Community Conversation => Transgender talk => Topic started by: Larisa on March 13, 2017, 02:53:12 PM Return to Full Version
Title: Dont call me a girly boy, Im a girl.
Post by: Larisa on March 13, 2017, 02:53:12 PM
Post by: Larisa on March 13, 2017, 02:53:12 PM
Today was those times I deny myself and who I am. I dont want to talk about it so I lie about everything. I tried to play up the fake tough guy act and act like all macho acting like anything and everything girl like I am not. It becomes awkward when anyone notices anything girly in me and I become very defensive or lie about it. Ill talk about it when or if I want to.
This lady noticed something more female about me and I instantly became in denial. I completely lied about crying when she said guys cry and this came up because I mentioned something that makes me sad relating to animals. It felt awkward. I know I lied, I didnt want to talk about myself or anything female. I know Im a girl and I know who I am and I know when Im ready to talk about the real me, I will. I def cry and Im not a feminine guy like she assumed, Im a girl. Maybe that is what got me so defensive and lie.
Im accepting of who I am and Im not a boy, a girly boy, Im a girl and Im female and even though she didnt know, it still annoys me. To others I still appear as a boy but to call me a girly boy basically is just wrong.
This lady noticed something more female about me and I instantly became in denial. I completely lied about crying when she said guys cry and this came up because I mentioned something that makes me sad relating to animals. It felt awkward. I know I lied, I didnt want to talk about myself or anything female. I know Im a girl and I know who I am and I know when Im ready to talk about the real me, I will. I def cry and Im not a feminine guy like she assumed, Im a girl. Maybe that is what got me so defensive and lie.
Im accepting of who I am and Im not a boy, a girly boy, Im a girl and Im female and even though she didnt know, it still annoys me. To others I still appear as a boy but to call me a girly boy basically is just wrong.
Title: Re: Dont call me a girly boy, Im a girl.
Post by: AllisonFS on March 13, 2017, 04:04:46 PM
Post by: AllisonFS on March 13, 2017, 04:04:46 PM
Hi Larisa,
I know exactly how you feel. I was driving down the road today and the thought hit me, what if I were to get into a wreck, go to the hospital, and they saw my pretty pink painted toenails? And other times, i have also argued with others over some perceived feminine trait. But I think that deep down, it's NOT that I'm worried about being identified as a woman. In fact, when I think of that, it makes me happy! I think it's really that understanding that trans women in our society are mistreated horribly, and my mind is jumping ahead a step or two. It's NOT that I mind being classified as female, it's that I don't want to be subjected to the harassment and ill treatment that our society dishes out to women like us!
I know exactly how you feel. I was driving down the road today and the thought hit me, what if I were to get into a wreck, go to the hospital, and they saw my pretty pink painted toenails? And other times, i have also argued with others over some perceived feminine trait. But I think that deep down, it's NOT that I'm worried about being identified as a woman. In fact, when I think of that, it makes me happy! I think it's really that understanding that trans women in our society are mistreated horribly, and my mind is jumping ahead a step or two. It's NOT that I mind being classified as female, it's that I don't want to be subjected to the harassment and ill treatment that our society dishes out to women like us!
Title: Re: Dont call me a girly boy, Im a girl.
Post by: JLT1 on March 13, 2017, 09:13:56 PM
Post by: JLT1 on March 13, 2017, 09:13:56 PM
I was there, several years ago. I had to live the truth.
A good day then is a bad day now.
Be who you are.
Hugs
Jen
A good day then is a bad day now.
Be who you are.
Hugs
Jen
Title: Re: Dont call me a girly boy, Im a girl.
Post by: Larisa on March 13, 2017, 09:57:27 PM
Post by: Larisa on March 13, 2017, 09:57:27 PM
It's bad with guys to. Many of them look at me as weak. Oh Im just some wimpy girly boy who we can take advantage of. It's not all guys but Ive talked to guys who I know treat me awful all because in their eyes Im this girly little wimp. It sucks.
If people saw me as the girl I know I am, those guys would act completely different but these stereotypes. I have to act this way. If they saw Larisa, it would be soo different. I really shouldnt care what others think I know.
If people saw me as the girl I know I am, those guys would act completely different but these stereotypes. I have to act this way. If they saw Larisa, it would be soo different. I really shouldnt care what others think I know.