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Title: Oh MY Goodness i Am A Happy Girl Now
Post by: lindagrl on January 29, 2015, 11:44:42 AM
Today i went for my second session with the head psychologist of the local trans program.  i was so nervous while sitting in the waiting room
i had to grab my knees with both hands so they would stop knocking together.  An old lady sitting in front of me saw how scared i was and
began chatting with me a little, that was so thoughtful of her.  When the doctor opened the door i sprung up and was in front of him before
he so much as opened his mouth to call me in, which startled him a bit. 

We sat down in his office and he asked me how i was doing and i blurted out immediately that i was scared stiff of him. 
i´m glad i did that because it helped direct the rest of the session and he was careful not to  upset me, reassuring me that he indeed sees me as a woman
and that i am very welcome into the program.  They have taken up SOC now and to my great amazement he said that perhaps as soon as in a few months
i could start my HRT, but first i need to see a psychiatrist of theirs who will evaluate where i am at now. 
This will be in a few weeks from now and i´m not dreading it, am looking forward to it.

i was so worn out emotionally after i came back that i had a little nap.  Been having so many bad dreams lately, but this time no dream
and woke up realizing how wonderful this day had turned out, how much brighter my future seems now.
i must have thanked my pillow a hundred times as i hugged it with a big smile on my face.
Am so happy now and there i was worrying my silly head sick before.
Linda
Title: Re: Oh MY Goodness i Am A Happy Girl Now
Post by: Seras on January 29, 2015, 01:59:26 PM
You have come a long way. I am glad things are working out for you.
Title: Re: Oh MY Goodness i Am A Happy Girl Now
Post by: lindagrl on January 29, 2015, 02:37:38 PM
Quote from: Seras on January 29, 2015, 01:59:26 PM
You have come a long way. I am glad things are working out for you.

Hugs to you girl friend  :)
Title: Re: Oh MY Goodness i Am A Happy Girl Now
Post by: Beth Andrea on January 29, 2015, 02:39:21 PM
Sounds awesome, very happy for you!
Title: Re: Oh MY Goodness i Am A Happy Girl Now
Post by: stephaniec on January 29, 2015, 03:05:50 PM
congrats, welcome aboard
Title: Re: Oh MY Goodness i Am A Happy Girl Now
Post by: alexbb on January 29, 2015, 03:16:22 PM
Well done!!!!!!!!
xxxx
Title: Re: Oh MY Goodness i Am A Happy Girl Now
Post by: lindagrl on January 29, 2015, 04:07:20 PM
Thank you ladies, i really feel like i have crossed a threshold.
The idea of coming out to everyone does not seem as scary as before,
am coming to terms with who i am.  Truly a wonderfully liberating feeling.
Need to confess something a little crazy.  When big things are happening in my life
and i happen to listen to the radio i sort of take on board the songs that are playing at that time.
On my way back from the psychologist it was Jennifer Eckles (my wife´s name)
and then Lola with the Kinks.  Wearing my big lady sunglasses singing Lola at the top
of my voice was a kick and a half.
Title: Re: Oh MY Goodness i Am A Happy Girl Now
Post by: alexbb on January 29, 2015, 07:34:36 PM
Its a mixed up muddled up shook up world 'cept for Lola!
Title: Re: Oh MY Goodness i Am A Happy Girl Now
Post by: Rachel on January 29, 2015, 08:08:04 PM
I am happy for you, hugs.
Title: Re: Oh MY Goodness i Am A Happy Girl Now
Post by: FrancisAnn on January 29, 2015, 08:14:39 PM
Quote from: alexbb on January 29, 2015, 07:34:36 PM
Its a mixed up muddled up shook up world 'cept for Lola!
I agree. Just relax GF & enjoy becomming a woman. Do not look back only forward, Happy Girl.
Title: Re: Oh MY Goodness i Am A Happy Girl Now
Post by: Sabrina on January 29, 2015, 08:20:07 PM
I see good things in your future :)
Title: Re: Oh MY Goodness i Am A Happy Girl Now
Post by: katrinaw on January 29, 2015, 09:11:35 PM
Wonderful news Linda... so happy for you, I know its been very testing for you.... You deserve a positive outcome   :eusa_dance:
xoxoxo

Love Katy  :-*
Title: Re: Oh MY Goodness i Am A Happy Girl Now
Post by: Joanne Feliz on January 30, 2015, 03:04:35 AM
How long does it normally take to get on HRT?

