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I don't know what is this meant to be, because in my short life, I was never into such things... (Until now I didn't even know if I'm straight or not). -But today... it is just weird. I have funny feeling in my body and I simply can't stop thinking about women's bodies all day long, and i feel so tense and happy and angry at same time. Every girl I remember seems to me unbearably attractive. Its just... did someone experienced something like this?
I think I'm going nuts...

Oh I know what you mean. I'm having this awful time now being around women and having these thoughts. I'm even thinking about my friend in a sexual manner who considers me her brother. This makes wanting to stay single for the next 2 years very difficult.

Well, women are quite gorgeous... ;D

Quote from: Vil on February 24, 2015, 02:03:42 PM
I don't know what is this meant to be, because in my short life, I was never into such things... (Until now I didn't even know if I'm straight or not). -But today... it is just weird. I have funny feeling in my body and I simply can't stop thinking about women's bodies all day long, and i feel so tense and happy and angry at same time. Every girl I remember seems to me unbearably attractive. Its just... did someone experienced something like this?
I think I'm going nuts...

Yep.  I started having sexual dreams about my administrative assistant.....I felt (and feel), so guilty about it!  Thank God it only happened a couple of times and then stopped.  I have never been attracted to her in real life...it's the T!

How long have you been on T? The first few years can be pretty intense. Even annoying. The first year I was on it, it seemed like that was all I thought about whether I wanted to or not!

Sam1234

Completely off topic, but Brett, what does that ticker on the left mean?

Hugs, Devlyn

I'm not even two weeks in and all I can think about is having it off with my housemate.  Granted, I already had it bad for her, but it's worse now.  I actually bought books on how to not be in love with someone.  FAIL.  I even went Sordid Lives on myself; I put an elastic band on my wrist one night and would snap it every time I had a romantic or sexual thought about my housemate.  I had to switch wrists after four hours.  She saw me doing and HAD to have figured it out, because she egged me on a few times.

I knew going into this that I'd turn into a teenage boy.  I knew, but damn.  This makes me wonder what life's going to be like a few months down the road.

There have been studies that show that men think about sex 90% of the time, the mystery is what they think of for the other 10%.

<sorry couldn't resist!>

Quote from: Devlyn Marie on February 24, 2015, 05:50:38 PM
Completely off topic, but Brett, what does that ticker on the left mean?

Hugs, Devlyn

It means the amount of time that has passed since he has had top surgery with Dr. Garramone, a well-known and quite "famous" top surgeon in the FtM community.  I'm taking it means that his results are pretty consistant for the most part, hence the name given to those who go to him "clones".  I'm excited to be a "clone" in September!   ;D

Back to the OP,  I think about women all the time.  Heck, I'm started to find nearly every girl attractive (even if it is in the slightest manner), even if she is not my "type", and I'm not even on T!  There are two women in particular that every time I see them, I uncontrollably bite my lip.  The first time it started to happen, I told my friend about it, and she said that means that I "want" her, which I suppose is true.  It happened again while I was at work last night.  I walked up to the girl who works at one of the food places where I am at, and all of a sudden, I bit down on my lip so hard, and looked away quickly.  There was an old lady near me who looked at my and probably wondering what my problem was, haha!

I'm terrified to see how my (already high) sex drive will react to T.

Quote from: Ms Grace on February 24, 2015, 03:36:12 PM
Well, women are quite gorgeous... ;D

Judging from your pic... yeah ;)

I am totally pre-T, but I think about the human form a lot. I have judge myself on both sides of the fence, and noted my attraction to the female form, whereas the male form is more of a "compare and wish I was there" attitude. Heck, I will honestly admit to having shared a roleplay with someone that was EX-PLI-CIT wherein I (FtM trans) was playing a cis-male and she (irl cis-female) played a cis-female. She was completely "fooled" by my intimate understanding of male anatomy in that sense. AND FER CHRISSAKES I ENJOYED IT.  :o

Quote from: King Malachite on February 25, 2015, 12:11:37 AM
I'm terrified to see how my (already high) sex drive will react to T.

Me too...

Well guys, at least we don't have to worry about our T driven thoughts showing through our jeans!

sam1234

Kind of OT but it's something the guys joke about. It's sort of funny. Dr. Garramone was our top surgeon, we say that you can tell a Dr G chest and that they all look alike. He also has kind of an assembly line. No complaints because he's an excellent surgeon, but we have kind of 'clone army'. (I can answer for Brett because we are clone twins. :)  )


Oh yeah, and I don't know what the other 10% topic is actually. :)

Quote from: Devlyn Marie on February 24, 2015, 05:50:38 PM
Completely off topic, but Brett, what does that ticker on the left mean?

Hugs, Devlyn

Quote from: aleon515 on February 26, 2015, 12:29:24 PM

Oh yeah, and I don't know what the other 10% topic is actually. :)

Its seasonal i guess. Last few months it was politics for me, that's when the elections were around. And these days it's cricket. during and before my exams it was science mostly

Anyway there are some days where almost every female i set my eyes upon looks soooo attractive. And days i see faults in every girl's appearance and i lose interest in sex altogether. There are days, or weeks i'm so overwhelmed by sexual thoughts that i actually malfunction in other work. im pre T btw. Our minds are so strange and it's hard to analyze them and fit its functioning into a pattern. There were days i couldn't just sit still near a girl in a class because of the issue. and some days i didn't mind that at all. I couldn't understand a pattern but for me such feelings come in waves i guess.

I find the T sex drive quite interesting as I myself have no sex drive at all (I'm currently pre-T) and I'm wondering if T will help change that and what those changes will be like for me.

This is a little TMI, but I'm sure someone can relate or at least tell me I'm not mental.

I'm three doses of T in right now and...wow.  Libido is definitely up and when I...you know, take care of my own needs...it's indescribable.  I'm on a beta-blocker for anxiety, have been for four years, and not long after I began taking it I noticed that...well, it was different.  And I know it's because my heart rate is reduced.

A few days ago, however, I noticed that things have changed.  All of a sudden. when I get to the finish line, sweet Jibbers Crabst on a cracker!  It's incredible.  I've never experienced giggedy like this before.  If I wasn't taking this beta-blocker, I can only imagine how intense it would be.  And I'm only three weeks in on testosterone!  Six months from now I'm either going to need a partner who can keep up with me, or some saltpeter.  Because DAMN!

This could also possibly be blamed on my wonderful housemate, who is so hot she carbonates my hormones and makes my genitals hurt.  Or it's a combination.  I'm so screwed.

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I find the T sex drive quite interesting as I myself have no sex drive at all (I'm currently pre-T) and I'm wondering if T will help change that and what those changes will be like for me.

Same, I don't think I've ever even checked out girls. Although since realizing I was trans I feel like I've begun to see girls differently. Maybe  it's just that I'm paying more attention to myself, but something feels different. Maybe it's the sense of distance that's between us in my head that makes me appreciate them more?

I've been able to appreciate people for their attractive features much more now, but I think it's a comfort thing. I'm as gay as a neon double rainbow but I've certainly found myself looking at people and thinking "hey, that lady/guy is pretty nice looking".

As far as sexy though, it's all about the guys. I saw this really good looking one a few days ago. I think he got all the booty in this country.

Quote from: Ayden on March 01, 2015, 10:15:58 AM
...I think he got all the booty in this country.

This made me :laugh:. Totally relatable.