Community Conversation => Transsexual talk => Male to female transsexual talk (MTF) => Topic started by: Wild Flower on February 15, 2016, 01:45:13 AM Return to Full Version
Title: The World
Post by: Wild Flower on February 15, 2016, 01:45:13 AM
Post by: Wild Flower on February 15, 2016, 01:45:13 AM
I am having a miserable time with my family. Today my mother ask personal questions knowingly I do not like to answer those type of questions. Are you happy? Are you lonely? No friends. Weird. Re-hashing old stuff in my life about a particular time she tried to track me done when I was 19. By bringing that up, she implied I was gay. In front of my grandma.
I seriously can't do this. And I was into a straight club and wasted 5 hours of my life feeling like crap, I hate clubs to begin with, but seeing all these beautiful women living the life I want. I cannot deal, so I walk to the smoke pit, waiting until I go home and pretend I had a good night lol.
And really just visit to see my grandma. I feel very miserable at the moment. And then she ask me questions about my finances... It sucks . i wont fight her or argue her about this or else it will make me look more guilty and ashame of my existence. I just want a simple peaceful lkfe.
I seriously can't do this. And I was into a straight club and wasted 5 hours of my life feeling like crap, I hate clubs to begin with, but seeing all these beautiful women living the life I want. I cannot deal, so I walk to the smoke pit, waiting until I go home and pretend I had a good night lol.
And really just visit to see my grandma. I feel very miserable at the moment. And then she ask me questions about my finances... It sucks . i wont fight her or argue her about this or else it will make me look more guilty and ashame of my existence. I just want a simple peaceful lkfe.
Title: Re: The World
Post by: Cindy on February 15, 2016, 02:01:20 AM
Post by: Cindy on February 15, 2016, 02:01:20 AM
Honey,
You are an adult.
You can choose your life, no one is responsible for you except you.
We make decisions and yes they are hard. I left home at 17 because my parents loved me but couldn't deal with her. Peter was their only son. They didn't want Cindy as a daughter.
I was Cindy and not Peter.
You need to make your mind up and stop relying on others.
You need money? Work.
I worked in bars, burger places, caravan parks cleaning toilets.
You can do that. I put myself through University. I worked.
When the rage and need for survival become dominant we can do anything.
Don't give up Hon. You can do this.
You are an adult.
You can choose your life, no one is responsible for you except you.
We make decisions and yes they are hard. I left home at 17 because my parents loved me but couldn't deal with her. Peter was their only son. They didn't want Cindy as a daughter.
I was Cindy and not Peter.
You need to make your mind up and stop relying on others.
You need money? Work.
I worked in bars, burger places, caravan parks cleaning toilets.
You can do that. I put myself through University. I worked.
When the rage and need for survival become dominant we can do anything.
Don't give up Hon. You can do this.
Title: Re: The World
Post by: stephaniec on February 15, 2016, 02:04:52 AM
Post by: stephaniec on February 15, 2016, 02:04:52 AM
it's your life no one else's
Title: Re: The World
Post by: Mariah on February 15, 2016, 03:36:11 AM
Post by: Mariah on February 15, 2016, 03:36:11 AM
Wild Flower I know it can be frustrating as those events go on, but like Cindy I reach a point where I just couldn't put up with that anymore and removed those things and people from my life that caused me to leave them behind. As a result, I was able to eventually transition and I'm much happier for it. The key is Wild Flower is that sometimes we really have to look after ourselves before others. Hugs
Mariah
Mariah