Community Conversation => Transitioning => Hormone replacement therapy => Topic started by: Xirafel on January 31, 2017, 11:01:13 PM Return to Full Version
Title: feb updates... :(
Post by: Xirafel on January 31, 2017, 11:01:13 PM
Post by: Xirafel on January 31, 2017, 11:01:13 PM
I'm back momentarily o-o
I'm lonely and regretful a good portion of the time. Every now and then, it's so strong that it's nearly.. unbearable... where did my soul go...? it's..gone..
..someone understood me once...but then they lost sight of me...and i lost sight of me...
My emotions seem to be a little more stable when dealing with humans (heard of them? they're these strange bipedal creatures on earth o.o), except for when I talk to someone at 4AM. I get worked up really easily over stupid things for some reason, particularly when someone's talking provocatively o.o
The breasts aren't really changing much, although it feels... Different when I touch it like it's a lot more sensitive and has a slightly different texture, is it my imagination? Maybe, I'm just overthinking it.
I haven't found the lumps people keep talking about. They still sink back in, probably because they don't have any structural support, they'll just get reabsorbed into the body when the pills run out :(
My left hand is becoming extremely dry and I'm afraid it might start bleeding at this rate like it did overseas. And... the pills... are running out in less than a month... It takes so many just to have an effect... the psychologist doesn't think burning it is enough... how do i convince her...? it's probably pointless... a delusion...
I'm just a monster... a hideous... and horrible... monster.. you should stay away from me... im just... a horrible horrible monster...
I'm lonely and regretful a good portion of the time. Every now and then, it's so strong that it's nearly.. unbearable... where did my soul go...? it's..gone..
..someone understood me once...but then they lost sight of me...and i lost sight of me...
My emotions seem to be a little more stable when dealing with humans (heard of them? they're these strange bipedal creatures on earth o.o), except for when I talk to someone at 4AM. I get worked up really easily over stupid things for some reason, particularly when someone's talking provocatively o.o
The breasts aren't really changing much, although it feels... Different when I touch it like it's a lot more sensitive and has a slightly different texture, is it my imagination? Maybe, I'm just overthinking it.
I haven't found the lumps people keep talking about. They still sink back in, probably because they don't have any structural support, they'll just get reabsorbed into the body when the pills run out :(
My left hand is becoming extremely dry and I'm afraid it might start bleeding at this rate like it did overseas. And... the pills... are running out in less than a month... It takes so many just to have an effect... the psychologist doesn't think burning it is enough... how do i convince her...? it's probably pointless... a delusion...
I'm just a monster... a hideous... and horrible... monster.. you should stay away from me... im just... a horrible horrible monster...
Title: Re: feb updates... :(
Post by: LizK on February 01, 2017, 06:31:06 AM
Post by: LizK on February 01, 2017, 06:31:06 AM
Hi Xirafel,
I am glad you are here and posting again. Has it really been 4.5 months for you? Wow time flies. You have some breast budding? I take it you are still trying to reduce you T via Physical means? Ouch...I take it you still have no luck over the Dr thing to get some T blockers? What a pain
Hang in there but it sounds like you need something to block your T because your physical interventions are not working. You might not want to damage it too bad as you may want the skin and bits to make up a more preferable arrangement...if you damage them too much could make it hard for you...
Glad you are here
Liz
I am glad you are here and posting again. Has it really been 4.5 months for you? Wow time flies. You have some breast budding? I take it you are still trying to reduce you T via Physical means? Ouch...I take it you still have no luck over the Dr thing to get some T blockers? What a pain
Hang in there but it sounds like you need something to block your T because your physical interventions are not working. You might not want to damage it too bad as you may want the skin and bits to make up a more preferable arrangement...if you damage them too much could make it hard for you...
Glad you are here
Liz