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All right, there is just something I need to get off my chest, pronto.

Back in '08, I've had a case of hemorrhoids and rectal bleeding. I was so happy when it happened but I just wish that I had my maxi pads to help with the blood flow. I have my maxi pads now and I'm just desperately waiting... wanting for it to happen again! I know it's not exactly like menstruation but it's close enough and I don't care if it's hazardous to my health! And from the prior threads I've seen on this very same topic, I'm not the only M2F on here (or in general) bothered by not having a period. >:(

I want to menstruate because it's part of womanhood. Period. Point blank. End of discussion. Call me crazy for wanting to have periods. I don't really care. Well, actually, I do care but only to a degree because there is (almost) nothing that irks the hell out of me more than when cis/genetic women complain about their menstruation pain, etc. especially if they know that I'm trans and how badly I want to experience that kind of thing.

I am going to carry tampons and maxi pads in my bags and use them every month, pretending that I am actually having a cycle, especially if I have another rectal bleeding episode.

Wheew... glad I got that out my system.

I think you'll find a lot of women here share the same sentiments.

Since my surgery, there is occasionally a discharge of fluids, and I've been wearing a pad. I have an extra one in my purse. Definitely part of womanhood.

While I wouldn't actively want it, I would gladly accept it and the risk of becoming pregnant if it gave me a "magic wand" surgery instead of a actual surgery. The actual surgery is terrifying, but I need it at some point. I was dysphoric about what's down consistently for a very long time where as my desire to become and present feminine has been inconsistent over the years mostly due to the fact that I had trouble accepting myself. Now that I've started hormones "it" is the only thing I have trouble with and the fact that it's shrinking is only helping me.

I am glad I don't suffer from leaking blood... lost enough blood already to last a lifetime of periods. I think I already pay a high price by dilating. And pads suck. Welcome to womanhood! at least I get the estrogen induced mental periods, with migraines and grogginess, luckily without the blood though. However if blood letting would involve the chance to birth a child, I might consider it. But having periods for the sake of periods is something I don't understand myself. I feel sorry for cis-woman, I truly do.

It bothers me. I can never feel that I am 100% without it. Plus I feel there is sort of a bond between women because they have that issue.

It's devastating for girls with CAIS too.  Because they can't have them ether.
I have people tell me how blessed I'm am, but you get over it.

This is one of the reasons I finally decided against SRS, actually. The way I feel about my current situation down there is "meh," or slightly unhappy, most of the time (occasionally it's worse, but most of the time it's tolerable). I'd love to have a vagina, but only if I can have the full package: No dilation, periods, the ability to get pregnant if I so choose, etc. I think I'd be less happy if I had genitals that resembled those of a normal girl but didn't really act like them.

So for now I've decided to wait and hope medical science advances to the point that I can have all those wonderful things. Hopefully it will happen within my lifetime...

Quote from: Pikachu on January 05, 2015, 02:49:25 PM
This is one of the reasons I finally decided against SRS, actually. The way I feel about my current situation down there is "meh," or slightly unhappy, most of the time (occasionally it's worse, but most of the time it's tolerable). I'd love to have a vagina, but only if I can have the full package: No dilation, periods, the ability to get pregnant if I so choose, etc. I think I'd be less happy if I had genitals that resembled those of a normal girl but didn't really act like them.

So for now I've decided to wait and hope medical science advances to the point that I can have all those wonderful things. Hopefully it will happen within my lifetime...

I have mostly similar sentiments, except that I am not quite unhappy with what's 'down there'. But if I could have the 'full package' of being a girl with all that you have mentioned, I would switch immediately.

Lately I've noticed it in the mirror when I get out of the shower. It really grosses me out. I don't care if its functional or not. I don't want to see "him" anymore. I make every effort to ignore its existence. HRT was huge because its mostly non functional now.

It doesn't really gross me out when I see him, but I hate having to tuck.

How I wish for the day that we can give our male genitals to the FtoM's and they could give there female genitals to us. I wish I could experience my period along with  labor yes even labor as well as childbirth. 

