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Title: Not so much crying as bawling!
Post by: rosinstraya on August 02, 2015, 08:52:49 AM
Post by: rosinstraya on August 02, 2015, 08:52:49 AM
So, I've always seen myself as a bit of a crier. I've wept plenty at various films an d when hearing people recount sad experiences etc. After a few months on hormones I hadn't really noticed much change. Not until yesterday.
We were watching a drama series (Olive Kitteridge) which was fairly saddish and which did press a few emotional buttons. So,,I did a bit of weeping as usual. But then at the end I was talking to my partner, who saw I had been crying and asked what had caused it. At which point I stopped weeping and went into full blown crying and howling - an unstoppable need to "let it all out" as I grabbed my partner and bawled into her chest. It was still pretty loud though. I managed to get a few words out between sobs and howls, but actions definitely spoke loudest.
It was quite a revelation. Although I was still a bit er, slightly embarrassed (.was that really me just then??) I definitely felt much better, and much lighter as a result.
Anyone else had similar or different feelings after HRT.....or just generally?
We were watching a drama series (Olive Kitteridge) which was fairly saddish and which did press a few emotional buttons. So,,I did a bit of weeping as usual. But then at the end I was talking to my partner, who saw I had been crying and asked what had caused it. At which point I stopped weeping and went into full blown crying and howling - an unstoppable need to "let it all out" as I grabbed my partner and bawled into her chest. It was still pretty loud though. I managed to get a few words out between sobs and howls, but actions definitely spoke loudest.
It was quite a revelation. Although I was still a bit er, slightly embarrassed (.was that really me just then??) I definitely felt much better, and much lighter as a result.
Anyone else had similar or different feelings after HRT.....or just generally?
Title: Re: Not so much crying as bawling!
Post by: Cindy on August 02, 2015, 09:16:18 AM
Post by: Cindy on August 02, 2015, 09:16:18 AM
I've alawys thought the first step to take on going on HRT is to buy shares in Kleenex! We sure seem to use them!
I love a good cry!
I love a good cry!
Title: Re: Not so much crying as bawling!
Post by: MugwortPsychonaut on August 02, 2015, 11:36:32 AM
Post by: MugwortPsychonaut on August 02, 2015, 11:36:32 AM
Yes! And thank Gonz for it! With all the stuff most of us have to deal with, it really comes in handy.
:'( :)
:'( :)
Title: Re: Not so much crying as bawling!
Post by: stephaniec on August 02, 2015, 12:31:01 PM
Post by: stephaniec on August 02, 2015, 12:31:01 PM
for me crying is way better than Visine
Title: Re: Not so much crying as bawling!
Post by: Ms Grace on August 02, 2015, 01:10:44 PM
Post by: Ms Grace on August 02, 2015, 01:10:44 PM
Yup. Let the waters flow!
Title: Re: Not so much crying as bawling!
Post by: Cindy Stephens on August 02, 2015, 01:36:15 PM
Post by: Cindy Stephens on August 02, 2015, 01:36:15 PM
Unfortunately, my father was an ex-marine who thought emotions were only for, in his words, ->-bleeped-<--ots and women. We were raised with no emotional vocabulary. Crying was especially verboten. It is very difficult to overcome the type of hyper male terrorism that I (and many others of my generation) experienced. I believe the quality of my life has been lessened because of it.
Title: Re: Not so much crying as bawling!
Post by: rosinstraya on August 02, 2015, 04:01:32 PM
Post by: rosinstraya on August 02, 2015, 04:01:32 PM
Quote from: Cindy Stephens on August 02, 2015, 01:36:15 PMx
Unfortunately, my father was an ex-marine who thought emotions were only for, in his words, ->-bleeped-<--ots and women. We were raised with no emotional vocabulary. Crying was especially verboten. It is very difficult to overcome the type of hyper male terrorism that I (and many others of my generation) experienced. I believe the quality of my life has been lessened because of it.
Funny that, I received regular advice in my late teens from my father as to what he was doing at my age (he was in the Second World War)....his emotional vocabulary was very limited, and yes, it didn't help me a great deal.
Title: Re: Not so much crying as bawling!
Post by: Mariah on August 02, 2015, 04:14:55 PM
Post by: Mariah on August 02, 2015, 04:14:55 PM
As a young child I cried a good amount, but then it's like it stopped and the result was little or no emtions for a long time, but after HRT and different experiences during my transition and I have found that sometime I don't even know myself as to why tears come. It's so much better letting them flow though than not. Hugs
Mariah
Mariah