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So I'm in a bit of a sticky situation.. I'm a young trans-masculine kid (17, young compared to trans* adults) and I came out when I first was 14. My family reacted well, at least that's how the acted around me. I heard some pretty bad things, but it's fine. They didn't say it to my face.
But then earlier at 17, I re-entered the closet. I had tricked myself into believing I was a girl again just to please my mom. Now it's been a few months, and I've moved on from a few boys that wanted me to "be a girl", and I want to come out again. I just don't want my parents to call me a wishy-washy, indecisive teenager.

Any advice?
Thank you!

Welcome to Susan's Place. Unfortunately the best you will be able to do is tell the truth about this. If you are still seeng a therapist, you should discuss it there first and then have your family discussion. You are not the first or will be the last to deal with this. There are people on this site who have made transition attempts, had them fail only to transition again at a latter date. In your case you should carefully consider why your first attempt failed before you make a second attempt then explain this to your family. Good luck.

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I had a similar experience.  I had a not thought out coming out to my dad when I was 19 and it was very quickly forgotten about bcos I didn't stabd uo for myself or had a structured plan for how to go forward. At 21 I wrote an email to my dad so I could get my thoughts down properly. The first part of my letter I explained how I felt about my assigned gender growing up, the middle part about how I felt now about my assigned gender and the last bit was about what I wanted to do transition wise. I also included some useful links at the bottom.

Get ready for fake support, purposeful misgendering and ignoring you being trans. It's worth it in the end, good luck :)