Community Conversation => Transsexual talk => Male to female transsexual talk (MTF) => Topic started by: Wild Flower on December 03, 2014, 01:19:51 AM Return to Full Version
Title: i need help
Post by: Wild Flower on December 03, 2014, 01:19:51 AM
Post by: Wild Flower on December 03, 2014, 01:19:51 AM
I dont know whats wrong with me anymore... I feel so miserable... so lonely that I want to lay down and die. I feel like Im losing my mind. Like im having a stroke or heart attack... im scared. Im scared of reality at the moment. I want to binge. I dail my driving test (i have a license... but i fail it this is for special vehicles). I feel like i let my job down.
Im just tired of everything... i hate my looks, my life my job... the only thing that keeps me alive is sleep food and some sick fantasy of love. Im just so tired. Im tired of being patronize... its like the world sees me as a silly fool. Im losing my respect...
Im just tired of everything... i hate my looks, my life my job... the only thing that keeps me alive is sleep food and some sick fantasy of love. Im just so tired. Im tired of being patronize... its like the world sees me as a silly fool. Im losing my respect...
Title: Re: i need help
Post by: Cee Myk on December 03, 2014, 01:55:20 AM
Post by: Cee Myk on December 03, 2014, 01:55:20 AM
Just breathe... Make some tea, relax and just relax. You are still breathing and have all your senses and you have your health. If you are feel you are in need to talk to someone, contact one of the help lines in this sites resources. I hope you feel better soon. XO sweetheart!
Title: Re: i need help
Post by: TSJasmine on December 03, 2014, 02:58:30 AM
Post by: TSJasmine on December 03, 2014, 02:58:30 AM
Quote from: Hanazono on December 03, 2014, 02:19:45 AM
I will reiterate my supportive words from your other threads.
please seek professional help.
Agreed.
Title: Re: i need help
Post by: katrinaw on December 03, 2014, 04:59:33 AM
Post by: katrinaw on December 03, 2014, 04:59:33 AM
Wild Flower, Sorry to hear you are feeling down ATM, Do you have any close friends you can sit with? if so, go spend some time with them!
Please also go and talk to professionals or use the help info provided in the forums.
I am sure things will improve, please take care of yourself :-*
L Katy
Please also go and talk to professionals or use the help info provided in the forums.
I am sure things will improve, please take care of yourself :-*
L Katy
Title: Re: i need help
Post by: Wild Flower on December 03, 2014, 06:28:20 AM
Post by: Wild Flower on December 03, 2014, 06:28:20 AM
Its like bi polar. I felt horrible earlier.... now just blah, yesterday I could be happy. But it fluctuates.. and I couldnt hide it today.
Today after that post... i had to create her. Its not really her... but its when i look my prettiest in a certain manner, so the world loves me again.... Yes it work, peope took notice of me. And i have god sellf esteem... But i look tired and gross... it wasnt me at my best.
Today after that post... i had to create her. Its not really her... but its when i look my prettiest in a certain manner, so the world loves me again.... Yes it work, peope took notice of me. And i have god sellf esteem... But i look tired and gross... it wasnt me at my best.
Title: Re: i need help
Post by: Ms Grace on December 03, 2014, 06:36:05 AM
Post by: Ms Grace on December 03, 2014, 06:36:05 AM
Hugs. Sounds a bit like you were having a panic attack, but definitely it is important to seek some help from a medical professional ASAP. Even if you feel OK now don't leave it until you're down or panicked again.
Title: Re: i need help
Post by: Clhoe G on December 03, 2014, 06:56:04 AM
Post by: Clhoe G on December 03, 2014, 06:56:04 AM
Quote from: Wild Flower on December 03, 2014, 06:28:20 AM
Its like bi polar. I felt horrible earlier.... now just blah, yesterday I could be happy. But it fluctuates.. and I couldnt hide it today.
I was like that at one stage, but I think a lot of it came from the spironolactone and dydrogesterone, but now I'm on hydroxyprogesterone and bicalutamide and I feel a lot better, tho I do get a little down sometimes, it's no where near as bad, but we all get down sometimes n that's why we usually have a therapist or some sort of professional help, n it really sounds like it could help you, so please do speak to someone, as soon as you can.