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Title: 15, mtf, just some questions
Post by: christinaMitchell on March 25, 2015, 01:15:34 AM
Post by: christinaMitchell on March 25, 2015, 01:15:34 AM
Ok so my name assigned at birth is Noah, my birth gender is male, i'm pretty sure (but still thinking) i'm supposed to be a girl. I am 15, I will be 16 in April. My parents are very open-minded the are accepting of gay and bi men and women and have told me it's perfectly fine to be gay or bi, and said they would be supportive, I am mostly straight (i guess i would be lesbian if i transitioned?). My dad is a pastor (united methodist). I am homeschooled.
I was thinking of just asking my mom's opinion of transgender people as i do not know her opinion, my dad almost always shares her opinions.
I did have concerns though, I am 6'1" and have broad manly shoulders, my feet are size 13 wide (US), I am overweight so i would be dropping most of that.
current male name: Noah Mitchell.
Current idea of female name: Christina Mitchell.
So my story:
It all started at about 11-12(late compared to others), i felt different from other kids, i have always been better friends with girls, I kind of just blocked those feelings never told anyone, mainly because i realised at that age that the world is a judgemental hard place, so i built a fake mask so to speak, a mask that would hide my feelings, that would make me appear like a... well guy. As i've gotten older it's been harder to hide these feelings. I don't like/understand sports, I am nerdy (fluent in 6 programming languages), i love school, I would be more of a tomboy type girl (just means i'm not super girly (just a little) or pink crazy but would absolutley love a feminine body and to wear feminine clothes).
Also just some quick googling it looks like the health insurence, Aetna, my parents have (for me too), covers HRT, anyone with better knowledge on it?
What do you think with me being so tall and such a deep voice and big feet and broad shoulders would i be passible?
I was thinking of just asking my mom's opinion of transgender people as i do not know her opinion, my dad almost always shares her opinions.
I did have concerns though, I am 6'1" and have broad manly shoulders, my feet are size 13 wide (US), I am overweight so i would be dropping most of that.
current male name: Noah Mitchell.
Current idea of female name: Christina Mitchell.
So my story:
It all started at about 11-12(late compared to others), i felt different from other kids, i have always been better friends with girls, I kind of just blocked those feelings never told anyone, mainly because i realised at that age that the world is a judgemental hard place, so i built a fake mask so to speak, a mask that would hide my feelings, that would make me appear like a... well guy. As i've gotten older it's been harder to hide these feelings. I don't like/understand sports, I am nerdy (fluent in 6 programming languages), i love school, I would be more of a tomboy type girl (just means i'm not super girly (just a little) or pink crazy but would absolutley love a feminine body and to wear feminine clothes).
Also just some quick googling it looks like the health insurence, Aetna, my parents have (for me too), covers HRT, anyone with better knowledge on it?
What do you think with me being so tall and such a deep voice and big feet and broad shoulders would i be passible?
Title: Re: 15, mtf, just some questions
Post by: Cindy on March 25, 2015, 01:24:00 AM
Post by: Cindy on March 25, 2015, 01:24:00 AM
Hi Christina and Welcome to Susan's
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I certainly think you should talk to your folks and get them to let you see a thearpist. I wouldn't worried about your physical size - except for the weight!!
Lots of women here and in everyday life are tall. Ever seen female basketball players?
I know several very good looking ladies here who are well over 6' and with your age on your side you would have great possibilities!!
Do check around the site, and you may want to join in the Youth Forum as well, lots of people around your age are there with similar concerns.
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I certainly think you should talk to your folks and get them to let you see a thearpist. I wouldn't worried about your physical size - except for the weight!!
Lots of women here and in everyday life are tall. Ever seen female basketball players?
I know several very good looking ladies here who are well over 6' and with your age on your side you would have great possibilities!!
Do check around the site, and you may want to join in the Youth Forum as well, lots of people around your age are there with similar concerns.
Welcome young lady to the site!
Title: Re: 15, mtf, just some questions
Post by: christinaMitchell on March 25, 2015, 01:27:21 AM
Post by: christinaMitchell on March 25, 2015, 01:27:21 AM
Thanks as you can imagine having never opened up before this is... different. But yeah i'm going to start with asking their ideas on transgenders and then i will probably wait a few (like 2-3) weeks more and think about is this really what i want.
I am also somewhat worried this is just a phase like will i just want to continue being a guy in 2 months? Although i've had these feelings for a while, i only just started researching tansgender stuff a week ago.
I am also somewhat worried this is just a phase like will i just want to continue being a guy in 2 months? Although i've had these feelings for a while, i only just started researching tansgender stuff a week ago.
Title: Re: 15, mtf, just some questions
Post by: Cindy on March 25, 2015, 01:33:03 AM
Post by: Cindy on March 25, 2015, 01:33:03 AM
Of course take all the time and explore everything. You are young enough to accomplish anything you desire. There is no rush and no ones journey is the same.
Title: Re: 15, mtf, just some questions
Post by: christinaMitchell on March 25, 2015, 01:43:00 AM
Post by: christinaMitchell on March 25, 2015, 01:43:00 AM
Right with that being said i just feel like I would be infinitly happier in a female body.
Title: Re: 15, mtf, just some questions
Post by: Cindy on March 25, 2015, 01:51:34 AM
Post by: Cindy on March 25, 2015, 01:51:34 AM
Oh and on the issue of being large and may not make a pretty girl, look at the Before & After thread. Some stunning ladies who started off as pretty ordinary guys!
