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Title: Where to?
Post by: whereto on November 29, 2015, 12:25:00 PM
Post by: whereto on November 29, 2015, 12:25:00 PM
hi, this is going to be lengthy and English is not my first language :x bear with me.
i'll go by Gio. i just turned 27 in the wasted weekend ever a few weeks ago. i was born biologically a female and always feel odd my entire life. it's not easy when you were born and raised in Asia, which is quite conservative and close minded. i don't get access to resources or information about what i am or who i am at the time.
i tried hard to get in an exchange culture program to go to the U.S., it was 6 years ago and totally a game changer. i just feel like i grow up a bit, can be my own person, dress how i want. what makes me comfy is to be in boy clothes. i just thought i was a tomboy, not butch enough, so people usually call me soft butch or baby butch due to my baby face. i feel different, even when i'm in a relationship with a girl, i don't feel like girl-girl. so i identified as a genderqueer since, trying to blind myself i'm not trans. because it feels like suicide if you're a trans living in Asia. it's not safe.
i came back to the States a few times as my previous company really appreciated my enthusiasm and helpful attitude. they kept sending papers to invite me back. they were in a different area so i couldn't apply for my internship. the last time i was back for an internship, i got a new company, they screwed me over :[ they did a lot of avoiding taxes and all the bad stuff. i guess a friend of me and i figured that out. we are both interns at the moment. they cut our paperworks and tried to deport us like asap to cover our mouths.
i got myself back together after that incident, and a few more incidents that almost took my life away from me. i just think God saved me a few times by now, i just have to keep fighting and be honest with myself.
so i came out to my parents over the phone 8000 miles away that i'm a trans (FTM) and i'll go through a full transition sooner or later. it was the hardest thing to do but it felt right to let others know. i felt relief they accepted and supported me along with my friends.
this is like the second forums i joined in my entire life. lol :x the first one i remembered i google girl has feeling for girl (my English was so bad at the time. lol). i ended up on a bisexual forum. lol. at the time i knew i was a lesbian, and thank goodness the site has tons of information over the years and a safe place for others to share the feelings and have someone to talk to.
now that i know what i am. i'd want to share a part of me and make new friends too ^^' that's why i'm here. i've been told i'm an honest and nice person. so hit me up :DD
still not sure where life would take me, hence the username. but right now i'm happier when i start to go to therapy. hopefully i'll start T somewhere next year and who knows.
i'll go by Gio. i just turned 27 in the wasted weekend ever a few weeks ago. i was born biologically a female and always feel odd my entire life. it's not easy when you were born and raised in Asia, which is quite conservative and close minded. i don't get access to resources or information about what i am or who i am at the time.
i tried hard to get in an exchange culture program to go to the U.S., it was 6 years ago and totally a game changer. i just feel like i grow up a bit, can be my own person, dress how i want. what makes me comfy is to be in boy clothes. i just thought i was a tomboy, not butch enough, so people usually call me soft butch or baby butch due to my baby face. i feel different, even when i'm in a relationship with a girl, i don't feel like girl-girl. so i identified as a genderqueer since, trying to blind myself i'm not trans. because it feels like suicide if you're a trans living in Asia. it's not safe.
i came back to the States a few times as my previous company really appreciated my enthusiasm and helpful attitude. they kept sending papers to invite me back. they were in a different area so i couldn't apply for my internship. the last time i was back for an internship, i got a new company, they screwed me over :[ they did a lot of avoiding taxes and all the bad stuff. i guess a friend of me and i figured that out. we are both interns at the moment. they cut our paperworks and tried to deport us like asap to cover our mouths.
i got myself back together after that incident, and a few more incidents that almost took my life away from me. i just think God saved me a few times by now, i just have to keep fighting and be honest with myself.
so i came out to my parents over the phone 8000 miles away that i'm a trans (FTM) and i'll go through a full transition sooner or later. it was the hardest thing to do but it felt right to let others know. i felt relief they accepted and supported me along with my friends.
this is like the second forums i joined in my entire life. lol :x the first one i remembered i google girl has feeling for girl (my English was so bad at the time. lol). i ended up on a bisexual forum. lol. at the time i knew i was a lesbian, and thank goodness the site has tons of information over the years and a safe place for others to share the feelings and have someone to talk to.
now that i know what i am. i'd want to share a part of me and make new friends too ^^' that's why i'm here. i've been told i'm an honest and nice person. so hit me up :DD
still not sure where life would take me, hence the username. but right now i'm happier when i start to go to therapy. hopefully i'll start T somewhere next year and who knows.
Title: Re: Where to?
Post by: gennee on November 29, 2015, 03:47:59 PM
Post by: gennee on November 29, 2015, 03:47:59 PM
A hearty welcome to Susan's, Gio. Receiving acceptance from the people you know is a big plus. The journey is a long one and unique to each person. How far you go is up to you. Embrace all the positive experiences you have.
:)
:)
Title: Re: Where to?
Post by: V M on November 30, 2015, 12:18:06 AM
Post by: V M on November 30, 2015, 12:18:06 AM
Hi Gio :icon_wave:
Welcome to Susan's :) Glad to have you here, join on in the fun
Here's a few quick links to help you along
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Hugs
V M
Welcome to Susan's :) Glad to have you here, join on in the fun
Here's a few quick links to help you along
Please be sure to review
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V M
Title: Re: Where to?
Post by: whereto on November 30, 2015, 03:46:59 AM
Post by: whereto on November 30, 2015, 03:46:59 AM
thank you for all the warm welcomes gennee, and V M :DD i'm reading the links at the moment over some late night food. lol
Title: Re: Where to?
Post by: katrinaw on November 30, 2015, 05:13:37 AM
Post by: katrinaw on November 30, 2015, 05:13:37 AM
Warm welcome to Susan's Gio xxxx
Happy birthday for a few weeks ago, so you do remember it being wasted then? hmm more than many I suspect ;)
Looks like you had a few tribulations work/internship wise... good luck with the future xx
Glad you found us and look forward to seeing you about the forums
L Katy :-*
Happy birthday for a few weeks ago, so you do remember it being wasted then? hmm more than many I suspect ;)
Looks like you had a few tribulations work/internship wise... good luck with the future xx
Glad you found us and look forward to seeing you about the forums
L Katy :-*
Title: Re: Where to?
Post by: whereto on December 03, 2015, 10:48:05 AM
Post by: whereto on December 03, 2015, 10:48:05 AM
Quote from: katrinaw on November 30, 2015, 05:13:37 AMthank you Katy ^^
Warm welcome to Susan's Gio xxxx
Happy birthday for a few weeks ago, so you do remember it being wasted then? hmm more than many I suspect ;)
Looks like you had a few tribulations work/internship wise... good luck with the future xx
Glad you found us and look forward to seeing you about the forums
L Katy :-*
yes, i remembered. lol. we went to Terlingua, Texas, which has the chili cook off event once a year.
there are lots of people from close by states and we all just camp and drink for 4 consecutive days. i wasn't even drunk during the whole event, but the moment i hit home, i got all the signs of being drunk. lol. i was kinda miserable. it was totally a delay effect :O