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Went out in a dress was terrified all I could think was how can I do this shouldn't have been so hard in the middle of davie but all I could feel was what about tomorrow and the next day my life is on hold trying to start transition everything feels broken worsee e

Quote from: jessica32 on August 04, 2015, 01:32:36 PM
Went out in a dress was terrified all I could think was how can I do this shouldn't have been so hard in the middle of davie but all I could feel was what about tomorrow and the next day my life is on hold trying to start transition everything feels broken worsee e

Don't worry about tomorrow it will be full of its own joys and trials, today is always hard enough to deal with. Did you enjoy the experience at all? Doesn't sound like you had much fun? Is this your first time in public? My first time I was terrified but for me it got easier each time I went out. I was still full of apprehension but the thinking about it was always way worse than the doing.  I have not been out dressed in such a long time (its complicated) although I do suspect that is going to change. I hope you give it another go, maybe try going out at night if even for a quick walk.

Sarah T                                     

It wasnt fun but afterwards I felt good and broken strangest feelings to try and understand hope and sadness with everything trembling first time ever in a dress outside first

First time I did that, I could hardly open the apartment door. After a few hundred times, I had no more on my mind that if I don't hurry up I am going to be late for work. The next time it will be easer. You got over the hard part, went out that door and nothing bad happened to you.

Quote from: jessica32 on August 04, 2015, 04:01:35 PM
It wasnt fun but afterwards I felt good and broken strangest feelings to try and understand hope and sadness with everything trembling first time ever in a dress outside first

I get the " I felt good and broken strangest feelings " it is weird isn't it. For me it felt a bit like I had broken something that "I shouldn't have" kind of like when you were a kid and you broke something precious of your father or mothers, even though you didn't mean to you broke it anyway"

But apart from all that negative stuff was there anything good you felt?

I felt positively like I'm girl for the fist time in a long time the monologue inside changed a bit hard to describe but saying I'm a guy feels less true I have been telling myself that for so long trying to make it true breaking it off and trying to say I am ok with being a girl hurt something changed my view on what I am looking for passing is nice in theory but I think it isn't what random ppl think only a few friends and my daughter say that idea always felt like a lie now it seems much too real risk how to tell them even though most of them kinda know cuz she slips out everywhere till I drip girl movements and speech patterns eye movement even my hair style but saying it out loud I can't do irk why I am so afraid