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hi there! i'm a teenager who has been questioning their gender since they could even comprehend what gender was.

i was determined female at birth, but i've never felt incredibly connected with the female gender. i remember being five or six and taking my princess toys, i would have them go into "surgery" and have them "get penises". i would also walk around shirtless until i developed breasts and no longer could, i would hang out with mainly guys and try to be one of them. i used to fantasize about becoming male and joining a pro baseball team, i never wanted to play softball but rather dreamed of joining the st louis cardinals. i didn't really know why i did any of these things at the time, but thinking back with the knowledge i have about gender now all these things kind of make sense.

my "real" name isn't alex and nobody calls me by it, but i wish people would. it's gender-neutral, it's nice, it's simple. it makes me feel comfortable. as i said, i'm very much questioning my gender but i don't think i'm cis. maybe non-binary, maybe trans, i have no idea. until i figure it out i'd prefer if people used they/them pronouns with me, but i'm ok with he/him pronouns too.

aside from gender related stuff, i really love playing and writing music. it's gotten me through a lot and is my biggest passion. i play the bass guitar and sing.

my username "synesthetic" comes from me having synesthesia. what that means, if you're unfamiliar, is that my senses can come together. when i hear sounds, my mind translates it into colors. and sometimes when i see colors, my mind translates it into tastes. it's kind of weird but really interesting. i love it.

i don't really know what else to say about myself, but i'm glad to meet all of you lovely people. i lurked for a bit before deciding to sign up, haha. thank you for this great community, i hope it can help me in my journey of self-discovery.

- alex

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Hey Alex!

I know I'm a bit late, but better late than never right? Welcome to Susan's!

I hope your journey of self-discovery is going well. Remember, it's not a race and it's totally ok to be unsure, to change your mind and to experiment.

Synesthesia seems like a pretty wonderful thing. I used to play in a band with a guy who had it - he's gone on to study composition and from what I can tell it's quite an important part of how he writes. Do you find it inspires your music-making much?

thank you to everyone who commented, you're all so kind!  :D

Quote from: MySongIsLaughter on December 21, 2014, 04:27:20 PM
Synesthesia seems like a pretty wonderful thing. I used to play in a band with a guy who had it - he's gone on to study composition and from what I can tell it's quite an important part of how he writes. Do you find it inspires your music-making much?

definitely! having synesthesia can completely change my creative process at times. it doesn't have a huge effect on my lyrics, but when it comes to writing the music, it's one of the main things that influences me.

Hi Alex and welcome to Susan's. I loved the explanation of synesthetic. It's not as uncommon as you think. You have a great understanding that you are male and I feel it. 


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Hi Alex, welcome to Susan's Place! I'm from Boston. You came to the right place for figuring out your gender issues, no question about it! I'll see you around the site!

Hugs, Devlyn

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Hi Alex,

A big Aussie welcome to Susan's family. It's good of you to drop in and say "Hi". Hope you like it here, and you stay for a while.

There is a mountain of information, resources and friendship waiting for you here, you just need to jump in start talking and ask any question you like. You're quite safe here and we are very accepting.

Sounds like you're on the right path to discovering the real you. You have one of those uniquely brilliant minds that has a rich interpretation of the sense. (Music into colour) Nurture those strengths as they will become a formidable allie.

Looking forward to hearing more of your story in time to come, but in the meantime, be safe, well and happy.

Lotsa huggs
Catherine