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Title: Maksim jumps in
Post by: maksim on February 12, 2017, 05:31:50 AM
Post by: maksim on February 12, 2017, 05:31:50 AM
Hello! I'm Maksim, but you can call me Max! :^)
I'm 18 years old, I love to write and produce music, I have a beautiful girlfriend and two beautiful cats, and I'm FTM transgender.
My story is a bit of a wacky one. Back when I was 12, I realized that there was a word for how I was feeling. I felt like I was born the wrong gender, and when I found out that being transgender was an actual thing, I felt so relieved! I immediately told my mom and dad, who rejected it at first, but finally allowed me to socially transition when I was 14. The only condition was that I had to act as masculine as possible.
Now, the thing with me is that I don't feel like a masculine guy at all. I feel quite feminine, and guys can obviously be feminine, but due to the intense pressure from both my parents and society as a whole to be masculine, I kind of caved and retracted all the work I'd put into socially transitioning. I told people that I had just been confused, and that I actually identified as a girl, but it was all lies so I could express my femininity to its fullest. Unfortunately this came at a great price, and took a huge toll on my self esteem.
I've been very solid in my identity since I first discovered it. Despite not having masculine personality traits or way of expression, I know in my soul that I'm a guy.
I recently re-came out to my girlfriend and a few of my friends, and I have yet to talk to my parents about this. The reception of this has been well so far, and I can only hope that from my parents it will be the same!
I'm looking forward to sharing my journey to transition with you all!! :^)
I'm 18 years old, I love to write and produce music, I have a beautiful girlfriend and two beautiful cats, and I'm FTM transgender.
My story is a bit of a wacky one. Back when I was 12, I realized that there was a word for how I was feeling. I felt like I was born the wrong gender, and when I found out that being transgender was an actual thing, I felt so relieved! I immediately told my mom and dad, who rejected it at first, but finally allowed me to socially transition when I was 14. The only condition was that I had to act as masculine as possible.
Now, the thing with me is that I don't feel like a masculine guy at all. I feel quite feminine, and guys can obviously be feminine, but due to the intense pressure from both my parents and society as a whole to be masculine, I kind of caved and retracted all the work I'd put into socially transitioning. I told people that I had just been confused, and that I actually identified as a girl, but it was all lies so I could express my femininity to its fullest. Unfortunately this came at a great price, and took a huge toll on my self esteem.
I've been very solid in my identity since I first discovered it. Despite not having masculine personality traits or way of expression, I know in my soul that I'm a guy.
I recently re-came out to my girlfriend and a few of my friends, and I have yet to talk to my parents about this. The reception of this has been well so far, and I can only hope that from my parents it will be the same!
I'm looking forward to sharing my journey to transition with you all!! :^)
Title: Re: Maksim jumps in
Post by: V M on February 12, 2017, 04:26:31 PM
Post by: V M on February 12, 2017, 04:26:31 PM
Hi Max :icon_wave:
Welcome to Susan's Place :) Glad to have you here, join on in the fun
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V M
Welcome to Susan's Place :) Glad to have you here, join on in the fun
Here are some links to the site rules and stuff that we offer to all new members to help them along
Please be sure to review:
Things that you should read
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V M
Title: Re: Maksim jumps in
Post by: Jackie S on February 12, 2017, 07:37:04 PM
Post by: Jackie S on February 12, 2017, 07:37:04 PM
Welcome Max! It's good to meet you. There are lots of wonderful people here to share with.
Given what you said, you might want to spend a little time in the non-binary forum. There you will find people who primarily identify as one gender, but like to express the other sometimes, as well. And, then there are some of us who live roughly in the middle, and some who move back and forth from one side to the other... depending on the day, the moon, or the time. ;)
Who knows? It might clarify things for you further. (And, if it just muddies the water for you... then welcome. Many NBs (non-binaries) feel that muddle a lot. ;) )
Either way, welcome and join in.
Hugs,
Jackie
Quote from: maksim on February 12, 2017, 05:31:50 AM
Hello! I'm Maksim, but you can call me Max! :^)
I'm 18 years old, I love to write and produce music, I have a beautiful girlfriend and two beautiful cats, and I'm FTM transgender.
...
Now, the thing with me is that I don't feel like a masculine guy at all. I feel quite feminine, and guys can obviously be feminine, but due to the intense pressure from both my parents and society as a whole to be masculine, I kind of caved and retracted all the work I'd put into socially transitioning. I told people that I had just been confused, and that I actually identified as a girl, but it was all lies so I could express my femininity to its fullest. Unfortunately this came at a great price, and took a huge toll on my self esteem.
I've been very solid in my identity since I first discovered it. Despite not having masculine personality traits or way of expression, I know in my soul that I'm a guy.
Given what you said, you might want to spend a little time in the non-binary forum. There you will find people who primarily identify as one gender, but like to express the other sometimes, as well. And, then there are some of us who live roughly in the middle, and some who move back and forth from one side to the other... depending on the day, the moon, or the time. ;)
Who knows? It might clarify things for you further. (And, if it just muddies the water for you... then welcome. Many NBs (non-binaries) feel that muddle a lot. ;) )
Either way, welcome and join in.
Hugs,
Jackie