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Title: It's such a mind blowing experience to finally be outside what you are inside
Post by: stephaniec on April 12, 2015, 05:56:30 PM
I've hit a point after 16 months in my transition where the estrogen is really becoming dominant . I can sit in a Starbucks in a dress and no or very little make up and feel comfortable and not get stared at. A dream come true after 40 plus years. when I was young I use to be so afraid that I could ever be real in public. I remember right after high school entering my long hair Hippi phase and sitting with a girl I knew when she pulled out her birth control pills and instead of thinking sex all that came into my mind was snatching the pills from her. God , the rush of happiness I feel now when I think of that moment and think now, wow I got my own estrogen and it's really as beautiful  as I always thought it would be. Sorry for the rant , but I've been looking at my before and after pictures and the effects of estrogen are becoming quite beautifully evident. Of course the only thing better than this moment would of been getting my own estrogen when I was 18 , but thank God I got it now. I remember buying my first dress when I was 19 from a Hippi clothes store and I was so happy, but when I got home and put it on It just didn't look right so I gave it to my sister pretending it was a gift. Now , because of the hormones the dresses all look right on me and I'm in heaven. ( disclaimer this is just a happy rant and doesn't prove I've gone insane)
Title: Re: It's such a mind blowing experience to finally be outside what you are inside
Post by: Alissa16 on April 12, 2015, 06:15:27 PM
Nothing wrong with happy rants!! Hope I can be joining you in that happy place soon. Just a bit further down this road.
Title: Re: It's such a mind blowing experience to finally be outside what you are inside
Post by: Mariah on April 12, 2015, 06:35:23 PM
Stephanie it's wonderful to see you doing so well and comfortable being yourself in public. Congrats, It's a wonderful feeling I know. I love seeing happy rants.  :)
Mariah
Title: Re: It's such a mind blowing experience to finally be outside what you are inside
Post by: stephaniec on April 12, 2015, 06:41:56 PM
Quote from: Mariah2014 on April 12, 2015, 06:35:23 PM
Stephanie it's wonderful to see you doing so well and comfortable being yourself in public. Congrats, It's a wonderful feeling I know. I love seeing happy rants.  :)
Mariah
the thing is it's seems to be getting easier being me in public . I'm so much more in a hurry to get out lately. I'm not going out any more without my eyes done nice and a nice dress, I do feel soooo much better
Title: Re: It's such a mind blowing experience to finally be outside what you are inside
Post by: April_TO on April 12, 2015, 06:46:43 PM
Stephanie, I can totally hear you. It's truly amazing. Congrats!
Now you inspire me to get my first maxi dress for the summer :)
Title: Re: It's such a mind blowing experience to finally be outside what you are inside
Post by: Lady Smith on April 12, 2015, 06:49:30 PM
Yes it's good place to be alright Stephanie, - congratulations on getting there.  It's the best thing when you can go out and live life without any more concerns than what a natural born woman has.
Title: Re: It's such a mind blowing experience to finally be outside what you are inside
Post by: Mariah on April 12, 2015, 06:49:57 PM
It's not just you because it really does get easier. I don't even think about it anymore and haven't for months. you will get to that point eventually. Enjoy it because you really do deserve the happiness this brings. I can understand that are just somethings I won't leave the house without them on no matter how much of a hurry I'm in. I can tell and have no doubt you feel so much better as yourself outside because I think we all do once we become used to and comfortable with it.
Mariah
Quote from: stephaniec on April 12, 2015, 06:41:56 PM
the thing is it's seems to be getting easier being me in public . I'm so much more in a hurry to get out lately. I'm not going out any more without my eyes done nice and a nice dress, I do feel soooo much better
Title: Re: It's such a mind blowing experience to finally be outside what you are inside
Post by: LizMarie on April 13, 2015, 10:39:11 AM
Congratulations, Stephanie! That's such a great feeling, isn't it?