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Okay, I don't know if it's because I've been taking these pills for over a week, but I'm crying a lot now while rarely ever doing it before (when I was going crazy with the soya milk, otherwise that emotion was completely shut down).

Should I be concerned?

No, welcome to womanhood.

It takes time to get use to your new found emotions. You may find yourself crying at a commercial.

Hi, Xirafel!  (I still love that name...)  This is pretty normal.  After about 10 days in on estradiol I started the emotional rollercoaster ride, breaking down in crying jags and occasional swings upward as well.  Unlike the testosterone driven folks, we seem to have easier access to our emotions, and these sort of swings are pretty normal.

After several months, I'm getting a bit more control over this, although sufficiently stressful situations (like my current one) will get me going pretty good.

As Rachel Lynn said, "Welcome to womanhood."  It's part of the package, and frankly, I'm happen to have it.

Since I was "Not like other guys"; my wife thought I cried a lot before starting E. Now she knows what I am really capable of  :o

Honestly, as someone who doesn't like overly-emotional behavior, I'm a bit worried about how i might be on HRT...

This doesn't happen to everyone.  I don't cry anymore now than I did before.  I've always had tears at some types of movies though, usually those involving love, death and afterlife.


It is better to be hated for what you are than to be loved for what you are not.
André Gide, Autumn Leaves

Greetings Xirafel,

As has been mentioned, each of us has differ levels of demand for the tissue box. Before beginning any form of transition I cried maybe once every 10 or 20 years....a couple of tears. Two months ago  after hitting two months on hrt, things changed, big time. I can and do cry rivers now. Sometimes over simple little things, either sad or happy. Sometimes I am just leveled. Last Sunday I found a new church that truly welcomed me. Their  level of acceptance was so welcome after the painful rejection from my home church of thirty years. I can'tell explain it but I sat and sobbed, racking torrents of tears for more than  a full hour. I was exhausted but never felt better in my life. Your milage may vary but I recommend that you carry lots of extra tissues just in case.

Anne

Quote from: Deborah on October 29, 2016, 08:28:56 AM
This doesn't happen to everyone.  I don't cry anymore now than I did before.  I've always had tears at some types of movies though, usually those involving love, death and afterlife.


It is better to be hated for what you are than to be loved for what you are not.
André Gide, Autumn Leaves

Thank you for your post! I was starting to feel like something was wrong with me or that I'm a heartless monster haha but my experiences are more like yours. After a bit over 5 months on HRT I can't notice any difference in crying from before. I've always been a more emotional person and my eyes do get teary eyed/sad quite a bit at sappy stuff but full blown tears are nigh impossible for me, kinda wish it was possible but I guess I'll just have to settle for some "Dust" in the eyes haha

What I have noticed a huge increase in is laughter, maybe it's just the mental peace or happiness from starting HRT but I'm able to laugh much more then I ever have in my life beforehand and it can be hard to stop laughing at times as I feel like a schoolgirl who giggles at everything >_< That an embarrassment as I'm easily embarrassed by simple things  around my guy friends and when I start laughing I tend to cover my face and tell them not to look at me haha

Prior to beginning transition I cried very rarely, mostly about sad scenes in movies and the like. However, as a child and youth I was very sensitive and would cry at the drop of a hat. During my teen years I turned off my tears and didn't have a real cry for 35 years. Once I began transition I found I was allowing myself to cry openly, which after so long a drought felt wonderful. Now that I am on HRT I cry multiple times every day, often for no discernible reason! I believe I am simply returning to my natural sensitive and emotional state and cannot be happier about it, though it can be exhausting!

Quote from: Deborah on October 29, 2016, 08:28:56 AM
This doesn't happen to everyone.  I don't cry anymore now than I did before.  I've always had tears at some types of movies though, usually those involving love, death and afterlife.

This has also been true for me.  I don't cry any more now than before I started HRT.

Thing is, all throughout my life, I was never ashamed to let my emotions out.  I didn't feel bad about crying in front of other people, even when I lived as a boy and later as a man.  I'd cry during a sad scene in a movie, and sometimes I'd even cry when watching a sad commercial.  It'd usually be stories of self-sacrifice that would get me to tear up.  And all that was before transition, before HRT, and even before I realized I was trans.  I think that has a lot to do with it, at least for me.  Needless to say I didn't have very many male friends before my transition, and zero "manly" friends.  :)

I've always cried very easily in life .. just the way I am. People would describe me
as very sensitive. Since being on HRT, my crying has become even more frequent
Something I  guess you have to get used to. Sometimes I think ..  why are
you getting so emotional .. oh! maybe hormones.

