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My name is Mara (I would acually prefer to use my real name as its uni-sex but its the internet so yeah), I am 20 yrs old, and reside in Colorado where I have been all my life.  I consider my self a Transsexual, although I have never been one to denotate or advocate Titles. We are all people after all.

My story is short and to the point.  I always felt like a girl, wore my sisters clothes till I was 18. I got caught three times by faimily in the 13 some years I can remember dressing in secrecy (once acually wearing them by sis at 8 years old, and twice by mom finding like 20+ some things from my sis I had horded here or there at ages 15 and 17 lol)  Funny stuff to be honest, but being from a Evangelical Christian home it was not accepted at all, and was really difficult.

I moved out when I was 18 and moved in with my Girlfriend, I had to keep all my "stuff" in the trunk of my mustang for like 1 year before I found a secret place to hide it all.  My realtionship had always been really difficult for me because I did not tell her at the beginning and I consider Honesty really important. Well Finally I got really drunk one night at a friends house and falling asleep on the couch with her I broke down and said it all (probally way to much  ???),  We are now in the offical fourth week of her knowing and having seen me, she is not cool with it at all, she has stated I have ruined her life, that she hates me, but then she also states that she is going to saty with me and takes it all back. Its wierd but I am hoping its gonna work out, cause she is really a high moraled individual and a great person, she's just not attracted to girls at all, and fears living and being intimate with me after transition. Plus she is mad because she considers me a attractive guy and doesnt understand this need to be pretty. lol

I finally ordered about $750 worth of decent clothing and shoes, wigs, real breast forms, ect.  WHICH GETS HERE TODAY YAY!!!!
I LOVE Victorias secret. lol
I am not preparing to transistion for about 7 more months, or just around my 21st birthday.

My plans for transistion are to live as a woman 100% of the time, without any SURGERY, HRT SRS, FFS.  I want to do it all without any of this, they are not for me, and to be honest I really love my masculinity as well.  I would say I am 50/50 with my M/F ratio's  ::)

I just would rather live en femme and keep my anatomy, plus pleasure is important to me so SRS is not even ever an option (despite some saying it is still possible to orgasm, not for me I know that, same with HRT period if "he" doesn't work I dont either.

I would consider Real breasts, FFS and acually really want them but dont know how that would work out with my GG GF,  my main priority in life is not transition but to stay with my future wife.

So there is me, I also enjoy the mountains, mountain sports, cars (love em), skateboarding, and inline (aggro)  >:D, good intelligent conversation, and meeting genuine people (so FREAKIN HARD I SWEAR).

OH also before i forget If you are in colorado.  my GG GF and I are really looking for friends on this side of the fence, my GF more just wants another wife of a TS to talk with but I just want somebody I can relate to on this issue.  Were both really laid back and genuine people that like to do fun things.  Please hit me up, I dont have PM abilites yet but I am slowly posting here and there were I see my opinion fits.

thanks for reading, and hi to all

Respect to you-I like folk who knpw what they kike and dont have to justify who they are-Go Girl!!

Posted on: 21-11-2007, 11:08:46

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Sorry about the spelling !!

Welcome Mara. Great intro!! Glad to have you  ;)

Welcome to Susans place Mara :) :) :)

Hello Mara and welcome to Susan's!  Please take a few moments to get familiar with all the boards of the site, review the site rules  (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,2.0.html)before posting, and take advantage of our many resources such as the wiki (https://www.susans.org/wiki/Main_Page), chat (https://www.susans.org/chat/index.html), and the links listed at the main page. (https://www.susans.org/index.html)  We look forward to your future posts and participation.  Enjoy your stay :)

tink :icon_chick:

Welcome to Susan's as well Mara!!! Hope you like it hear ;D

Thank you all very much, I would have to say this forums is by far one of the most diverse, and well maintained.

I AM THANKFUL TODAY FOR ALL OF YOU!!!!!

Happy thanksgiving!!!!

Welcome Mara!

We're glad to have you here!

Hi Mara,

   Welcome.
    I hope everything works out.  Are you planning on some therapy?
    I'm asking because you left it out of your introduction.   The reason for therapy is to help with planning your transition even if you don't do anything medical.  It's another way of obtaining information and working out what is best for you.  It may also help in handling your girlfriend's doubts.

   
I wish you the best,

Rebis

Hi  Mara and welcome.

Relationships are difficult. But consider this, you now are free to fully discover who you are. I think you know already. But take it at your own pace and be true to yourself.

thanks yes, I have a therapists number and plan to call, my main concern is that she is a therapist who was married to a man who was a TS and she divorced him, I really want to keep my GG GF, and i am a little worried she may give a wrong bias towards things.

I know that sounds wrong, but I really love this girl.

Today I finally got my wig, and when I got dressed up plus the wig, my GF flipped out.  Broke like 4 glasses, ect, in the shower crying.

So I am a little bummed on the bright side I think I look hot  :) :D I wanna post a pic or two for some judging action on passability, but I not sure how too????

Posted on: December 01, 2007, 05:21:35 PM

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Since I first wrote the intro for myself a few things have changed. lol.

Well at first i thought I was CD, then i thought maybe I am a F2M Andogyne, and after around 45+ days of searching in myself, I am declaring that I am a Transsexual.

After a really nasty fight with my SO, I went over to a lesbian friends house and came out to her, which was the best thing I feel I could have done because now I have a really good friend who will support me should my life fall to absolute hell.

With alot of research I am very excited to start a HRT program, and to be honest almost ordered the drugs myself, but slapped my self on the hand knowing that is the wrong way to do things (health and legally), PLUS I am on PROBATION for a felony and cant take the HRT without a prescript(yeah I messed up 3 years ago but have been good since), I have been in perfect compliance and I am scheduled to have the case dropped in 4 months!!! Which is when i plan to begin transistion!!!

I am excited I start with my therapist tommorrow at 1:00,  I will post what happens between the two of us.

Welcome to Susan's, Mara!  Great introduction.  I look forward to hearing more from you.

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I new here and it is nice to meet you. I really hope you find whats right for yourself.

Talk to you later and take care.
Anna

welcome to the forum. I also grew up in Southern Colorado.

Hey Mara! ;)
Nice intro!
Happy New Year!

Hi Mara, Welcome to Susan's
I do pray that you find what it is you need so that you may enriched yourself with the knowledge you acquire form other members here.

Cindy

Hey,

Welcome to the boards and a great intro! I'm sure you'll find a lot of great people and information here...

I really look forward to your future posts.

Peace and love,
Isabelle St-Pierre