Susan's Place Transgender Resources

Hello my name is (as it should be but sadly male still outside in public) Kaia. I'm a unique case in the since not only am I going through transition from "MtF" (physically) but I was lucky/cursed to of been born with both. It has been a rather stressful, and long road to make, and just as equal the choice to make one more dominate. I have always been more physical (other then what is in places that people do not normally see) male sadly, however my body has always had it's own way about doing things emotionally, mentally, and even in other cases female. I have never been to active in support groups as I've always had the struggle of fighting this unique battle alone, and have gotten used to it as second nature. However with changes in ones self, they come to realize that the past is just that, and to be born anew, and to bring your true nature into light that you must change along with it.

I have lived a "lie" my entire life, to please society to bring piece of mind to those around me, however never conforming to what they may think or feel of me. I've always put others first, happiness for me has always been second if at ever. As with most anyone who has made any life changing choices/decisions they understand that there comes a point to where self happiness is a must before putting others overwhelms you. I myself had reached that point to where it had consumed me, and took a step back in my life and realized who I've been, and what I've done has always been for others, and never for me. That has recently changed I and have become a great deal happier.

I can not say I'm Pre/Post or much right now I'm "technically" pre-op and pre full HRT even tho I have had to take hormones to balance out my problem with them, just adjusted small doses of both T and E.

I am Female, and have always been. However living outside of myself and having the majority of my body being male dominate genes/physical appearance it's been hard being me while trying to make others happy.

I will enjoy talking/learning and even lending my words in on where I can to help others. =)

PS: As far as my transition right now I am in the process of getting my body fixed, and working on fixing what I have neglected my entire life to be able to start a full HRT and MtF physical change.

PSS: I am a open person, and love to chat/talk and most of all learn. Questions and inquisitive minds are always welcome as there is no such thing as a bad question, learning has no limits on views or directions. =)

Welcome to Susan's Place. It's not entirely clear from your post but it sounds like you are intersex. If so, we have a section where you can share your special needs with others like you. I know of several others who are currently on the site and there may be more as I haven't been watching very hard.

You are welcome in any part of the site you feel comfortable in. I was a simple MTF many years go but I find myself posting in almost every section of the site at one time or another. If there is anything I can help you with, let me know by posting in this thread.

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I am sorry for being unclear, I have always had a problem explaining/speaking through text at times. =) I was born with a type of a Hermaphrodite physical problem. To help clear that, I sometimes forget to add such things as normally I speak it out loud to myself and think I type it instead of actually typing it. Lol

It's not a problem. Often people come here before discussing their problem with anybody else so one needs to read between the lines often. When that happens, I hedge my bets in my posts because I don't wish to offend anybody who is new to the site and may still fear coming out to a bunch of strangers.

Now I know for sure, I will flag this post to somebody who is much like you are and she should be around to introduce herself latter on today.

Hi Kaia, welcome to Susan's. Your story sounds much like mine was about 3 years ago. Like you I had always put others before my self and even worked through most of my issues before going to therapy on my own. I was born physically intersexed yet have male chromosomes. This resulted in their perceived need for several surgeries to try and normalize me. I know the battle and struggle your going through because I have been there myself and as a result I buried myself in helping others instead of facing it all those years even though knowing what I needed to do. Please heal from whatever else your dealing with. It is so important to be for HRT and any surgery you maybe interested in. Your not alone going through this. I'm close to the end of my journey to make myself completely whole and I wish you the best of luck with yours. Please feel free to reach out. Know that I and others have been down this road. I look forward to seeing you around the forums. Good luck and Hugs
Mariah

Hi Kaia  :icon_wave:

Welcome to Susan's  :)  Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

Hugs

V M

Hi, Kaia,

You've found a good place here: Lots of great people and lots of great information.

Enjoy your journey!

-- Sue

Welcome to Susan's! Where everyone's accepted and what your parts are don't matter :)

You said you wanted to learn, well you've come to the right place. The resources and links here are fantastic.