Susan's Place Transgender Resources

Been on this site before but underwent a bad denial faze and tryed to tell myself (again) I don't wan to be a girl, but ofcourse it came back with a vengeance even worse then before (again). Ugggh, im just turned 21, been dealing with this for to long, poped up a few times as a kid and became a monster at 17, for the longest time iv felt like i was battling a terrible curse i could not stop, pretty much ruined my teen life with depression anxiety and way to much drugs. Has taken alot to accept this fully, i know for sure what i want even tho it still feels wrong to me, but im just simply terrified tbh and dont have much support. Only people who know are my mom and gf, tho they csnt offer much support, has led to alot of problems with the gf lately even tho shes accepted it before. One of my main problems is i absolutely can not fathom having to tell my father and friends, the thought fills me with dread. Seeing as i know how they will they will take it and i will lise them, and thats a big deal seeing as i dont have many close people in my life. Another big problem is therapy, getting the right therapist and being able to afford it, im poor and the state i live in doesnt have many options for us. Iv been wanting to start some sort of progres towards hrt but it feels so out of reach, and i dont know how long i can stand this anymore, im not suicidal, but its always felt like its the only way out and only way it will end :/ and if i could get on hrt there is the problem of infertility which is a big issue. Just meh, im at my wits end with this stuff, cant even get out of bed anymore. But whatever, not trying to pity party myself, just needed a rant. But im hoping to be able to fit in here because the place seems nice. Thanks for reading my long rambling i guess lol, ta ta

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Lord our lives are hard, and you are going through a mill.

I think the one thought I kept true to me; was that I am me. There is nothing wrong with me, I'm a woman, somehow, and for some reason, it all went wrong when I was born.

So I lived in this horrible twilight world called being transgender.

How do we deal with it?

Storm, we deal with it by being proud - there is nothing wrong with you.

You are 21, a lovely girl.

Yes you will have a fight, but your sisters are her to help.

Cindy

Hello and welcome  :)

Here are a few resources that might help:
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,194986.msg1737439.html#msg1737439

and here:
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,195129.msg1740788.html#msg1740788

and here:
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,195129.msg1740788.html#msg1740788

Well some people come out in a letter... or via text...

Concerning therapists there might be a way... it might be possible to ask at plannedparenthood or at a lgbt center...
or you might say at home you want counseling, for emotional reasons.. and pick someone who has, amongst others, gender on their list...
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,162888.msg1400316.html#msg1400316


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Hi  :icon_wave:

Welcome back to Susan's  :)  Glad to have you here again, join on in the fun

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V M

Thanks for the replys  :) surprising what a few words from strangers can do. And I never thought of an lgbt center or planed parenthood, thought the later was only about birth control lo . But I will need to look into those.

Welcome back to the forum. Hope you find some answers and connections that help! :D

Warm welcome (back) to Susan's "stormcloud"

You'll fit in well xxx
Please don't let things get to you too much, we have the power to make and create change as well as adapt to many scenarios... Sorry that things are hiccoughing slightly with your GF but I wish you well there, and on the journey ahead of you.

I really look forward to seeing you about the forums.

L Katy  :-*