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 :-* Hi kids! Hello you awesome people of Susan's (and yes I think your all awesome...not just saying that)

I finally dolled myself up for church and also other things for the day. I have my first real dress in a very long time, plus a few other really feminine clothes. I totally went for a change. I guess you could say its my amethyst sunshine phase...or dark sunshine. Still I wanted to show you my outfit (which all together was under $40 including shoes) and my new hair. Tell me please am I getting in the girly range>? You can guess already that from different angles and poses, i look more woman, i guess thats normal right? To have a less than flattering side or (sides)



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I think these here are my most girly...makeup was better in photo too due to lighting.

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For reference this was me...just a few weeks ago...my normal hair color too:



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Wow, you are definitely in the girly range! Love the smile and the outfit! And your hair looks cool too.

Thanks Lynne....my #1 flaw still i think is my upper body....my cousin said i had great legs lol...

I still see the guy there....i had other photos that were less flattering..sometimes i feel pretty and other times i feel like crap...even if others say i look good. This seems to be one of those...she says....they say days...where everyones in agreement. I got a lot of feedback at church. But after church a few negative comments and snickers.

Shawn, you look amazing. You really have come along ways in the last few months. Congrats.
Mariah

Quote from: Mariah2014 on June 07, 2015, 06:06:46 PM
Shawn, you look amazing. You really have come along ways in the last few months. Congrats.
Mariah

thanks Mariah! you are amazing too....you manage to chat with me and do so many other things..like take care of your mother. Your a helpful person.

Plus you have that womanly quality too.

Sunshine, you look great!! Love your eyes and smile!

The shoulders aren't that bad. If I may say so, you might lose a few around the belly area, but then so might I!! LOL! But it all adds up to a beautiful woman, bright and sparkly!

Quote from: Beth Andrea on June 07, 2015, 07:08:50 PM
Sunshine, you look great!! Love your eyes and smile!

The shoulders aren't that bad. If I may say so, you might lose a few around the belly area, but then so might I!! LOL! But it all adds up to a beautiful woman, bright and sparkly!

No is cool Beth I can take a suggestion...I've been trying to drop those pounds. At 270 now from record high of 360. Goal is 175

Your pics look great. My opinion fwiw your fast approaching male fail. You look very feminine. I think we all stress about our weight at times so don't beat yourself up to much. If it helps I've known some plus size cis girls over the years that were super sexy because they cared about themselves and how they presented to the world.
I see the same qualities in you when I look at your pics. Looking great keep it up.

I really like your pictures. I remember the first time I entered a church wearing women's clothing. It felt right. Three years ago I came out to my congregation. It was one of the highlights of my life.

:)

congrats

Shawn I must say those pictures look like a classy lady. Congrats!

Shawn (I feel slightly uncomfortable using this name because of its gendering and your image, but will keep it as long as you like us to), congrats on such a large transformation! In the past, when I saw your photos, you looked much more male or andro to me, though often radiating your feminine side from within quite clearly; here, you look extremely passable to me. In fact, I feel like I would gender you female visually if I saw you in public without a second glance. You really look great here--as iKate said, classy! :) And love the dress too, by the way. That makeup looks on point, too.

Keep being your beautiful self!

my mom saw these photos...she finally got word I'm finally actually transitIoning. Here was her respOnse to them.

QuoteBy the way, on Facebook, I think you look better as a man than dressing like a female. Sorry if that disappoints you, just being honest, not trying to judge. Want u to remember u r a temple of God. You should dress to please God, not yourself.
Says so in 1st Corinthians.
Are you attending church anywhere?

Feel free to call me Sunshine or "ShawnSunshine" and sometimes Shawnna

You look great in the pictures. I think god would want you to be happier as a woman. I personally believe trans people have a purpose on earth. It could be seen many ways.

Quote from: lostcharlie on June 07, 2015, 08:51:34 PM
Your pics look great. My opinion fwiw your fast approaching male fail. You look very feminine. I think we all stress about our weight at times so don't beat yourself up to much. If it helps I've known some plus size cis girls over the years that were super sexy because they cared about themselves and how they presented to the world.
I see the same qualities in you when I look at your pics. Looking great keep it up.

I would not say that...I'm not seeing the approacHing male fail that your seeing. Honestly the pics I have shown you were dolled up ones from flattering angles..that I learned about when taking a selfies pic. I still am read as male for sure when I don't dress up. But i did get 3 mams yesterday among all the sirs and snickers and not sure what to.says responses last night. And I did get hit on by a big black guy. Found that interesting.

To be fair let me show you my current less than flattering pictures and angles.

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Of course those above are my body photos. But still here are my face ones...Which is the angels most see..But not everyone.
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so I guess my own perception is torn too.....i did feel girly last night...But not now......yeah I'm dressed down too...


My moms negative comments are in my head too. It's got me all bothered.


One thing I still am working on is eye brows....the camera is still maKing them look extra bushy.

Sunshine, I 'm sticking to the comments in my first post. My compliments weren't just based on external appearance but on what I could see inside you. There was a confidence of who you are radiating out of you that was plainly seen by me. The pictures you posted today are missing that internal confidence I saw in your first pictures . I hope you can recapture the confidence and internal beauty that is so evident in your first pictures.

Quote from: lostcharlie on June 08, 2015, 08:19:36 PM
Sunshine, I 'm sticking to the comments in my first post. My compliments weren't just based on external appearance but on what I could see inside you. There was a confidence of who you are radiating out of you that was plainly seen by me. The pictures you posted today are missing that internal confidence I saw in your first pictures . I hope you can recapture the confidence and internal beauty that is so evident in your first pictures.

Oh yes you are right...and it's my mom that sapped it all away again...thinking she's helping me while all along I'd does nothing but drain me.

Some light reading:

https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,190092.0.html

Confidence works!

sunshine, my very very best wishes to you on your journey to your true self.