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Today, I walk pass by an unnoticeable make-up store in between two restaurants, and there in her full glory was the icon of my childhood standing behind the glass window. Sailor Moon, a full 6-ft stand-up poster. I kind of think of her as a mystic character, since no one ever talks about her, and I could only remember two times her name came up in my life. The last time when she was brought up, someone told me I had the crescent moon on my face, so that made my day. But back to the store, seeing her as if she was popular, was kind of a cool feeling. The make-up store was selling her merchandise, and I might go back and buy the whole lot.  I just have to research if the merchandise is legit stuff to buy though.

The reason why I consider her the first sign is because I remember thinking of her as me, and dressing up like her (or Sailor Mars) when I was 5 years old.

Anyways, I was wondering what are your earliest sign of being transgender?

Quote from: Wild Flower on September 26, 2015, 04:13:24 AM
Anyways, I was wondering what are your earliest sign of being transgender?

Mind you, I didn't consider I might be trans until into my 50s, so everything now is looking back and seeing things that might have had something to do with being trans.

When I was in preschool, I made two friends, both of which were girls. When I was 7, my best friend was a girl. Maybe something back then in my brain was telling me I belonged with girls?

4 or 5 didn't understand , but that's when it showed it self.

During my earliest years, 2-3, I was never as aggressive as the other boys and I played with all the toys, balls, cars and dolls. I was not trying to be anything other than myself. I did not know any better.

Getting upset when my mother would "correct" people that thought that I was a girl. I was 3 years old.

The earliest sign that wasn't really ambiguous was being up was growing facial/body hair. I had female friends and was quieter/less aggressive than most boys too.

Loaded question for me. Very young, I mothered those who were younger than me, hated boy play, tended to be well behaved and was careful about my appearance but yet I didn't understand my transsexualism. The truth hit me like a ton of bricks when I was age 13 and puberty was hitting pretty hard. I to some degree have acted feminine almost all my life but I was a bit slow to understand it. Making the connection between the two didn't happen until long after I completed my transition and that was what made it hard to decide on transitioning. I thought there was no history before age 13 and that was the case, I might be dealing with something sexual that would make transitioning a very bad idea. I transitioned because I saw no options to become happy if I remained a male and that was the right decision.

I was about 6 and I saw a woman with hair all the way down her back and near to her bum. I was incredibly impressed and just totally mesmerised. I then kept daydreaming and fantasising about being able to go to the hairdressers as a boy and come out as a beautiful woman with a dress and long flowing hair. Still fantasise about it to this day :)

I also didn't have any male friends until the age of about 5 and even then I would even hug them when I greeted them like some girls do now. It took me until the age of about 9 to stop that because someone asked me if I was gay. -.-

I  also transition in my early 50s but remember being 6 and was wanting to girls stuff more. I started at 8 wearing my sisters clothes and through life hid till I retired due to a disability. Met the love of my life her support got me to our lesbian marriage and life forever.

With love, caring and understanding, Melissa Marie

Quote from: stephaniec on September 26, 2015, 05:10:41 AM
4 or 5 didn't understand , but that's when it showed it self.

Same here and then mom set me "right" and said I was a boy but never felt it inside so I buried her or so I thought at the time.

Sounds odd but when I was little I always spoke about being a grandfather rather than a grandma, and would say things like "when I grow a beard" or "when I'm a big boy" referring to my future. Everyone brushed it off, though.


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Sorry, on mobile and didn't realise that this was in the mtf forum!


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Not fitting in.... not fitting in..... not fitting in.... and not knowing why..... *sigh*......

Life was great until I started 1st grade and the not fitting in started - and the hell began.

It took me until my mid-40s to began to figure out why I didn't fit in.

Quote from: soaringPhoenix on September 28, 2015, 11:21:09 PM
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No biggie.  I think the topic extends past mtf/ftm lines anyway.

For me, the earliest distinctive thing I can recall is that my dad brought home a stuffed rabbit from a claw machine when I was around 4 or 5.  I immediately projected myself unto her.  Her name was Carrot Rabbit (creative, I know) and she was a totally badass sorceress.  I really loved doing her voice. :)

There was probably stuff before that, but the details of my early childhood are too muddy to recall in any definite timeline.

I was kind of weird in  that I always thought I was a girl, right from earliest childhood, and would correct people who referred to me otherwise. From the beginning I was ashamed of my body (according to my parent) but it wasn't until I was 8 that I realized there was a problem and that I wasn't "a normal girl".

In terms of earliest sign, I remember in kindergarten we made a book about the class where we paired off, described the other student and drew a picture of them. The girl I teamed up with wrote "[boy name] likes to play with girls and boys," and the picture she drew of me looked like a girl. I too had a lot of trouble fitting in.

The first time I started having trans thoughts was the summer before 5th grade, and it was instigated by a marker commercial. They had markers where you could draw on top of each other and only the top color would show. The dialogue was a boy and girl talking and it went like:
"I can draw over this building and make it a rocket,"
"I can draw over this car and make it a boat."
Then they show a stick figure and the girl says:
"I can draw over you and make you a..."
Some hair and a skirt are drawn on the stick figure and the boy says,
"A girl. No way!"

My mind just clicked and I was just enamored with being changed into a girl.

Sailor Mercury and Sailor Saturn were my girls! I still have a vintage silk screened walk scroll of Sailor Saturn from around 1998. :-)

For me it was 6 or 7 years old when I wanted to be physically female.  It's odd but the other aspects about being female were interesting but not anywhere nearly as important.
From there it was a constant pressure until I started transitioning a few years ago. 

My interactions with other kids in Kindergarten. Knew for sure at age 7. :)