Title: Re: 15, mtf, just some questions
Post by: V M on March 25, 2015, 03:16:48 AM
Post by: V M on March 25, 2015, 03:16:48 AM
Hi Christina :icon_wave:
Welcome to Susan's :) Glad to have you here, join on in the fun
Hugs
V M
Welcome to Susan's :) Glad to have you here, join on in the fun
Hugs
V M
Title: Re: 15, mtf, just some questions
Post by: Laura_7 on March 25, 2015, 05:44:21 AM
Post by: Laura_7 on March 25, 2015, 05:44:21 AM
Hello and welcome *hugs*
you could have a look here for a few thoughts:
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,184920.msg1644403.html#msg1644403
Its for a ftm person, so a few things are the other way around... like clothing for women...
Well its up to you what you say since you know them best...
talking in a relaxed manner might help... remaining calm and stating facts and a few needs...
some people come out in a letter... some use a short letter and talk to them later... and show some materials like some vids later...
but, well, a talk has the advantage of being more flexible...
some people drop some hints ...
hugs
you could have a look here for a few thoughts:
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,184920.msg1644403.html#msg1644403
Its for a ftm person, so a few things are the other way around... like clothing for women...
Well its up to you what you say since you know them best...
talking in a relaxed manner might help... remaining calm and stating facts and a few needs...
some people come out in a letter... some use a short letter and talk to them later... and show some materials like some vids later...
but, well, a talk has the advantage of being more flexible...
some people drop some hints ...
hugs
Title: Re: 15, mtf, just some questions
Post by: Myarkstir on March 25, 2015, 06:56:56 AM
Post by: Myarkstir on March 25, 2015, 06:56:56 AM
Hey!
Welcome to Susan's
Welcome to Susan's
Title: Re: 15, mtf, just some questions
Post by: christinaMitchell on March 25, 2015, 08:30:42 AM
Post by: christinaMitchell on March 25, 2015, 08:30:42 AM
Ok well I asked both of my parents at breakfast this morning about their ideas and they both are fine with transgender people and said it must be a painful path being trapped in the wrong body since birth.
Title: Re: 15, mtf, just some questions
Post by: Cindy on March 25, 2015, 08:37:36 AM
Post by: Cindy on March 25, 2015, 08:37:36 AM
Your parents are wonderful!
You are a lucky girl. Now ask them to help find a gender therapist.
It doesn't mean you are trans but will allow you to talk to someone who can help you find you.
Hugs
You are a lucky girl. Now ask them to help find a gender therapist.
It doesn't mean you are trans but will allow you to talk to someone who can help you find you.
Hugs
Title: Re: 15, mtf, just some questions
Post by: christinaMitchell on March 25, 2015, 09:16:57 AM
Post by: christinaMitchell on March 25, 2015, 09:16:57 AM
thank you so much, i think i will wait for a while (probably 17th birthday or maybe 6 months)before coming out, i am going to make sure whether or not this what i want. but thank you so much.
Title: Re: 15, mtf, just some questions
Post by: Cindy on March 25, 2015, 09:19:20 AM
Post by: Cindy on March 25, 2015, 09:19:20 AM
Hugs young lady, and walk your path. We are here when you need us and keep safe.
Title: Re: 15, mtf, just some questions
Post by: mrs izzy on March 25, 2015, 11:41:35 AM
Post by: mrs izzy on March 25, 2015, 11:41:35 AM
Christian,
Welcome to Susan's Family
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Welcome to Susan's Family
So many topics to explore and posts to read or write. (https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fyoursmiles.org%2Fpsmile%2Fprofession%2Fp0126.gif&hash=db28d493a08fd434f52ada6d7186966d2905ac58)
Many article of news, wiki, links ,minecraft and chat
Safe passage on your path.
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Title: Re: 15, mtf, just some questions
Post by: gennee on March 25, 2015, 11:48:05 AM
Post by: gennee on March 25, 2015, 11:48:05 AM
Hi and welcome to Susan's, Christina.
:)
:)
Title: Re: 15, mtf, just some questions
Post by: christinaMitchell on March 25, 2015, 12:23:51 PM
Post by: christinaMitchell on March 25, 2015, 12:23:51 PM
thanks for all the help, I typed up a letter to give to my parents when i feel i'm ready :) (not for a couple months), actually right now i have it on an encrypted sector of my computers hard drive, what do you think?
QuoteDear mom and dad, I know what you're about to read may be hard but this is how I've felt since about ten.i'm supprised it fits on one page :laugh:
When I was about ten I realized I wasn't like other boys, I had and have always been better friends with girls. At that age I wondered why I wasn't a girl, seeing the world I saw it was a harmful place and that anyone who was not 'normal' was shunned, I built a 'social mask' to shield me from them, to make me appear a boy (sometimes acting over masculine), I just wanted to fit in. Remember when I wanted to date Lauren, I thought maybe if I was with her these feelings would go away, maybe it was just a phase... they never went away.
As I grew older it got harder to contain these feelings, all these questions with no answers or anyone to talk to, for years I felt depressed because I thought it was weird and that I just needed to keep to myself and close out the world. I never truly felt like I was in the right body, like I had the right software but the wrong hardware.
I realize at this point you might have all sorts of questions/feelings; so did I. I felt depressed until about March 2015 when I found susans.org, a website for teens/adults to talk about their transgender problems, you may recall me asking March 25, 2015 about your opinion of transgender people, your answer made me so happy, but I was still worried, "What if they don't understand?", "What if they don't like my decisions?".I've kept these feelings bottled up for 16 years (March 2015 when I wrote this, I don't know when you receive it), painful, awkward, different, angry, sad, depressing feelings. The reason I was always so grumpy and mean was because I was in constant pain, well that and my misophonia (I'm full of problems).
One day (like soon!) I hope to see a gender therapist. I have picked a new name for myself; Christina Lily Mitchell. I hope that you accept me for who I am.
Your Loving Daughter,
Christina.