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Title: Hey Everybody!
Post by: Chrissy1979 on November 20, 2015, 01:28:51 AM
Post by: Chrissy1979 on November 20, 2015, 01:28:51 AM
Hi I'm Chrissy!
I was born a boy but have been having a lot of thoughts lately of becoming a female....
I have been crossdressing for as long as I can remember, mainly with pantyhose as a child and then into fully dressing up for the past five years (I'm now 36). I have always kept it a closely guarded secret and it has weighed heavily on my mind, and on my soul. If I am truly honest with myself (which is something I haven't been very good at until recently) then I have no doubt that it played a big part in my relationships failing. I come across as quite unemotional, but can be grumpy during serious conversations (mainly ones regarding emotions as they make me feel quite uncomfortable) . I hope to find my positive energy and grow that because I know it lurks within!
I have always acted outwardly quite macho and aside from the crossdressing I've never opened my mind and explored my female side, but this is something I fully intend to do and had my first session with a gender specialist psych this week. I can't wait for my next in a weeks time...
Anyways, the weight of all these secrets and lies have broken the dam and I recently spilled to my partner. She has been really quite supportive, but there has been some tough times along with more questions than I have answers for right now, but we're working thru this together. It feels so great to have these lies and secrets off my mind even though I have been betraying my partner. Overall it was so the right thing to fess up to.
Although I have concerns about one day coming out (at minimum as a crossdresser) those fears lessen as I grow stronger to discover the real me (in whatever form that may be!) and that need to find myself drowns out the worries. This is a path I must go down and although a bit scary it's the most excited and alive I've felt in so long!
I am very grateful for this site and to you all for playing a part in helping me on my newly discovered journey. I feel I take strength from your words of wisdom and in time I hope to help others in some small way as I grow into this new phase of my life finding out who Chrissy is :)
I was born a boy but have been having a lot of thoughts lately of becoming a female....
I have been crossdressing for as long as I can remember, mainly with pantyhose as a child and then into fully dressing up for the past five years (I'm now 36). I have always kept it a closely guarded secret and it has weighed heavily on my mind, and on my soul. If I am truly honest with myself (which is something I haven't been very good at until recently) then I have no doubt that it played a big part in my relationships failing. I come across as quite unemotional, but can be grumpy during serious conversations (mainly ones regarding emotions as they make me feel quite uncomfortable) . I hope to find my positive energy and grow that because I know it lurks within!
I have always acted outwardly quite macho and aside from the crossdressing I've never opened my mind and explored my female side, but this is something I fully intend to do and had my first session with a gender specialist psych this week. I can't wait for my next in a weeks time...
Anyways, the weight of all these secrets and lies have broken the dam and I recently spilled to my partner. She has been really quite supportive, but there has been some tough times along with more questions than I have answers for right now, but we're working thru this together. It feels so great to have these lies and secrets off my mind even though I have been betraying my partner. Overall it was so the right thing to fess up to.
Although I have concerns about one day coming out (at minimum as a crossdresser) those fears lessen as I grow stronger to discover the real me (in whatever form that may be!) and that need to find myself drowns out the worries. This is a path I must go down and although a bit scary it's the most excited and alive I've felt in so long!
I am very grateful for this site and to you all for playing a part in helping me on my newly discovered journey. I feel I take strength from your words of wisdom and in time I hope to help others in some small way as I grow into this new phase of my life finding out who Chrissy is :)
Title: Re: Hey Everybody!
Post by: Marienz on November 20, 2015, 02:27:06 AM
Post by: Marienz on November 20, 2015, 02:27:06 AM
I love you
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Heterosexual woman
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Heterosexual woman
Title: Re: Hey Everybody!
Post by: V M on November 20, 2015, 06:50:02 AM
Post by: V M on November 20, 2015, 06:50:02 AM
Hi Chrissy :icon_wave:
Welcome to Susan's :) Glad to have you here, join on in the fun
Here's a few quick links to help you along
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Hugs
V M
Welcome to Susan's :) Glad to have you here, join on in the fun
Here's a few quick links to help you along
Please be sure to review
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Hugs
V M
Title: Re: Hey Everybody!
Post by: Sarah82 on November 20, 2015, 07:12:17 AM
Post by: Sarah82 on November 20, 2015, 07:12:17 AM
Hi Chrissy and SO Hetero Woman (That so sounds like a non PC super hero :P ) and welcome to Susan's.
Chrissy I totally get where you are coming from, I'm 32 and started my transition a few months ago, I found that the pressure of pretending to be something I wasn't was too great, I felt like I was constantly lying to everyone including myself. I feel so much better now, things aren't perfect but I am me now.
It is great that your SO/Super Hero is so supportive and willing to help you and her understand your situation.
Best of luck with your transition.
Hugs,
Sarah
Chrissy I totally get where you are coming from, I'm 32 and started my transition a few months ago, I found that the pressure of pretending to be something I wasn't was too great, I felt like I was constantly lying to everyone including myself. I feel so much better now, things aren't perfect but I am me now.
It is great that your SO/Super Hero is so supportive and willing to help you and her understand your situation.
Best of luck with your transition.
Hugs,
Sarah
Title: Re: Hey Everybody!
Post by: LunaStar on November 20, 2015, 11:43:50 AM
Post by: LunaStar on November 20, 2015, 11:43:50 AM
welcome :)
Title: Re: Hey Everybody!
Post by: gennee on November 21, 2015, 07:59:03 PM
Post by: gennee on November 21, 2015, 07:59:03 PM
Hello and welcome to Susan's.
:)
:)
Title: Re: Hey Everybody!
Post by: Anna33 on November 21, 2015, 09:44:39 PM
Post by: Anna33 on November 21, 2015, 09:44:39 PM
Welcome Chrissy! :) It's a wonderful journey.
I am married too and it took us some mutual adjusting but I couldn't be where I'm at if my partner weren't here for me.
I'm loving every minute of my brand new life and I hope you and your partner will too! good times ahead <3
big hugs x
Clara.
I am married too and it took us some mutual adjusting but I couldn't be where I'm at if my partner weren't here for me.
I'm loving every minute of my brand new life and I hope you and your partner will too! good times ahead <3
big hugs x
Clara.