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Title: Hey...
Post by: CarrotInsanity on March 16, 2015, 06:47:15 PM
Not sure what I'm doing on here.  Guess I need some advice. 

So, I've got female genitals.  Yup.

I'm not sure what I identify as.  Getting mistaken for a male gives me a confidence boost.  My brother's friends call me a male nickname.  A neighborhood kid asked me what my name was.  He looked pretty damn confused.  He didn't know why I (a dude) resembled an awkward girl from a few years back. 

People are pissed that I'm dressing and acting like a boy.  My grandmother says I'm an attention-seeking ->-bleeped-<-.  My aunt says I'm trying to piss off everybody.  My mom pleads that I'm a "beautiful girl." 

I can't do this anymore.  I feel like a giraffe in girl's clothes.  Luckily I've got a thin guy's frame - tall (5'9"), long arms, legs, narrow hips, big nose.  But I'm only 14.  I'm scared that puberty's going to kick in and give me boobs or some ->-bleeped-<-. 

I'm really dysphoric when it comes to periods.  Can't stand asking for supplies, etc.  I also hate my skinny arms.  Chicken-thin.  Skinny for even a girl.  I hate them so much.   

I need help.  There's no one in my family to talk to - they're all either religious or reluctant or just plain skeptical.  I wish I had been born a boy.  Could've saved me from confusion and anger and depression.
Title: Re: Hey...
Post by: Jill F on March 16, 2015, 06:51:27 PM
Hi CarrotInsanity,

Welcome to Susan's Place and congratulations for finding us. 

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Hugs,
~Jill
Title: Re: Hey...
Post by: chefskenzie on March 16, 2015, 06:58:24 PM
There are some great forums here, where you can ask questions, and figure out everything!  Welcome to Susans!
Title: Re: Hey...
Post by: mrs izzy on March 16, 2015, 07:11:37 PM
CarrotInsanity
Welcome to Susan's Family
So many topics to explore and posts to read or write. :icon_paper:
Many article of news, wiki, links ,minecraft and chat
Safe passage on your path.
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Hugs

I seen you have done a intro in the youth talk. Many there of your age to offer support.
Title: Re: Hey...
Post by: Rachel on March 16, 2015, 07:12:20 PM
Welcome to Susan's. As said, there are a lot of great places to look for answers and help here.

Any chance a school counselor can help you?
Title: Re: Hey...
Post by: Devlyn on March 17, 2015, 07:50:20 AM
Hi CarrotInsanity, welcome to Susan's Place! I'm from Boston. Get busy posting and making friends, and I'll see you around the site!


Hugs, Devlyn




Title: Re: Hey...
Post by: Athena on March 17, 2015, 08:55:09 AM
Hi CarrotInsanity welcome to Susan's. I hope you find the answers you are looking for here.
Title: Re: Hey...
Post by: Ayden on March 17, 2015, 09:17:14 PM
Welcome.

We have a lot of members who are in your age range. I was your age not too long ago, and I remember a lot of the negative feelings. I went by a male name in school too and spent probably half my high school years in suits. Check out the youth talk area as there may be others who can give you advice as to how to handle school issues. We have a wide range of ages on the FTM board and you are certainly welcome to pop over and see us. We'd be happy to help as much as we can. Hope to see you around.
Title: Re: Hey...
Post by: V M on March 20, 2015, 08:26:20 AM
Hi CarrotInsanity  :icon_wave:

Welcome to Susan's  :)  Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

Hugs

V M