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Title: Enjoying to Cry
Post by: Martine A. on July 05, 2015, 04:38:06 PM
Post by: Martine A. on July 05, 2015, 04:38:06 PM
I considered resurrecting this one (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,45414.0.html) rather than opening a new topic. But this here is also about enjoying to cry + other media.
I have been doing it since I was a kid. I'd love crying at some touching moment of a musical work, a book, a movie or another medium.
With music, I'd just think of a matching place or event and there go tears. As a composer I do cry a lot when writing works that cover matching topics.
Speaking of movies, I roll back particular part of a movie over and over just to boost the effect. ;D No shame. Then I look myself in the mirror and cry stronger. Cry junkie!
Otherwise, I also have thoughts of original sceneries in public /a no-time-for-that storywriter here/. And those sceneries can be so touching I just start and keep crying. Although I enjoy it, in public it already gets embarrassing. I need my space to cry.
How about you?
I have been doing it since I was a kid. I'd love crying at some touching moment of a musical work, a book, a movie or another medium.
With music, I'd just think of a matching place or event and there go tears. As a composer I do cry a lot when writing works that cover matching topics.
Speaking of movies, I roll back particular part of a movie over and over just to boost the effect. ;D No shame. Then I look myself in the mirror and cry stronger. Cry junkie!
Otherwise, I also have thoughts of original sceneries in public /a no-time-for-that storywriter here/. And those sceneries can be so touching I just start and keep crying. Although I enjoy it, in public it already gets embarrassing. I need my space to cry.
How about you?
Title: Re: Enjoying to Cry
Post by: suzifrommd on July 05, 2015, 05:53:23 PM
Post by: suzifrommd on July 05, 2015, 05:53:23 PM
I definitely enjoy tearing up at emotional moments. It's what makes me feel most feminine.
(Yes, I know I'm a trans woman, I know I should stop caring how feminine I feel. I'm really trying, but I still need a lot of validation that I'm really a woman and not some man pretending.)
I'm unable to burst into tears when I'm really upset. That bothers me. I envy the ability that other women seem to have of relieving their tension that way. I could do that when I was a child, but haven't been able to do it since my teen years. (Yes, I know it's sort of crazy to want this, and that a lot of women wish they didn't ever have this happen.)
(Yes, I know I'm a trans woman, I know I should stop caring how feminine I feel. I'm really trying, but I still need a lot of validation that I'm really a woman and not some man pretending.)
I'm unable to burst into tears when I'm really upset. That bothers me. I envy the ability that other women seem to have of relieving their tension that way. I could do that when I was a child, but haven't been able to do it since my teen years. (Yes, I know it's sort of crazy to want this, and that a lot of women wish they didn't ever have this happen.)
Title: Re: Enjoying to Cry
Post by: stephaniec on July 05, 2015, 05:59:40 PM
Post by: stephaniec on July 05, 2015, 05:59:40 PM
crying is my favorite past time, it lubricates the eye balls. a lot better then eye drops or squirt bottles plus its free and natural.
Title: Re: Enjoying to Cry
Post by: StrykerXIII on July 05, 2015, 06:56:40 PM
Post by: StrykerXIII on July 05, 2015, 06:56:40 PM
I haven't cried since elementary school. I went through a period where my relatives were passing away almost literally one after another, and somewhere during all that, something just...broke...inside me. Now all I get is dry sobbing. I only tear up when I'm yawning or cutting onions. And I hate it. I want to be able to just go into a full-on tears everywhere meltdown...and it just doesn't happen.
Title: Re: Enjoying to Cry
Post by: Paige on July 05, 2015, 10:17:59 PM
Post by: Paige on July 05, 2015, 10:17:59 PM
I was an amazing crier until puberty, it always made me feel better. I don't think my father like it at all. But when puberty kicked in I hardly cry anymore. I really miss it. Probably one of the top reasons I would love to start HRT.
Take care,
Paige :)
Take care,
Paige :)
Title: Re: Enjoying to Cry
Post by: Mariah on July 05, 2015, 10:20:56 PM
Post by: Mariah on July 05, 2015, 10:20:56 PM
That was something I thought about lately and then after getting on HRT and dealing with my issues the crying seems to come with great ease now. Hugs
Mariah
Mariah
Quote from: Paige on July 05, 2015, 10:17:59 PM
I was an amazing crier until puberty, it always made me feel better. I don't think my father like it at all. But when puberty kicked in I hardly cry anymore. I really miss it. Probably one of the top reasons I would love to start HRT.
Take care,
Paige :)
Title: Re: Enjoying to Cry
Post by: findingreason on July 05, 2015, 10:23:22 PM
Post by: findingreason on July 05, 2015, 10:23:22 PM
I've cried at various points throughout my life; but it would usually take a traumatic or awful experience to engage such a thing. I longed to just be able to cry, but I always felt chemically castrated before HRT. I just....couldn't. It would almost never come.
Since starting HRT, it's been a massive relief to be able to cry when I need to. It's very therapeutic. A few weeks ago, something really amazing happened, and I burst into tears of happiness in my friend's arms. That was the first time I ever cried in my life over something happy. It was quite amazing. I look forward to more of those experiences, they're so incredibly freeing for me.
Since starting HRT, it's been a massive relief to be able to cry when I need to. It's very therapeutic. A few weeks ago, something really amazing happened, and I burst into tears of happiness in my friend's arms. That was the first time I ever cried in my life over something happy. It was quite amazing. I look forward to more of those experiences, they're so incredibly freeing for me.
Title: Re: Enjoying to Cry
Post by: Martine A. on July 05, 2015, 11:23:50 PM
Post by: Martine A. on July 05, 2015, 11:23:50 PM
One worry for me here is that I am already quite quick to cry. First months on HRT could make it rather embarrassing. The same is with smells... I gag on many things since I was a kid. But that is a different topic. :)
It is something I'll have to deal with one way or another. I suppose my question is how many haven't noticed increased crying rate after starting with HRT.
It is something I'll have to deal with one way or another. I suppose my question is how many haven't noticed increased crying rate after starting with HRT.
Title: Re: Enjoying to Cry
Post by: katrinaw on July 05, 2015, 11:36:28 PM
Post by: katrinaw on July 05, 2015, 11:36:28 PM
many, many years ago I used to get sad, on the inside, very rarely showed emotions, but now... I tear up at just about every emotional thing, sad/happy TV programs, shows, movies and even written articles... 12 years ago starting on HRT I would never have thought it would this much to me.
But like Suzi, I love it xx
Katy xx
But like Suzi, I love it xx
Katy xx
Title: Re: Enjoying to Cry
Post by: RavenL on July 06, 2015, 10:48:44 AM
Post by: RavenL on July 06, 2015, 10:48:44 AM
Quote from: suzifrommd on July 05, 2015, 05:53:23 PM
I definitely enjoy tearing up at emotional moments. It's what makes me feel most feminine.
(Yes, I know I'm a trans woman, I know I should stop caring how feminine I feel. I'm really trying, but I still need a lot of validation that I'm really a woman and not some man pretending.)
I thought I was the only one that felt like that! Crying does help me feel better since before I could count on one hand how many times I've cried.