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Title: Sick for first time on HRT, really messed with my attitude!
Post by: Dodie on May 17, 2015, 11:02:09 PM
Post by: Dodie on May 17, 2015, 11:02:09 PM
Thursday I became ill! A stomach thing. Unusual for me I never have stomach issues.
Turns out to be from working out and dehydration and elecrolites out of balance .
I almost would pass out when standing.
A really strange thing happened to me mentally.
I was so sick being a woman meant nothing to me . I felt so bad I was like what the heck have I done. For the first time I regretted my transition.
Missed my old life, just felt lost.
I actually pulled my hair back to see if I could pass as a guy with no make up.
My don said good luck with that go try.
My therapist taught me to think logically and that helped.
It was a scary time thinking I could regret this.
Once I felt better I came to my senses.
I love bring me do much. To have hair , to have my body change !
This is not a choice! I have up a wife that is perfect , beautiful in do many ways.
If I had been a real dude I would have been luckiest dude in the world.
My ex understands that and has my back!
She actually helped me through this and feels I did the right thing.
So lesson is, we may transition but life's problems stay with us.
Time for me to deal with those stressors!
I'm a chick now, I have no excuses!
Time to live!
Dodie
Turns out to be from working out and dehydration and elecrolites out of balance .
I almost would pass out when standing.
A really strange thing happened to me mentally.
I was so sick being a woman meant nothing to me . I felt so bad I was like what the heck have I done. For the first time I regretted my transition.
Missed my old life, just felt lost.
I actually pulled my hair back to see if I could pass as a guy with no make up.
My don said good luck with that go try.
My therapist taught me to think logically and that helped.
It was a scary time thinking I could regret this.
Once I felt better I came to my senses.
I love bring me do much. To have hair , to have my body change !
This is not a choice! I have up a wife that is perfect , beautiful in do many ways.
If I had been a real dude I would have been luckiest dude in the world.
My ex understands that and has my back!
She actually helped me through this and feels I did the right thing.
So lesson is, we may transition but life's problems stay with us.
Time for me to deal with those stressors!
I'm a chick now, I have no excuses!
Time to live!
Dodie
Title: Re: Sick for first time on HRT, really messed with my attitude!
Post by: Cindy on May 17, 2015, 11:06:51 PM
Post by: Cindy on May 17, 2015, 11:06:51 PM
Hugs Dodie,
Remember your physical strength has dropped so until we get use to the odd sickness we can feel worse than before we were on HRT.
After that you remember you are a wonderful woman and reach out to your friends - just as you are!
Get well soon.
Remember your physical strength has dropped so until we get use to the odd sickness we can feel worse than before we were on HRT.
After that you remember you are a wonderful woman and reach out to your friends - just as you are!
Get well soon.
Title: Re: Sick for first time on HRT, really messed with my attitude!
Post by: Zoetrope on May 17, 2015, 11:14:01 PM
Post by: Zoetrope on May 17, 2015, 11:14:01 PM
I understand, hey. I've had similar feelings on a couple of occasions when I was home sick with a migraine.
I was so focused on how rotten I felt, that I lost sight of all the good things going on.
It wasn't exactly doubt that I felt, but yes, I had a lot of unhelpful thoughts on those occasions. Mostly hauntings from my old life.
Thankfully it all passes by. As soon as I felt fresh and all pretty again, things were back to normal :~)
I was so focused on how rotten I felt, that I lost sight of all the good things going on.
It wasn't exactly doubt that I felt, but yes, I had a lot of unhelpful thoughts on those occasions. Mostly hauntings from my old life.
Thankfully it all passes by. As soon as I felt fresh and all pretty again, things were back to normal :~)
Title: Re: Sick for first time on HRT, really messed with my attitude!
Post by: katrinaw on May 18, 2015, 05:06:53 AM
Post by: katrinaw on May 18, 2015, 05:06:53 AM
Hi Dodie... Sorry to hear you weren't well and it brought a raft of bad thoughts... but glad you pushed through... and as they say, what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger... Which you are and we luv you for it
hugs
Katy
hugs
Katy
Title: Re: Sick for first time on HRT, really messed with my attitude!
Post by: Dodie on May 18, 2015, 07:22:20 AM
Post by: Dodie on May 18, 2015, 07:22:20 AM
Thanks Girls
I was so bragging how I had not been sick. Not sure what got me but wow did it ever slow me down
Still a little out of it today.
I have to work somehow!
Love
Dodie
I was so bragging how I had not been sick. Not sure what got me but wow did it ever slow me down
Still a little out of it today.
I have to work somehow!
Love
Dodie
Title: Re: Sick for first time on HRT, really messed with my attitude!
Post by: April_TO on May 18, 2015, 12:04:39 PM
Post by: April_TO on May 18, 2015, 12:04:39 PM
Dodie, I was in the same space where you are. Doubting everything and regretting that I came out to work. However, I know this is temporary and know that it's ok to feel this way. We are not our feelings! We are our word and once you've put your word to something that's it. Love your shares xo
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