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This is not about living life insanely (although that might be the case). I was talking to my mother a couple of nights ago, and she was calling me, "you're weird! weirdo! no heart!".... I don't even have her support pretending to be normal... what could I expect when I become real, I let her talk, and then I realize she's a toxic person in my life.. I care about what she thinks of me to the point I am not living life. I won't go there too much. But the point is, I am not at all, what she thinks I am (and the illusion that I created). We live in a digital-world, our lives are like url and links, there is no such thing as privacy... if I am become "real", she will find out.

I don't want to give a damn what she thinks. OR ANYONE'S THINKING.

I also realize that people are not honest, people don't care about anyone but themselves (In general). I think there's toxicity that's in my mind right now, like worms digging into my brain and making me feel like a total disaster. Then I woke up. Who cares about the negativity of what others think of me? 

If I want to wear pink fishnets, cut my hair like Miley Cyrus, wear gothic high heels, wear a tuxedo and a mini skirt, put gold glitter, elf ears, and walk the streets like that.... I shouldn't care about what people think of me. We dress the we dress because we care about the thoughts of people. I am transgender, but I am also a hedonistic bicurious, and into men, philosophy, artist, crazy person.  I am a woman, but I am fine looking masculine too (like Miley Cyrus).

I don't want to say I am Lady Gaga, but now I see why she was Lady Gaga. I can see her influence clearly on pop. I can see the influence of Madonna on pop. And the influence of Christina Aguilera when dropped "Stripped" back in 2002. All these women freed society and women's rights to be insane, crazy, and speak their minds.

I want advice on how to not care? I already wasted a quarter of life (if I live to 100), don't want to waste the next 3 quarters.

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I did also waist the first quarter, but then I thought just like you that I would not waist the coming years so I went full time. It was so hard in the beginning, at the start I cared what everyone thought of me all the time, thought everyone was looking at me all the time. Then after a while it got easier I stopped care so much I got more confident in my self and that made all the difference. What ever new path you take in life that radically alters your life will take some time to get use to. Even though if it seems hard/impossible in the beginning if you keep throwing yourself out in the world as your new self it will eventually get easier and you will stop caring.

I wish you all the best in the future
Hugs   

QuoteI want advice on how to not care?

Okay Wildflower.  Here's some wisdom from a dear old friend of mine. It has always served me well.............

Your opinion of me is none of my business

Quote from: jentay1367 on December 18, 2016, 03:11:02 PM
Okay Wildflower.  Here's some wisdom from a dear old friend of mine. It has always served me well.............

Your opinion of me is none of my business

Awesome. I will think of this a lot.

Quote from: Vinya on December 18, 2016, 02:33:16 PM
I did also waist the first quarter, but then I thought just like you that I would not waist the coming years so I went full time. It was so hard in the beginning, at the start I cared what everyone thought of me all the time, thought everyone was looking at me all the time. Then after a while it got easier I stopped care so much I got more confident in my self and that made all the difference. What ever new path you take in life that radically alters your life will take some time to get use to. Even though if it seems hard/impossible in the beginning if you keep throwing yourself out in the world as your new self it will eventually get easier and you will stop caring.

I wish you all the best in the future
Hugs

I don't even think I am going to try to be a passable transgender person (until I get more money), but it doesn't mean I am going to live in fear that I am not passable. I don't care.

It's all over with.... my mind is blank right now. Freedom from this negativity, freedom from everything.

I am going to live a fearless life now. Just me, myself, and I (and everyone else who isn't with me can go).