Community Conversation => Transsexual talk => Male to female transsexual talk (MTF) => Topic started by: Damara on February 26, 2015, 08:30:45 PM Return to Full Version
Title: Seeing myself.. sometimes.. not sometimes.
Post by: Damara on February 26, 2015, 08:30:45 PM
Post by: Damara on February 26, 2015, 08:30:45 PM
This will happen someday... I know it will... it happens sometimes in fleeting glimpses. There she is! But at times and too often, it seems, she's there but hidden beneath his traits.
In the very early days, years ago, when trying to don a female appearance.. for the longest time when I'd look at myself, I'd see someone, a clown maybe.. a farce.
now as I'm going through this transformation once and for all, I sometimes see the woman behind the stubble.. behind the male musculature.. I see my true self.
But when does this become effortless? When will I be able to look at a photo of myself, or a mirror, and not fear I appear to be too masculine or ugly? I am sure this will happen but it still frustrating at times.
In the very early days, years ago, when trying to don a female appearance.. for the longest time when I'd look at myself, I'd see someone, a clown maybe.. a farce.
now as I'm going through this transformation once and for all, I sometimes see the woman behind the stubble.. behind the male musculature.. I see my true self.
But when does this become effortless? When will I be able to look at a photo of myself, or a mirror, and not fear I appear to be too masculine or ugly? I am sure this will happen but it still frustrating at times.
Title: Re: Seeing myself.. sometimes.. not sometimes.
Post by: Hikari on February 26, 2015, 09:20:02 PM
Post by: Hikari on February 26, 2015, 09:20:02 PM
For me after about six months I to HRT I realized that when I looked into the mirror I only saw a woman. I saw my flaws too my big nose, my bad teeth, all of my fat, but those were criticisms of the woman I was looking at in the mirror.
Ever since that point I have thought less about being trans aside from the times when something medical related to being trans is going on in my life. There are times where I have to remind myself that I am trans, I hope in the future after SRS everyday will be like that.
Ever since that point I have thought less about being trans aside from the times when something medical related to being trans is going on in my life. There are times where I have to remind myself that I am trans, I hope in the future after SRS everyday will be like that.
Title: Re: Seeing myself.. sometimes.. not sometimes.
Post by: Damara on February 26, 2015, 09:30:12 PM
Post by: Damara on February 26, 2015, 09:30:12 PM
Quote from: Hikari on February 26, 2015, 09:20:02 PM
For me after about six months I to HRT I realized that when I looked into the mirror I only saw a woman. I saw my flaws too my big nose, my bad teeth, all of my fat, but those were criticisms of the woman I was looking at in the mirror.
Ever since that point I have thought less about being trans aside from the times when something medical related to being trans is going on in my life. There are times where I have to remind myself that I am trans, I hope in the future after SRS everyday will be like that.
That sounds so awesome Hikari.. I am hoping for this someday!! eeeee!