjoy your stay. :)

tink :icon_chick:

Hi, Monika.  Welcome back.

Yes, do post now and then, or the purge machine will gobble you up.

Robyn

Hi Monika!

Glad you have returned to the land of the living.  Since you have opinions, share them.  Then you won't have to worry about the delete monster any more.

Again, welcome back!

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Hello Monika & Welcome To Susans! :)

Thank you for the warm welcome girls, it's good to be back :)

Hugs & kisses,

Monika

Hi there,
welcome to the board! Hope you find lots of friends
here in the many lovely people on this board!

Hugs
Scott
(from New Zealand)