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Title: Six Weeks
Post by: KarynMcD on October 28, 2016, 01:35:06 PM
If you had asked me six weeks ago if I was ever going to transition, I would have said, "No. I'm happy. I'm not really going to pass well. I don't think I need to go any further." My friends are treating me as a girl. My girlfriend is happy. Meh, why go through the trouble.
And yet, here I am at work in a dress and makeup.

I'm not sure what changed. I just turned 49 at the beginning of the month, maybe the thought of running out of time and my never being able to fully express myself was becoming over whelming. Maybe I was getting tired of hiding the changes.

No I still don't really pass well, but I don't really care anymore.

Like some other people have said, it doesn't matter if you have a plan, sometimes life has its own plan.
Title: Re: Six Weeks
Post by: Barb99 on October 28, 2016, 05:42:04 PM
Quote from: KarynMcD on October 28, 2016, 01:35:06 PM
No I still don't really pass well, but I don't really care anymore.

My exact words back in Feb. this year right after I went full time. Like you I was a late bloomer (started HRT at age 59 and went full time at 60) but ya know, I pass much better than I thought I did. About the only thing that gives me away is my voice and I'm working on that.

I strive to look nice and with a nice selection of clothing and longer hair I can look rather presentable, but living full time for almost a year now has taught me that passing 100% is not the big deal that I once thought it was. Whats really important is that I now feel like me and I'm happier than I've ever been!

Hugs
Title: Re: Six Weeks
Post by: KathyLauren on October 28, 2016, 07:53:47 PM
Quote from: KarynMcD on October 28, 2016, 01:35:06 PM
Like some other people have said, it doesn't matter if you have a plan, sometimes life has its own plan.
A friend of mine from my support group posted this yesterday: "My entire life can be summed up in one sentence: 'Well that didn't ... go as planned.' " (One word omitted due to forum rules.)  Life does indeed have its own plan, or perhaps no plan at all.

I am glad that your life is working out for you, planned or not.
Title: Re: Six Weeks
Post by: Michelle_P on October 28, 2016, 08:11:35 PM
Quote from: Charley on October 28, 2016, 05:42:04 PM
I strive to look nice and with a nice selection of clothing and longer hair I can look rather presentable, but living full time for almost a year now has taught me that passing 100% is not the big deal that I once thought it was. Whats really important is that I now feel like me and I'm happier than I've ever been!

There you go!  That, I think, is what really matters.  We can be true to ourselves, drop the masks we've had to live behind, and LIVE our lives ourselves.

I had to deal with a couple of delivery people the other day, and one kept "Sir"ing me, his little "You don't fool me" message.  Dude, I'm not trying to fool you. I'm just trying to BE ME.

It's not my problem if he wants to out himself as a narrow-minded intolerant jerk.

I'm living my life.  Finally!
Title: Re: Six Weeks
Post by: HappyMoni on October 28, 2016, 08:19:52 PM
Looking forward to transition it seems impossible that one can do it. Looking back, it seems impossible that it really happened. At the same time, it seems even crazier to think of life without it. That happiness thing IS all it is cracked up to be. :)
Moni
Title: Re: Six Weeks
Post by: Xirafel on October 29, 2016, 01:40:03 AM
Quoterunning out of time
On my mind everyday for the past month or two.
Title: Re: Six Weeks
Post by: Rachel on October 30, 2016, 05:45:28 PM
I started HTR at 50. I am 54 and well into my transition. I never thought I would ever be at this point but I am glad I am :)