I have been seeing my psychologist since October and an endocrinologist.  The endocrinologist said he needs to send me to another endocrinologist to be prescribed hormones.  I'm dreading they will say,  "you have to see a different psychologist first before we can treat you" or something similar.  By the time I get hormones maybe I would of already had FFS!?
Title: Re: Oh MY Goodness i Am A Happy Girl Now
Post by: lindagrl on January 30, 2015, 04:12:32 AM
Wow so nice to wake up to all these lovely comments, a beautiful beginning to the rest of my life as Linda.
Thank you all so much, yes only forward, no glancing back, no regrets. :)
Title: Re: Oh MY Goodness i Am A Happy Girl Now
Post by: lindagrl on January 30, 2015, 04:30:32 AM
Quote from: lindagrl on January 30, 2015, 04:12:32 AM
Wow so nice to wake up to all these lovely comments, a beautiful beginning to the rest of my life as Linda.
Thank you all so much, yes only forward, no glancing back, no regrets. :)

Hi Joanne, i don´t know how it is where you are but here in Iceland it used to take 12 to 18 months from entering the program
until getting on HRT.  The rules have relaxed a little it seems just recently.  The other ladies i am sure can offer you advice on this.
i am seeing two therapists plus the psychologist, but i look at it as tools to help me along with the process, am grateful for it.
It´s a long ride so we may as well enjoy it and try and stay positive girl. 
Keep expressing yourself here, you could not have found a better place for it  :)
All the best
Linda
Title: Re: Oh MY Goodness i Am A Happy Girl Now
Post by: Joanne Feliz on January 30, 2015, 05:09:27 AM
You are from Iceland?   ::)  I love Iceland!  I went there for 2 weeks a few summers ago and I really loved it.  I have such great memories(except of the town Arkanes and the eggy smelling water LOL)

I am in Australia - the exact other side of the world from you  :P

12 to 18 months is quite a long time.

I guess it give you time to work through all the emotions and prepares you for all the circumstances.  My psychologist is quite good at making me think about things i had never considered before.

do your parents know?  I havent told them yet.  i am planning to tel them after it is obvious from the hormones.
Title: Re: Oh MY Goodness i Am A Happy Girl Now
Post by: lindagrl on January 30, 2015, 06:13:15 AM
Quote from: Joanne Feliz on January 30, 2015, 05:09:27 AM
You are from Iceland?   ::)  I love Iceland!  I went there for 2 weeks a few summers ago and I really loved it.  I have such great memories(except of the town Arkanes and the eggy smelling water LOL)

I am in Australia - the exact other side of the world from you  :P

12 to 18 months is quite a long time.

I guess it give you time to work through all the emotions and prepares you for all the circumstances.  My psychologist is quite good at making me think about things i had never considered before.


do your parents know?  I havent told them yet.  i am planning to tel them after it is obvious from the hormones.

i like to think that every Icelandic town has it´s own peculiar charm, even Akranes  :)
Glad you enjoyed your trip to Iceland, to be sure it´s like no other place in the world.  i love traveling and getting into the feel of different cultures,
Australia wow, that´s certainly a place on my wish list of visiting, have gotten to know a few Aussies both here and online, we seem to share
a similar outlook on life and sense of humor. 

Yes in my case the time so far has been valuable to me, as i had many issues getting in my way, some that were no fault of mine but needed dealing with.
Have not told my parents yet, but my mother pretty much knows already and even gives me feminine looking attire, bought some lip gloss for me too.
Like you i don´t feel comfortable about telling them fully until the hormones begin kicking in and i told the psychologist that yesterday,
was very glad that he was understanding.  i am acting quite feminine though in public and it´s definitely noticed, the looks used to bother me but
now not as much, i am just doing my thing that makes me happy, i don´t need their approval anymore, yet i admit that an understanding smile from
another lady warms my heart every time.
Nice getting to know you Joanne
Linda