Community Conversation => Transsexual talk => Male to female transsexual talk (MTF) => Topic started by: Rose City Rose on May 04, 2015, 09:35:37 PM Return to Full Version
Title: Dysphoria Just Under Control
Post by: Rose City Rose on May 04, 2015, 09:35:37 PM
Post by: Rose City Rose on May 04, 2015, 09:35:37 PM
So lately, I still have some ongoing dysphoria about my facial hair (10 laser treatments weren't enough and I'm too broke to do anything about it except tweeze the darkest, most obvious problem hairs and deal with embarrassing skin reactions from sweat in the spots where I shave). For the most part though, I notice that the dysphoria I have is negotiable compared to some of the other emotions I'm dealing with. My last term before I get my BA has been super stressful.
I find that I'm actually happier with a smaller penis and testicles. I used to have a 7 3/4" cock that gay men drooled over, but I hated always being on top with guys because I hated being reminded I had it. Everything finally shrunk noticeably while I was still going through really bad dysphoria and afraid to touch or measure it to see if there had been any progress. To my surprise I've lost 1" of length and about 1/2" of girth and it doesn't bother me one bit. I'd say it's an improvement to see it turning into an oversized clit and I might do OK with an orchi when the chance comes.
I barely get erections any more either but I don't care; I'm still frisky as a spring vixen and loving the nipple sensitivity I've regained since starting finasteride on top of my spiro. That's probably what's keeping me afloat right now. My body's less of a prison now and more of a fixer-upper apartment.
Is anyone else just barely at the point where your dysphoria's stabilized, but still feeling not-so-great?
I find that I'm actually happier with a smaller penis and testicles. I used to have a 7 3/4" cock that gay men drooled over, but I hated always being on top with guys because I hated being reminded I had it. Everything finally shrunk noticeably while I was still going through really bad dysphoria and afraid to touch or measure it to see if there had been any progress. To my surprise I've lost 1" of length and about 1/2" of girth and it doesn't bother me one bit. I'd say it's an improvement to see it turning into an oversized clit and I might do OK with an orchi when the chance comes.
I barely get erections any more either but I don't care; I'm still frisky as a spring vixen and loving the nipple sensitivity I've regained since starting finasteride on top of my spiro. That's probably what's keeping me afloat right now. My body's less of a prison now and more of a fixer-upper apartment.
Is anyone else just barely at the point where your dysphoria's stabilized, but still feeling not-so-great?
Title: Re: Dysphoria Just Under Control
Post by: Metanoia on May 04, 2015, 11:29:14 PM
Post by: Metanoia on May 04, 2015, 11:29:14 PM
After coming out and talking to my wife, my dysphoria has shrank a bit... still reminded and embarrassed by Mr. Happy...
Looking to start low-dose HRT soon to quell (or enhance?) remaining dysphoria for now... But yes, still feeling not-so-great... looking forward to feeling a wider range of emotions soon.
Hang in there. We're all in this together.
Looking to start low-dose HRT soon to quell (or enhance?) remaining dysphoria for now... But yes, still feeling not-so-great... looking forward to feeling a wider range of emotions soon.
Hang in there. We're all in this together.
Title: Re: Dysphoria Just Under Control
Post by: sam1234 on May 05, 2015, 01:04:34 AM
Post by: sam1234 on May 05, 2015, 01:04:34 AM
I can't say that my dysphoria was ever just under control once i started. It went from one extreme to the other. It was like every new procedure produced an unbelievable high and freedom from the HRT all the way to the phalloplasty.
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Title: Re: Dysphoria Just Under Control
Post by: rachel89 on May 06, 2015, 05:53:35 PM
Post by: rachel89 on May 06, 2015, 05:53:35 PM
My facial hair dysphoria is absolutely insane, I have bottom dysphoria, but it seems a little easier to control because I can tuck and don't have to see it all the time. The bottom dysphoria cause a lot sexual problems though, and its really not fun. I freaked out about facial at puberty and didn't really know why, have always hated it, and led to the breakdown that caused me to go into therapy.