I completely agree about having periods and being pregnant I have purchased tampons different brands Maxi pads pantiliners I would love to experience the nine months the childbirth maternity clothing the labor the delivery the breast-feeding

i completely agree about pregnancy and childbirth. i hope uterus transplants become viable. i was jealous of periods in my teens when friends were starting them, but not now. in p7 (so we were 11) the girls were taken for a period class, and the boys were given an extra 40 minutes on top of the regular lunch break - which was painful.

but i don't think you should be at all pleased about piles, and definitely not if you are actually bleeding from the back end. see your doctor and change your diet.

i see this post was from 2014. i hope you've seen your doctor and changed your diet. there could be something seriously wrong. i can't think for a second that the health implications of bleeding from the arse are in any way, 'close enough' to periods.

I actually think it's pretty funny that one of the things I'm least dysphoric about is the appearance of my genital area.  The number one thing is female biological function.  It kills me that if I ever have a child I would be unable to carry it.  I also frequently feel like I'm waiting to get my period.

It doesn't matter to me, really. Rectal bleeding is as close as i'll get to having a menstrual cycle. If it's hazardous to my health, i don't really mind that since i don't want to live a long life because i should've been born a girl in the first place.  :'(

It has no impact on my life nor do I think about it.  I do not have some yearning to experience developing a life - my partner did the heavy lifting there.

My downstairs is just that, incorrect but functional.

You are not alone about wishing to have a period. I also simulate having a period.  I live with 2 cis females and purchase their feminine products every month.  I can't really recommend Castle Supply's Vee String with the menstrual kit, but that feature does  allow one to simulate a period.  Unfortunately it is expensive and not comfortable to wear. It is much healthier than bleeding hemmroids.

Deanna

Can't say I miss having a period, having seen just how nasty it can be for some women. And, yes, some women have suggested to me that not having them is a bonus.

There's a woman at work who has quite unpleasant and painful periods, they usually incapacitate her for one ,sometimes two, days a month. I'm sure that if she could stop her periods she would do so in a heartbeat. I'm making a huge assumption that she is a cis woman, not a non transitioned trans man...but she did say to me she thought she'd like to come back in the next life as a man just so she could avoid periods. I wryly said to her "be careful what you wish for", which she contemplated for a few seconds and agreed...I think she realised things wouldn't necessarily be a bed of roses even if she was male.

Perods are no fun at all, having pain and a mess to deal with every month.  Only women wanting to get pregnant really need them.  As has been said 'be careful what you wish for' for it can be a much greater problem for you.

Wow! Interesting that a thread i started back in December 2014 is still active after all this time!  8)

Anywho, I'm sure i said this before but i'd rather deal with the inconvenience that comes with having periods than the rather-dangerous stress that comes with being trans any day or night of the week. Not only that I really want to be a cis female, and experience the kinds of things that a cis female experiences since i really didn't want to live this life. I want to actually be born a female, not a male and transition later. I hate that i don't know what it's like to be a naturally-born female. But i do know that stomach pain is a symptom of having periods.

Besides, some of you who saw my thread about when i had to go to the hospital for sharp stomach pains (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,205737.msg1826519.html#msg1826519) but then you know i've had something of a taste of what having a period is like.

I feel like i'm dealing with a mental illness anyway and some cis women might agree with me due to my desire to have menstrual cycles, but i am irked by women telling me i shouldn't want a menstrual cycle. >:(

I don't know if i said this before but i actually look forward to dilating after i have my srs because the dilating kind of reminds me of having a period. I actually plan on intentionally pushing the dilator a little too far into my vagina to the point of causing pain and bleeding and then using a maxi pad afterward. In addition to that, i also want to smell like i'm on my period. I like that fertility/menstruation smell and to smell like that myself because that's the very capital essence of being a female... not the smell itself but those female body functions. Maybe i actually do want to experience more stomach cramps AND smell like i'm on my period as i do because it will make me feel more like a genetic woman. Be careful what i wish for, huh? Well... i feel very strongly that i am going to be a naturally-born female in my next life and have the full package of what it's like to be a female.

As for the rectal bleeding, why is it so bad? Sure it's a health risk but i don't plan on living a long life anyway but why is it so out-of-the-ordinary for me to want more rectal bleeding? Sorry if this is TMI but i've been dealing with bowel problems for much of my life and as of yet i still suffer from my stools being very, very big and very, very difficult and painful to pass so i'm actually surprised that it hasn't happened again since '08. Well... i actually it did happen again as there was the one time back in the spring where i had to go for a loo and not too long afterward there were blood stains in the back of my clothes. Ugh, i wish i had my maxi pads for that and that there was more blood than that... even though i'd must rather prefer to use maxi pads and tampons for dilating.

