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Title: Continued healing on hormones
Post by: Rebecca on May 29, 2016, 06:22:35 PM
Post by: Rebecca on May 29, 2016, 06:22:35 PM
My body is still healing beyond what I considered possible. Thought everything had been restored and that was it in a totally miraculous but done way. There's more coming and I have no idea how much more.
Emotions and physical sensitivity continue to increase. It's slower than the "Let there be light! " when things were turned back on but definitely growing. Noticed a jump in sensitivity yesterday when electrolysis was getting close to being sore.
My reminder of "pain is just an over stimulation of nerve endings" didn't quite cut it and I had to let my mind scream with bright white light for me at times.
Even the pain is good though in so far as an experience of being alive but just hope I can continue to control it.
For the emotional bit the feelings themselves are a lot stronger but also the physiological effects are much more dramatic. When excited or happy crying the electrical sensation throughout my body feels like it should be lit up like a Christmas tree. When thinking about my angel wings when I'm getting tired on the treadmill it feels like I'm about to fly up in an explosion of light and do it.
Good and bad news is that I am more influenced by the emotions of those around me. Great if I'm with happy people it multiplies my own happiness but sucky if near sad / negative people.
Emotions and physical sensitivity continue to increase. It's slower than the "Let there be light! " when things were turned back on but definitely growing. Noticed a jump in sensitivity yesterday when electrolysis was getting close to being sore.
My reminder of "pain is just an over stimulation of nerve endings" didn't quite cut it and I had to let my mind scream with bright white light for me at times.
Even the pain is good though in so far as an experience of being alive but just hope I can continue to control it.
For the emotional bit the feelings themselves are a lot stronger but also the physiological effects are much more dramatic. When excited or happy crying the electrical sensation throughout my body feels like it should be lit up like a Christmas tree. When thinking about my angel wings when I'm getting tired on the treadmill it feels like I'm about to fly up in an explosion of light and do it.
Good and bad news is that I am more influenced by the emotions of those around me. Great if I'm with happy people it multiplies my own happiness but sucky if near sad / negative people.
Title: Re: Continued healing on hormones
Post by: Rachel on May 29, 2016, 06:40:27 PM
Post by: Rachel on May 29, 2016, 06:40:27 PM
Hi,
HRT is an awesome thing. I was at lunch with a bunch of work friends recently. Someone said a joke and I was laughing really hard then started crying. I do not know why but it was embarrassing.
HRT is an awesome thing. I was at lunch with a bunch of work friends recently. Someone said a joke and I was laughing really hard then started crying. I do not know why but it was embarrassing.
Title: Re: Continued healing on hormones
Post by: stephaniec on May 29, 2016, 06:48:01 PM
Post by: stephaniec on May 29, 2016, 06:48:01 PM
estrogen is something I so much wanted when I was 18 and now that I've been on it going on 3 years it's as beautiful as I ever imagined it could be.
Title: Re: Continued healing on hormones
Post by: Ms Grace on May 29, 2016, 07:11:31 PM
Post by: Ms Grace on May 29, 2016, 07:11:31 PM
If you thought all the healing was done at 4 months just give it another 24... :)
Title: Re: Continued healing on hormones
Post by: Rebecca on May 29, 2016, 07:57:43 PM
Post by: Rebecca on May 29, 2016, 07:57:43 PM
Looking forward to every moment. Who knew being alive could be so much fun :)