Community Conversation => Transgender talk => Topic started by: Tristan on October 23, 2016, 09:18:43 PM Return to Full Version
Title: My second realization [Sorta]
Post by: Tristan on October 23, 2016, 09:18:43 PM
Post by: Tristan on October 23, 2016, 09:18:43 PM
I have found myself in the woods a couple times feeling complete solitude and freedom from the outside world
It's when i was inside the woods i realized, i'm a man. Because when i walked out of those woods i get confused as soon as i see the people the houses and realize that solitude has disappeared from not only my grasp but from my view.
This brought me to confusion i couldn't understand why it was happening or what this even was people had spoken about it before but never in a way i could understand exactly to the core so it's like they explained but i couldn't see the peaces so their explanations of how this happened to them didn't fit for me so i never put it together. It was a couple of my friends that helped me understand it using my experience and a couple of their own examples and eventually it made perfect sense and i thought why didn't i figure it out alone? Wow, crazy how sometimes our answers are in front of our eyes but we haven't gotten the correct view point yet so everything is still foggy till we clean the glass and clear the confusion then look outside again. ^_^ So that's how i figured it out or had it happen, maybe this can help someone else or maybe someone else can help someone else, but here is how it happened for me and i hope it can help someone else in the future i thought it may be important to share.
Basically for me the answer became: It happens because i'm scared of how society will view me as a person.
I'm scared i'll become this image that isn't true. And i was also concerned with how i put myself out in the world scared of how to be myself in expression along with clothing. All due to the stereotypes society built into my mind.
In reality, it's my life and its scary but its even more scary thinking if i don't be me i'll be trapped so i'll be me instead.
It's when i was inside the woods i realized, i'm a man. Because when i walked out of those woods i get confused as soon as i see the people the houses and realize that solitude has disappeared from not only my grasp but from my view.
This brought me to confusion i couldn't understand why it was happening or what this even was people had spoken about it before but never in a way i could understand exactly to the core so it's like they explained but i couldn't see the peaces so their explanations of how this happened to them didn't fit for me so i never put it together. It was a couple of my friends that helped me understand it using my experience and a couple of their own examples and eventually it made perfect sense and i thought why didn't i figure it out alone? Wow, crazy how sometimes our answers are in front of our eyes but we haven't gotten the correct view point yet so everything is still foggy till we clean the glass and clear the confusion then look outside again. ^_^ So that's how i figured it out or had it happen, maybe this can help someone else or maybe someone else can help someone else, but here is how it happened for me and i hope it can help someone else in the future i thought it may be important to share.
Basically for me the answer became: It happens because i'm scared of how society will view me as a person.
I'm scared i'll become this image that isn't true. And i was also concerned with how i put myself out in the world scared of how to be myself in expression along with clothing. All due to the stereotypes society built into my mind.
In reality, it's my life and its scary but its even more scary thinking if i don't be me i'll be trapped so i'll be me instead.