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Title: Hey there! || Discovering myself.
Post by: theqnoumenon on March 13, 2017, 06:55:06 PM
Post by: theqnoumenon on March 13, 2017, 06:55:06 PM
Hi, everybody!
First of all, I want to congratulate you for maintaining such a supportive and helpful forum. It's really exciting seeing people from all around the world giving hope and help to others in a similar situation, and this makes all of you really big.
I've been reading you for some weeks and I think it's time to present myself. I'm Q, from Spain, I'm 21 years old, and I study a dual bachelor in Madrid.
I have never felt as an ordinary boy, but until I was ~15 years old I more or less accepted it (or at least, I hadn't been aware of what means to be read as a boy or as a girl in society), then I started to question more and more my gender. I had a kind of phase looking into transsexuality, trying to know everything about it until I told it to the wrong person, ->-bleeped-<- happened, and I just tried to forget it.
Since then, now some years ago, I have had many doubts about who I am, about how I can define and present me, even about what I felt.
When I started college, I joined the LGBTQ+ association in my university and I found new friends who helped me to forget the bad experiences of the past, I started to open again, to explore myself and how I really feel.
As somebody read as a man, I've never been comfortable around men. I feel completely outside of my assigned gender and I can't stand almost all behaviors most of the people expect from me for just being read as a boy. Also, I always tended to socialize with girls of my age, even though sometimes not fully integrated, like if I didn't fit.
Recently, in my two last years of college, I identified myself as non-binary, but all my doubts about gender always persisted. Some time ago I asked my near friends to call me by feminine pronouns and, progressively, I made some changes in my life in order to do an "experiment" with my feminity, exteriorizing it (at least to my inner social circle), and I'm so glad right now: I love to wear my skirt and leggings and when someone refers to me as "she" I feel happy and integrated.
I can see me in the future transitioning, I can see my future me as a woman, and I feel excited about the possibility; however, my doubts and concerns are (partly) still there and I don't know if I just don't know what I am, or if I am only frightened about the result of all these feelings and how the people can react to this, or if I am in the grey zone in the middle.
I don't know where I am now and I hope that here I can finally discover myself who I really am at the same time I try to help other with my little experience, talking with others that have experienced similar situations.
Again, thank you so much for having this awesome forum, good night from Spain! ^-^
PD: I am sorry for being a bit wordy in my first post. Also, excuse my possible English errors, I'm not used to using English for sharing this kind of feelings.
First of all, I want to congratulate you for maintaining such a supportive and helpful forum. It's really exciting seeing people from all around the world giving hope and help to others in a similar situation, and this makes all of you really big.
I've been reading you for some weeks and I think it's time to present myself. I'm Q, from Spain, I'm 21 years old, and I study a dual bachelor in Madrid.
I have never felt as an ordinary boy, but until I was ~15 years old I more or less accepted it (or at least, I hadn't been aware of what means to be read as a boy or as a girl in society), then I started to question more and more my gender. I had a kind of phase looking into transsexuality, trying to know everything about it until I told it to the wrong person, ->-bleeped-<- happened, and I just tried to forget it.
Since then, now some years ago, I have had many doubts about who I am, about how I can define and present me, even about what I felt.
When I started college, I joined the LGBTQ+ association in my university and I found new friends who helped me to forget the bad experiences of the past, I started to open again, to explore myself and how I really feel.
As somebody read as a man, I've never been comfortable around men. I feel completely outside of my assigned gender and I can't stand almost all behaviors most of the people expect from me for just being read as a boy. Also, I always tended to socialize with girls of my age, even though sometimes not fully integrated, like if I didn't fit.
Recently, in my two last years of college, I identified myself as non-binary, but all my doubts about gender always persisted. Some time ago I asked my near friends to call me by feminine pronouns and, progressively, I made some changes in my life in order to do an "experiment" with my feminity, exteriorizing it (at least to my inner social circle), and I'm so glad right now: I love to wear my skirt and leggings and when someone refers to me as "she" I feel happy and integrated.
I can see me in the future transitioning, I can see my future me as a woman, and I feel excited about the possibility; however, my doubts and concerns are (partly) still there and I don't know if I just don't know what I am, or if I am only frightened about the result of all these feelings and how the people can react to this, or if I am in the grey zone in the middle.
I don't know where I am now and I hope that here I can finally discover myself who I really am at the same time I try to help other with my little experience, talking with others that have experienced similar situations.
Again, thank you so much for having this awesome forum, good night from Spain! ^-^
PD: I am sorry for being a bit wordy in my first post. Also, excuse my possible English errors, I'm not used to using English for sharing this kind of feelings.
Title: Re: Hey there! || Discovering myself.
Post by: V M on March 13, 2017, 06:58:12 PM
Post by: V M on March 13, 2017, 06:58:12 PM
Hi Q :icon_wave:
Welcome to Susan's Place :) Glad to have you here, join on in the fun
Here are some links to the site rules and stuff that we offer to all new members to help them along
Please be sure to review:
Hugs
V M
Welcome to Susan's Place :) Glad to have you here, join on in the fun
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Please be sure to review:
Things that you should read
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Hugs
V M
Title: Re: Hey there! || Discovering myself.
