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Title: I surrender...
Post by: TechGirl on May 08, 2016, 04:43:15 PM
Post by: TechGirl on May 08, 2016, 04:43:15 PM
Ok, I surrender. I have fought this transgender thing for the past six months. I have tried to work with my wife, dressing part time. I have tried accepting that at work I have no chance of being anything by amab.
Enough!
Wife and I had a long talk. I have a few other issue to work out with my therapist that may or may not be a result of my Disphoria, who knows. But I'm done pretending, masquerading as something I am not.
Today I dressed in women's workout clothes with breast forms and a little concealer (for the beard shadow) and mowed my lawn. It's not small, no fences, and we have 8 houses we can see from our deck. I also went to the recycle center dressed.
And I'm beginning to stop hiding on my deck and in my front porch while dressed with breast forms.
I don't know what my immediate future holds for me, as the navy hasn't allowed exceptions to policy yet, but I know DOD policy changes are coming.
But I'm done hiding. The neighborhood, those who actually look around them, are going to know something is up. And now I just have to work up the courage to talk to my navy chain of command.
I surrender. I am girl :-)
Enough!
Wife and I had a long talk. I have a few other issue to work out with my therapist that may or may not be a result of my Disphoria, who knows. But I'm done pretending, masquerading as something I am not.
Today I dressed in women's workout clothes with breast forms and a little concealer (for the beard shadow) and mowed my lawn. It's not small, no fences, and we have 8 houses we can see from our deck. I also went to the recycle center dressed.
And I'm beginning to stop hiding on my deck and in my front porch while dressed with breast forms.
I don't know what my immediate future holds for me, as the navy hasn't allowed exceptions to policy yet, but I know DOD policy changes are coming.
But I'm done hiding. The neighborhood, those who actually look around them, are going to know something is up. And now I just have to work up the courage to talk to my navy chain of command.
I surrender. I am girl :-)
Title: Re: I surrender...
Post by: CrazyCatMan on May 08, 2016, 04:46:15 PM
Post by: CrazyCatMan on May 08, 2016, 04:46:15 PM
Congrats and good luck. ;D We are all rooting for you (love your avatar by the way)
Title: I surrender...
Post by: TechGirl on May 08, 2016, 04:47:38 PM
Post by: TechGirl on May 08, 2016, 04:47:38 PM
Oh yes, as part of my resolve to accept my new self, I am no longer hiding behind my minion maid avatar.
Hello world!
Hello world!
Title: Re: I surrender...
Post by: CrazyCatMan on May 08, 2016, 04:50:03 PM
Post by: CrazyCatMan on May 08, 2016, 04:50:03 PM
Quote from: TechGirl on May 08, 2016, 04:47:38 PM
Oh yes, as part of my resolve to accept my new self, I am no longer hiding behind my minion maid avatar.
Hello world!
Good to see the real you!! love this avatar too. :D
Title: Re: I surrender...
Post by: Dena on May 08, 2016, 05:09:12 PM
Post by: Dena on May 08, 2016, 05:09:12 PM
Congratulations on coming out. I have known what you looked like when you posted the night out picture but I don't think you will have much trouble passing as a female from either picture. A little hair and makeup work wonders on you.
Title: Re: I surrender...
Post by: TechGirl on May 08, 2016, 08:07:19 PM
Post by: TechGirl on May 08, 2016, 08:07:19 PM
Quote from: Dena on May 08, 2016, 05:09:12 PMThank you [emoji5]
Congratulations on coming out. I have known what you looked like when you posted the night out picture but I don't think you will have much trouble passing as a female from either picture. A little hair and makeup work wonders on you.
Title: Re: I surrender...
Post by: TechGirl on May 08, 2016, 08:15:38 PM
Post by: TechGirl on May 08, 2016, 08:15:38 PM
Went for a walk tonight with the family. Just a short half mile, but it was a half hour before sunset. In other words, still daylight.
Was wearing boot cut Jeans, Grey thin scooped neck shirt, and a padded bra with small forms. No makeup, no wig.
We encountered one Walker who enjoyed watching my son walk (just over 1 year old) and another neighbor in his yard.
It was exhilarating!
Was wearing boot cut Jeans, Grey thin scooped neck shirt, and a padded bra with small forms. No makeup, no wig.
We encountered one Walker who enjoyed watching my son walk (just over 1 year old) and another neighbor in his yard.
It was exhilarating!
Title: Re: I surrender...
Post by: sparrow on May 08, 2016, 08:40:34 PM
Post by: sparrow on May 08, 2016, 08:40:34 PM
Congratulations, and best of luck with the Navy. You look great, by the way!