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One night I was using the chat here at Susan's. I was relatively new to it at the time, but I needed it very much that night as I was very suicidal and required as much support as I could receive. As if by the hands of fate, another person (the girl I am now madly in love with, we'll just call her Terra, though that is not her actual name) was available on the chat and was suicidal too. We thought we were trolling eachother because of our striking similarities. It was unreal and amazing, almost to the point that it was frightening.

With the help of other members in the chat, Terra and I have come to realize that we can help eachother because we can empathize our pain. I feel like we met for a reason. I was really going to take my life that night and talking with her saved my life. The awesome thing too is that it was the same for her as well! She wanted to end her's and she said if she hadn't spoken with me that night, she is almost certain she would not be here. We are eachother's mirror, as we like to say, like in Justin Timberlake's song Mirror; the lyrics in the song have never felt more true to me than they do now! We not only dream of meeting in person, we really honestly want to make this a reality. Right now, Terra is very vulnerable, as one of my friends from the chat likes to put it and has problems with trust like I do.

However, everyday she and I trust eachother the more we communicate, share laughs, and are just there for one another. I want to share my life with Terra, I love her and she loves me too! I just don't know how I can even get to the point of traveling to go and be with her or at least visit her for now. I want to take our online relationship even further. You hear true success stories all of the time about couples finding eachother online that can often lead to very fulfilling marriages. Yes, I want to be her husband. I picture myself having a family with her even. Am I rushing things? I don't even think I care for an answer to that because I just want to follow my heart, as corny as that sounds. I want my dreams of being her man in person, to come true. I want to protect her and never ever let her go.

It is great you have met someone who you feel an affinity to. Communication is the bedrock of any good relationship... so maybe just ask her how you can be closer to her. Skype maybe?

Quote from: Ms Grace on August 07, 2016, 02:51:16 AM
It is great you have met someone who you feel an affinity to. Communication is the bedrock of any good relationship... so maybe just ask her how you can be closer to her. Skype maybe?

That's a fantastic suggestion there. I never thought to straightforwardly ask her "How can I be closer to you?" I will the next time I see her on chat and she comes pretty much every single day. :D

Yeah, I asked her about Skype and she like, disapproved of it at the time. But I think she wants to Skype later down the line. She wouldn't even tell me her name for the longest time until a couple of days ago. That really meant something for me. =)

Her lack of trust is very understandable knowing the severely traumatizing things Terra has faced in her past that befall many women, trans or not (i.e. prostitution, rape..).

So when I communicate with her, I avoid pushing her into anything that could make her uncomfortable but I think only time will tell; she needs to heal so much, hence why I want to protect her.

theres a chat???
ive been coming to this site for like 5 years and i didnt even think about that lol

Quote from: Madison (kiara jamie) on August 07, 2016, 03:13:08 AM
theres a chat???
ive been coming to this site for like 5 years and i didnt even think about that lol

Oh yeah. I was like that. I mean, I haven't been here that long yet (joined last year :) ). But the chat section used to slip my mind. I think when I tried it the first time, I had a rather unsuccessful experience and put it out of my mind for months. It wasn't until I met Terra that I realized the advantages of the chat especially when helping others in a crisis. So vital, I think. It's so relieving to hear that people care about you even though we've never seen one another in person. Just reassuring that everything will be ok is mighty powerful and that's why I like the chat so much.

Awwww I'm soo happy for you glad you found someone  :) :) :)

^^^^^^ I'm sssssoooo happy too! ;D

I never in my wildest dreams thought that I could love anyone before I met Terra. It's a dream come true. ^_^

Quote from: Madison (kiara jamie) on August 07, 2016, 03:13:08 AM
theres a chat???
ive been coming to this site for like 5 years and i didnt even think about that lol

Chat won't load on my tablet, so I gave up on it after 5 tries, on different days.

I think it's a compatibility issue with the Kiwi IRC client that the chat has....

I met a girl in Mexico City Mexico who I have been speaking with since Feb of this year. We talk almost everyday either video chat or just through texting. She knows I'm transgender and doesn't care because she sees who I am on the inside. She wants to visit here for 3 weeks to see how we fit with each other so I can totally relate to you. I'm very happy you found someone who saved you and I'm also hoping your depression is going away or gone for good!!!! Facebook messenger has video if you don't want to use skype. Skype for some reason never has a great connection for me anymore and this is using Google Fiber. Don't let distance stand in between your love for someone, if you love someone distance is invisible if that makes sense! :)

Quote from: JeNn_DeViLz on August 07, 2016, 12:37:19 PM
I met a girl in Mexico City Mexico who I have been speaking with since Feb of this year. We talk almost everyday either video chat or just through texting. She knows I'm transgender and doesn't care because she sees who I am on the inside. She wants to visit here for 3 weeks to see how we fit with each other so I can totally relate to you. I'm very happy you found someone who saved you and I'm also hoping your depression is going away or gone for good!!!! Facebook messenger has video if you don't want to use skype. Skype for some reason never has a great connection for me anymore and this is using Google Fiber. Don't let distance stand in between your love for someone, if you love someone distance is invisible if that makes sense! :)

Awesome. I'm glad I am not alone and that there are others here who are experiencing this also. Thing is, Terra really hates how she looks. She has extremely low self esteem and is not ready to show me what she looks like yet, even though I have showed her on more than one occasion what I look like. She just isn't at that point yet, I guess. :/ But she won't even just use the messenger on Skype and she doesn't always come on Susan's chat so I have like no way of contacting her outside of there. -.-

No email, Facebook, Cell phone? Thats odd. I would definitely be patient with how and when she want's to show herself. I didn't feel beautiful at all but get compliments alot which is encouraging but I think 99% of women are self concious of how they look. Take things one step at a time and don't rush into things. I'm always here too if you need to talk!!! Things work out its just patience which I know some people do not have, including my friend Emily!!!! She is the worst with patience

Quote from: JeNn_DeViLz on August 07, 2016, 12:51:29 PM
No email, Facebook, Cell phone? Thats odd. I would definitely be patient with how and when she want's to show herself. I didn't feel beautiful at all but get compliments alot which is encouraging but I think 99% of women are self concious of how they look. Take things one step at a time and don't rush into things. I'm always here too if you need to talk!!! Things work out its just patience which I know some people do not have, including my friend Emily!!!! She is the worst with patience

Yes, That's what bugs me. At least an email. I mean absolutely no other way of contacting her exists for me other than through Susan's chatroom. I agree nonetheless that patience is key here. I don't want to seem like I am forcing her to do something she is not even comfortable with. Yeah, it'll take time, I think, but I hope at some point, we get there, Terra and I. ;D Thanks so much for understanding!

Absolutely! I just let Mexico go she is crazy. Life is the jar that holds the nuts lol! You will be fine! Is it cold there yet?

That's awesome news Tristyn. I hope she opens up to you more and you two can go from there. Sounds like she needs to take baby steps to get there. Keep doing what you're doing, man. Being there for her on the chat while she heals is the best thing you can do for her.

Oh I hope something works out, I love these wee potential romances, so Cute!

Be careful.
You've mentioned toooo many red flags about her.
No other forms of contact makes it seem like the person is married.

Me too, I'm surprised that no one cautioned you against a fraud.

You are a young transgender person, therefore vulnerable, and "met" this person when you were in an even more vulnerable state because of your suicidal feelings. There are people who prey on just that profile.

And showing yourself with no feedback is a red flag. I hope you didn't give this person any of your personal detail.