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I have often dreamed I was male and tbh I never felt so real. I had a dream that where I was biologically male and I was so disappointed to wake up to be faced with the alien body....

I guess I will have to wait for T in June if I'm getting it. I just want to have that body now!!


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Been there from the other side more times than I can count, sweetie. It's a jarring, horrible feeling when you wake up. I know very well how it feels. Like your mind is free, and suddenly back in chains. *extra big hug*

Quote from: Sephirah on February 16, 2017, 03:21:53 PM
Been there from the other side more times than I can count, sweetie. It's a jarring, horrible feeling when you wake up. I know very well how it feels. Like your mind is free, and suddenly back in chains. *extra big hug*

It is exactly like that!
I guess as long as I further my transition it'll get easier right? *hugs*


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Quote from: ghostbees on February 16, 2017, 03:30:51 PM
It is exactly like that!
I guess as long as I further my transition it'll get easier right? *hugs*


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I believe so, yes. In my experience it never really goes away. The mind knows who we are. And there are times where, when everything else falls away, we live that life, entirely in the moment of who we are, free of the shackles of disparity. But yes... the more you draw the outside into line with the inside, you gain a measure of peace, and congruence.

I hope and wish that comes quickly for you, hon. It is one of the worst feelings in the world to be yourself and wake up trapped in an unfamiliar prison of flesh.

Quote from: Sephirah on February 16, 2017, 03:40:14 PM
I believe so, yes. In my experience it never really goes away. The mind knows who we are. And there are times where, when everything else falls away, we live that life, entirely in the moment of who we are, free of the shackles of disparity. But yes... the more you draw the outside into line with the inside, you gain a measure of peace, and congruence.

I hope and wish that comes quickly for you, hon. It is one of the worst feelings in the world to be yourself and wake up trapped in an unfamiliar prison of flesh.

Yes, I agree it's strange how our mind can know sometimes even before we do - in my experience. I knew something was off but I couldn't put a name to it.

Thank you [emoji4] it really means a lot! I'm sure the months will just fade away and as I explore more and openly socially transition I will finally feel less shackled. At time being I will just have to accept that my body is mine and because it is mine I can change it how I see fit!!


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I really hope you can get on T this summer! I'm sure you'll be posting about it, but I hope I get to hear about it then.

I seem to have the opposite problem. I rarely ever dream I'm male (whether it's just others in the dream calling me one or I "look like one"), and always feel like it's a sign I'm not truly trans. Or I am just having issues fully seeing myself as one because lack of confidence and internal issues ::)

So I used to think that how I saw myself in my dreams was how I felt about my gender. I used it as a way to reinforce the idea that I was a cisgendered male, even when I didn't actually believe it. "If you're a girl, then why do you see who you are physically in your dreams?" Then I would have a dream where I turned female or something and I would panic until I had another dream where I saw how I currently am. What I've been realizing recently is that my dreams are just that--just dreams. The vast majority of my dreams are just boring. No substance. I don't even see myself in most dreams. So now I'm starting to reject any merit in what I see while I sleep.

Just my two-cents-worth on the dream subject. :)

It did change over time for me... I am very rarely not male in dreams, after you accept yourself I think the subconscious allows you to see it and feel it more as well.

Quote from: lc100 on February 16, 2017, 04:13:50 PM
I really hope you can get on T this summer! I'm sure you'll be posting about it, but I hope I get to hear about it then.

I seem to have the opposite problem. I rarely ever dream I'm male (whether it's just others in the dream calling me one or I "look like one"), and always feel like it's a sign I'm not truly trans. Or I am just having issues fully seeing myself as one because lack of confidence and internal issues ::)

Thanks [emoji4]
I really hope so too! I have been waiting a long time for it so I can't wait for treatment, I'm really excited for the changes that testosterone brings especially the physical changes.

I think maybe it takes time I mean before I knew I was trans I used to dream I was female. Sometimes dreams can be funny like that and there is no one way to be transgender.


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