I just hate that the whole rectal bleeding thing could happen to cis men as it could to cis women.

I hope to be a female in my next life to experience all things woman.  Periods pregnancy breastfeeding.

I can't say that I actually want periods, and quite a few women have mentioned to me how awful they are and that I'm better off without them.
But, if having them meant I was not trans, and that I could just experience life as a cis-woman, and also be able to bear children of my own, then I would want them for sure.
Plus, now I'm living "in stealth", when I'm with a group of female friends, and they start talking about periods (or indeed childbirth) I feel woefully left out, plus it's been a bit awkward because they expect me to 'know' and be able to talk and share such experiences, and I can't. So occasionally I fib, and pretend I've been there too.
As an aside, my mother accompanied me when I had my SRS in Thailand, and she likened the experience to going through childbirth, so I comfort myself that I've experienced my own painful rite of passage to womanhood.
I remember a funny story, a few years after I transitioned, and I was working at a large company with it's own health clinic for employees. I was having some occasional problems with my eyesight, so I went along to see the company nurse. She told me that it was nothing to worry about as it was most likely linked to my monthly cycle. I blushed and told her that I didn't have periods because I was a transexual woman, and she said "I'm sorry, what's that?"
I was a bit taken aback that a nurse didn't know what a transexual person was, so I explained. It was clear that she had never come across such people before, and couldn't really deal with it very well. She just said she couldn't help me with my eyesight issues, and told me to go and see my GP. I was on cloud 9 for days after that experience!  :)
But actually, being trans and going through transition is much more painful in many ways, than a cis-gendered person will ever know or experience. And I bet not many cis-females are wishing they could go through the 'joy' of SRS and dilating and all the other painful and expensive cr@p we have to go through to be who we are.

If you want to make cis women as jealous of you as you are of them, tell them your flow is so light you can get by on a single tampon a day  >:-) and that you never get cramps

Peep, probably do not say one tampon a day, but 3 light tampons a day as you should change every 8-10 hrs to avoid TSS

That's where a lot of MTFs go wrong. They mention tampons with no idea about TSS (no accusing anyone but I believe its a fair point)

Anyway, my OH switches between regular like clock work to having a couple of month gap and the result is the same.

A crippling week of being in a ball while slamming her lady bits into the door of the hurt locker.

This is the Lady who did 15 hours labour and no pain killers for a near 8lbs baby.
Who had RA since she was a little girl ( symptoms gone since birth which can happen, apparently- and has happened thankfully)
I've seen her screaming in a ball due to a post birth infection.

And yet she rates her period as far worse than those combined.

Careful what you wish for. You'll probably decide its not for you quick smart.

Quote from: Atom on July 20, 2016, 03:11:09 PM
That's where a lot of MTFs go wrong. They mention tampons with no idea about TSS (no accusing anyone but I believe its a fair point)

To be fair a lot of cis women and other users of tampons have no idea about toxic shock and the risks of using tampons... i assume that's what you mean by TSS? The information about it is in the box with the tampons, but I know that a lot of people do not read that/ forget about toxic shock being a thing

TSS is real for everyone.  Change your tampons every 3-4 hours.

... yes i'm one of the people that do read the leaflets, my point is that being a cis woman/ afab doesn't mean that you'll necessarily know about TSS, and so not knowing about it as a trans-feminine person won't 'catch you out' ;)

I will just say that I would NOT recommend dilating too hard. That can cause serious, permanent damage, like a fistula or destroying the vagina. The nurses all stressed this point frequently. (And why pay all that money and go through all that surgery just to risk it afterward?) Also, the bleeding you would get would not be like menstrual blood in any case - menstruation involves blood that has clotted and then liquefied again, not fresh blood.

Besides, if it's pads you want, the immediate post-op time should involve plenty of them.

(Personally, I had enough of the whole experience when I was post-op...)

Quote from: Jenna Marie on July 22, 2016, 09:48:47 AM
I will just say that I would NOT recommend dilating too hard. That can cause serious, permanent damage, like a fistula or destroying the vagina. The nurses all stressed this point frequently. (And why pay all that money and go through all that surgery just to risk it afterward?) Also, the bleeding you would get would not be like menstrual blood in any case - menstruation involves blood that has clotted and then liquefied again, not fresh blood.

Besides, if it's pads you want, the immediate post-op time should involve plenty of them.