Post by: JeanetteLW on March 13, 2017, 07:42:46 PM
Post by: JeanetteLW on March 13, 2017, 07:42:46 PM
Hi Q,
Welcome to Susan's Place. I am Jeanette, I am MtF and have recently started HRT. I want to invite you into the lounge and into our little community. Come right in and take a seat, grab yourself something to drink and be comfortable. As you know there are lots of good people here that will try to help you.
I don't really know about this fluid gender stuff as it is a newer concept and I'm old. I do know something about crossdressing having done it more or less happily for ,oh dear, 50+ years. I used to think that dressing was all there was to it but have come to accept that I actually wanted more. I wanted to be a woman. I am working on making that happen now or rather I'm working on making my outside match my inside.
You have been doing some experimenting trying to figure out just where you fit in that spectrum between a cis-male and a cis-female. If you keep looking like you are, gathering more information, talking to a therapist, and talking to others, you'll find the answer you are looking for.
Welcome Q and Hugs,
Jeanette
Welcome to Susan's Place. I am Jeanette, I am MtF and have recently started HRT. I want to invite you into the lounge and into our little community. Come right in and take a seat, grab yourself something to drink and be comfortable. As you know there are lots of good people here that will try to help you.
I don't really know about this fluid gender stuff as it is a newer concept and I'm old. I do know something about crossdressing having done it more or less happily for ,oh dear, 50+ years. I used to think that dressing was all there was to it but have come to accept that I actually wanted more. I wanted to be a woman. I am working on making that happen now or rather I'm working on making my outside match my inside.
You have been doing some experimenting trying to figure out just where you fit in that spectrum between a cis-male and a cis-female. If you keep looking like you are, gathering more information, talking to a therapist, and talking to others, you'll find the answer you are looking for.
Welcome Q and Hugs,
Jeanette
Title: Re: Hey there! || Discovering myself.
Post by: theqnoumenon on March 14, 2017, 06:20:37 PM
Post by: theqnoumenon on March 14, 2017, 06:20:37 PM
Thank you for the welcome, I'm pretty happy about being here and finally exteriorizing all this.
I will carry on with this until I figure it out, it's so nice to see more people with the same concerns and thoughts. I accept your invitation and I hope I can do my bit to support this community.
See you in the forums! Hugs ^^
I will carry on with this until I figure it out, it's so nice to see more people with the same concerns and thoughts. I accept your invitation and I hope I can do my bit to support this community.
See you in the forums! Hugs ^^
Title: Re: Hey there! || Discovering myself.
Post by: Charlie Nicki on March 16, 2017, 02:04:53 PM
Post by: Charlie Nicki on March 16, 2017, 02:04:53 PM
Hi Q!
Welcome! Bienvenida y qué bueno ver a otra persona que hable español :) yo también soy nuev@ acá y explorando mi identidad.
Welcome! Bienvenida y qué bueno ver a otra persona que hable español :) yo también soy nuev@ acá y explorando mi identidad.
Title: Re: Hey there! || Discovering myself.
Post by: theqnoumenon on March 16, 2017, 05:27:27 PM
Post by: theqnoumenon on March 16, 2017, 05:27:27 PM
Hi!
Muchas gracias Charlie, lo mismo puedo decir, aquí parece que la mayoría no habla el castellano, que por cierto, acabo de ver que hay un foro en español, ¡nos veremos por allí! ^^
Muchas gracias Charlie, lo mismo puedo decir, aquí parece que la mayoría no habla el castellano, que por cierto, acabo de ver que hay un foro en español, ¡nos veremos por allí! ^^
Title: Re: Hey there! || Discovering myself.
Post by: Charlie Nicki on March 17, 2017, 11:29:16 AM
Post by: Charlie Nicki on March 17, 2017, 11:29:16 AM
Quote from: theqnoumenon on March 16, 2017, 05:27:27 PM
Hi!
Muchas gracias Charlie, lo mismo puedo decir, aquí parece que la mayoría no habla el castellano, que por cierto, acabo de ver que hay un foro en español, ¡nos veremos por allí! ^^
OMG! I hadn't noticed (switching to English in case it's against the rules lol). I'll be there :)
Title: Re: Hey there! || Discovering myself.
Post by: Niki Knight on March 17, 2017, 06:37:05 PM
Post by: Niki Knight on March 17, 2017, 06:37:05 PM
Hi Theqmoumenon, Welcome to Susan's Place
Take your time and explore everything here, its a great resource.
I wish you all the best in your journey and hope you find the answers your looking for.
Huggs Niki
Take your time and explore everything here, its a great resource.
I wish you all the best in your journey and hope you find the answers your looking for.
Huggs Niki
Title: Re: Hey there! || Discovering myself.
Post by: theqnoumenon on March 17, 2017, 08:06:53 PM
Post by: theqnoumenon on March 17, 2017, 08:06:53 PM
Quote from: Niki Knight on March 17, 2017, 06:37:05 PM
Hi Theqmoumenon, Welcome to Susan's Place
Take your time and explore everything here, its a great resource.
I wish you all the best in your journey and hope you find the answers your looking for.
Huggs Niki
Thank you for your welcome and good wishes. I've been exploring the threads and it's amazing how everybody's trying to help and how I can feel so many people.
My best wishes for you all.
Thanks again and hugs :)