At the drop of a hat.... ;)

I'm not sure if it's the pills causing it or whether it's the placebo effect. Complicated.

Well, it probably is the pills, I mean I'm crying really easily compared to before.
No, that wouldn't be good if it is the pills. I refuse to accept that the pills are having a positive influence, that's ridiculous.
It's totally ridiculous. Totally. Super, super ridiculous. It must be a delusion.

Um, my mind's fighting itself again.

Definitely started crying more once my dosages went up.

I was always more prone to tears prior, but now I have to be careful in movie selection otherwise the ware works go crazy.

My empathy seems to be broken too. Thinking about my friend's depression makes me cry, especially how powerless I am to help. Mm, I'm just a worthless piece of trash in every way.

Xirafel you are a good person. If you are saddened to tears because of your friends depression your empathy is fine. It can feel as though you are powerless to help when someone you care about is suffering depression. I've been there. All you can really do is be available for them.

As for tears, I'm not on any HRT but I cry even if only slight very easily. There's nothing wrong with that. It just means you are in touch with your emotions, and that's not a bad thing at all.

I don't believe that women cry more than men. I'm pretty sure that crying can be a response to emotions normally not associated with being feminine.

For instance, I used to cry a lot before I transitioned. I cried if I was really angry at someone, I cried at weddings, but I also cried at epic movies, epic songs and epic sunsets. I cried whenever I watched a movie with big, burly men slaughtering each other with swords and I cried when I watched a classic MMA fight, where Fedor Emelianenko turned Mark Coleman's face to so much mincemeat... and then they hugged. I didn't cry when they were bashing each other's brains out; I cried when they hugged, because it was so sweet, and epic, and I cried my eyes out.

I cried in church, when I was younger. I would go and stand well in the back where nobody would see me and cry my stupid eyes out, until I couldn't see in front of my face. There was noone to hear me, noone to love me, but I cried into the empty, careless void anyway.

I don't think I cried more after transition. If anything, when I watch Game of Thrones nowadays, or something like that, I'm a bit, meh, whatever. Yeah, go on, lop his head off. I ain't crying over that. Seen it all.

But I still cry at weddings.

(I didn't cry at the Red Wedding. Boo-ring).

Quote from: Xirafel on November 07, 2016, 05:57:12 AM
My empathy seems to be broken too. Thinking about my friend's depression makes me cry, especially how powerless I am to help. Mm, I'm just a worthless piece of trash in every way.

No.  Every life has value.  Everyone has value.  It's the vapid mass media that has no value, elevating a select few up on a pedestal for not necessarily notable reasons.

Quote from: Xirafel on October 28, 2016, 07:12:25 PM
Okay, I don't know if it's because I've been taking these pills for over a week, but I'm crying a lot now while rarely ever doing it before (when I was going crazy with the soya milk, otherwise that emotion was completely shut down).

Should I be concerned?

I'm not Mtf but i understand being the body i was born inside
It's completely normal to have these emotions and sometimes they can feel intense
and it'll last forever but trust me it's not so bad when you get used to who knows it might help somethings.
So if you start tearing up over simple things inside daily life it's all good :)

I've noticed a bit more dispersonalization after starting hrt. Not sure why.

I know reality might not be as pleasant as the concept, but I'd love to be in the position of crying so easily, overwhelmed by female emotions.

As I posted earlier, I never was much of a tear shedder before but since starting hrt tears have flowed freely. Lately I have been going through a lot of transition "stuff" and the wrestling with all of the identity "stuff" (not even mentioning the political "stuff") has been intensely hammering both my head and my heart. I am so thankful that the crying is coming very easily for me as the relief of a good sobbing cry is unbelievably soul cleansing. Almost as helpful as a good hug.

Anne

I was emotional before HRT now I get emotional much more easily. I am use to it now and it is a release of emotions. It has a good feeling afterwards.

When my testosterone bottomed out i had my share of crying.  everyone is different, my T levels need to be 20 to 50 to not be an emotional wreck, others can be in single digits and function fine.  if you are depressed or get depressed and still have crying episode i would encourage you to talk with your HRT doc and get some blood work going 

It's part of the journey into womanhood. I get emotional say when watching a tearjerker movie which might be tears and or rushes throughout my body but never cry without an external stimulus.

As time goes by you may find yourself on a emotional rollercoaster and have times when things for lack of better words will become normal without a lot of sensory reactions or go in the opposite direction, everyone is different.   

You'll get used to it. Just watch out for overloaded emotions in any direction. If any emotion is too strong, even anger, I end up in uncontrollable tears and half the time I don't even know what I'm crying about. My wife says it's depression, but it's not. It's just learning how to cope with emotions that weren't there before.