(Personally, I had enough of the whole experience when I was post-op...)

Whoosh! That's good to know. Well, i'm sure Dr. McGinn was probably going to explain that to me anyway. Now here's the other thing: i want to at least smell like i'm on my period. As embarrassed as i am to admit this, i kind of fancy that fertility/mensuration scent, so I was thinking I would rub down my dilators so that they smell like that and when I dilate that scent would be transferred to me.

Just an idea.............


Besides when I get to having sex and especially if the guy is a little too rough won't I experience any kind of vaginal bleeding or some sort?

I'm still kind of surprised that no one else here looked to the whole hemorrhoidal bleeding thing as a way to substitute for mensuration.

Oh, good, I'm glad you don't want to risk your vagina. :) I wouldn't put anything on the dilators either until you're fully healed up; there's a significant chance of infection, and the dilators are supposed to be sterilized before use. With that said, sure, you can experiment once the initial healing time is over - I transferred some of my wife's "donations" (let's not get into details) to colonize my vagina with healthy bacteria, and it seemed to work out well.

You may  have slight vaginal bleeding after rough sex, or you may not. As with cis women, there are a bunch of variables, and you will have to find out what your own body does. If you're bleeding enough to need a pad rather than a light liner  after sex, though, that's usually a warning sign (it generally is for cis women as well).

Girls, periods do s'cks. It's very annoying, messy and sometimes it might be painful. It's not only us tg guys that finds it bothering. Even cis women find it very annoying and some of them even takes pills to get longer breaks from it. If you wants children, I do kinda understand it. (Even though it's possible to adopt them). But if you just want it to have it, I doesn't understand it. But we could trade. ;)

Quote from: AnnaiyahStarr on July 22, 2016, 10:07:30 AM
Whoosh! That's good to know. Well, i'm sure Dr. McGinn was probably going to explain that to me anyway. Now here's the other thing: i want to at least smell like i'm on my period. As embarrassed as i am to admit this, i kind of fancy that fertility/mensuration scent, so I was thinking I would rub down my dilators so that they smell like that and when I dilate that scent would be transferred to me.

Just an idea.............

A great way to cause a serious infection.

QuoteBesides when I get to having sex and especially if the guy is a little too rough won't I experience any kind of vaginal bleeding or some sort?

Depends on your body.. Not all cis women have vaginal bleeding in such situations.

QuoteI'm still kind of surprised that no one else here looked to the whole haemorrhoidal bleeding thing as a way to substitute for mensuration.

I'd think that no one here considered that option because they are sensible and health wise.

But you will never have them. Period. (no pun intended) You have to accept it as much as it hurts. It's not something that's up to you to control. Also, periods are a painful experience for most women who have it and they would gladly give them away, I'm not sure what exactly you think are missing out. Unless obviously you want to get preggers and have children of your own, which is what I always wanted to, but won't happen and we have no choice but to accept it. Also, wishing a medical condition just to simulate periods isn't exactly smart, don't know what kind of validation you feel by having hemorroids, it's still not the same as period and it's harmful to your health, so I don't wish upon you.

Geeze, no need to be so bitchy about it!  :-X  >:(

It's all good though because i have some tough words for you of my own. I may not have a real menstrual cycle, in this lifetime, but i can and will stimulate it! Even if it's to my expense and that's something i do have control over! So i will have a makeshift period... period (pun is intended) and i don't have accept ->-bleeped-<- because i may end up killing myself not too long from the time i wrote this and i'm not screwing around! You know, people like you are the reason why i want to kill myself as bad as i do.

And you seriously need to stop going on to me about how painful periods are because guess what? I don't care and i still want them! And yeah, i do want to experience pregnancy and care more about pregnancy more about the baby itself.

For me, hemorrhoidal bleeding is similar to menstruation and is as close as i will get to having periods in this life and so i want to go through it again, and if it's dangerous, then so be it because i don't plan on living too much longer anyway and if you have a problem with that then that's just too dam bad.

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Lets keep it civil folks. Thanks
Mariah

That awkward moment when someone wants bleeding from the rear in place of a period - only to have it not stop, soak through their clothes, prompting a trip to hospital.

I spent a day like that a few weeks ago, came out of no where. I've had better days.

And if AnnaiyahStarr is seriously having thoughts about self harm or suicide - probably best to get a professional to intervene.